presentation..

today i wake up late,i suppose to wake up at 6:40 i wake up but switch off the alarm and continue sleep until 7:30 only wake up automatically then i shock that because i know i will late then faster prepare my thing and try to go out from house before 8am only will not late to college to practice our role play for the last time before presentation started..i dressed up as formal suit and i not sure whether is it look like a boss but i just know because of this presentation i wear the shoes that make my leg very painful and hurtful and have to stick 6 plaster each leg stick 3 plaster..haiz.because of the shoes i have to take off my shoes and walk in the corridor that without shoes with my friend hahaha...funny right?? we walked without shoes to find lecturer and lecturer ask us why we take out our shoes? we said because leg very pain, lecturer also laugh..not only lecturer when we walk in the corridor we knew that many people look at us when we walked thru the corridor but we did not bother because our leg very pain..is that the price that we need to pay??haha..today presentation..so far i think is quite good..our group member did put much effort for this role play hopefully we can get the high mark for this role play..when the role play was started the lecturer record all the group performance..after the presentation 5 members take picture as a memory..hehe..

p/s: to all my friend, i know all of you been worried about me since yesterady night, but i need time to get my way out and will force myself to accept the FACT that i need to accept once it happened to me.i know i have to bear with those complicated with myself once the thing happened to me, maybe i still will remind those memory with that but i believe i can do it..thanks all my fellow friend that you all still care me let me feel that no matter what happen you all still around me as well..thanks..

studies...

yesterday i whole night no sleep, until this morning 7 am something i only fall asleep but keep on awake after an hour i sleep which mean i awake at 8 something then i continue sleep and awake at 9 something until 12pm something i only wake up from sleep. when i wake up i feel bit headache and hungry..hehe..this time break my record again..i never thought that i can whole night no sleep but yesterday i did it..hmm....nothing to be proud of also...haha..tonight i have to sleep early very sleepy and tired, if tonight i sleep late again i sure become panda..hahaha..after wednesday i have to revise and prepare for my mid-term test for this friday..after that i have to rush for assignment then have to rush for final exam..then my semester will end lo..but now i have to suffer for few weeks before my semester going to end..temporary for now...i just want to study and do all the thing that i supose to do then only solve those thing that i need to solve..i don't wish there is something can make me lost my attention on study..other than that..i don't want think first, this semester my life looks like very busy than my long semester, everything have to rush and rush..somemore got continuosly few days morning class..this semester can make me become a panda..haiz..

are you ok?

hehe...today my cousin accidentally found the profile i wish to find..later i will go to see the profile as well..hehe..finally today is a raining day...after rain the weather very good and very nice..i like rainy day as well...every time raining...your word automatically will appear in my mind and make me reminds on you even it passed more than 1 year..long time we did not meet each other hope that you can pass your life with happy..hmm..have to prepare myself for study for my test and final exam..this time i have to get the high marks as i can..tonight my dinner...finally can eat with my family but during the dinner..my brother keep on saying and satire me until i speechless...haiz.this kind of brother...don't know should happy or sad..when he not around then i feel boring and lonely, but when he came back i feel...don't know how to describe...hahaha...opps..now i only remind that i need to find a person...he seems like having some problem, but...i hard to find him..hopefully he is alright with his problem..my another "brother" anything you can find me and share with me..do you know that day you said half to me about your problem then i seldom see you online after that day..i very worry about you..anyway..i hope that you can online as you can because i want to know what happen to you and make you so suffer..hopefully that you are alright at there...

feeling..

hehe...finally i can eat the thing i wish to eat for so long..at first i thought i will go eat with you because you promise me that when you come back you will fetch me go to eat but.....at last i eat with my college mate..i go eat lunch with her then we continue shopping to search something that we want to get..we walk and chat many thing because we have no meet for long time and hard to get chance to eat together and chat together like first time we study in college..i very enjoy the lunch with my college mate, and also very miss the time i spend my time with them, that time all of us sure very happy. now seems like very hard to meet them because all of us taking different subjects...hmmm...last night i got a surprise..hehe..finally my brother came back from Kampar and before he came back he told us that he will come back on next wednesday but he came back yesterday without tell us...hahaha...my mother get surprise that when he stand outside the door...yeah...finally he came back and at least i not so lonely...hehehe...anyway..he came back he also very busy because many people miss him as well...wonder that what kind of formal suit is suitable for a character of a "boss"..hahaha...next week i will have presentation after that i have to rush for assignment and also my test before my semester end..but before my semester going to end, i have to "meet you" for few weeks and few times..even though i knew that i sure will meet you accidently once i knew you study same college with me..and i also know that what should i do or what my reaction when i meet you..i wish i can no need meet you, because.... I DON'T WISH TO MEET YOU HONESTLY...

time is the best thing to prove everything?

when i wake up at 6:45am that time i very wish i don't wake up and continue sleep as i can, because i know i not enough sleep again..recently feel very tired and sleepy, again i almost fall asleep during the class..i don't know whether lecturer got notice or not..haha..honestly i did pay attention as i can during her class..but..always feel sleepy don't know whether is her class too boring or i too tired? my friend who taking same subject with me this semester told me that recently i looks like a human who lost soul..haha..i know what she mean to me and i also know that she also worry me when she notice that recently i do not have much energy to do anything, she said i am silly..haha..i know she also worry that i cannot concerntrate in my studies..finally today i pass up my enrolment form for next semester..actually quite heavy if i take 4 subjects in 1 semester, anyhow, i also have to cope it and rush..hmmm...next wednesday going to present the role play in the confrence hall of my college..obviously i really nervous..haha...i really scare and worry that during acting on the hall..i will laugh, because when we practice my group member keep on make something to make me laugh..i also don't know what happen to them..haiz..so bad..haha..

p/s: i know you were sick, i hope you can take care yourself..nothing is important than your health..perhaps we can get our solution soon..time is the best thing to prove everything..i believe..

a new day, a new start and a new memory..

yesterday no sleep well..so..today got no much energy and almost fall asleep during my class..haha..recently i quite busy..but i quite enjoy with that..after 7 or 8 weeks everything will be change again..humans' life keep on changing, even character also same..a person who can treat you very good also will treat you cold or bad if some misunderstand happen between both of them..i...i...don't know how to describe my own feeling as well..when i feel down and nothing i can do, feel lost that time...who stay beside me and accompany me to pass through everything happen on me? actually there is not many people will do that and accompany me with that, because of that i know that who is really care about me and who is not..the person i expected can accompany me..i always wait for nothing when thing go to end..but those unexpected person accompany me when i need help..haha..something unexpected..anyway..actually i need to thanks them, nothing i can do for them..perhaps when they need my accompany..i will accompany them as i can..JUST FOR THEM!!! recently i also try to not so early go home as i can..i also will try my best to clear my mind during i studying..i also don't want i waste my time again because of those STUPID thing happen on me or around me..

p/s: i think you should know it clear that how you treat me so far....i think i no need say much you also will know..

bless you...

today..when i on my way driving back to home,i saw accident..the rider lay on the road with bleeding, there are some guy standing around him and looks like want to help him. when the rider lay on the road with bleeding the whole road stuck and become slow because some driver stop their car and the side and make the road stuck and become slow. when i saw the rider with hurt i immediately think of you or use another way to describe, your face suddenly appear in my mind when i saw that rider with hurt and bleeding. i know recently you get hurt during work, actually i really worry about you i believe you know it also. but.....hmmm..how to say..both of us now consider in the cold war and did not find each other as well..slowly and slowly our message become lesser and lesser, no more phone call, even chat through msn also lesser..you did take the photo of your hurt and send it to let me see i did ask you how you feel? but you make me feel that you are not very comfortable when you chat with me, i don't know whether i feel wrongly or what..but i know even i send you message, you also will not reply me (maybe), and i feel like i am a foolish to wait your message for whole day and end up i get nothing..you told me that thursday you no need work, i also don't know whether we still need to meet or not.....my group member practice to act our own role play after the class, all of us get the idea how to act and become better than previous time we practice..hopefully we all can do it well in the presentation...

role play

recently i feel very tired, keep on feel not enough sleep..after next week my team member and i have to presentation in our college conference hall. each group have role play based on their script, then my group..my role is a boss..a boss that have relationship with 1 of my manager which work under me, then i support my "bf manager" presentation even though his idea is bad enough compare with another manager under me. then there start the conflict between two manager and both managers have secretary work with them, and both secretary also have conflict and argument between them. the worst person is the employee because he work under both managers and they work in different way and push all work to the employee, so the employee feel very stressful..the ending...basically i also not sure because they keep on change the story, so i also not sure what is the confirm story then can practice act before the due date. first time have to act as a boss that have relationship with 1 of the manager, wonder that how am i suppose to act only can present and let the audience understand what our member going to tell them and how to let them understand our story about? i also don't know how..i was thinking and thinking..but still need to thinking..hopefully i can do it well as i can..

p/s: i also don't know how to describe my feeling, feel like speechless only can describe that feeling in my heart.

Cameron trip

another new month..seems like everything had changed..today just came back from Cameron Highland with my relative and my family..having a great time at there, the environment of Cameron Highland is very nice..i like the fresh air at there, even without air-conditional also can feel cold,windy, and also rainy day..i really enjoy this trip at there, luckily before went to this trip we planned our activities at there and bring those things to there..this is first time i heard my cousin brother said went to Cameron Highland and jump into the indoor swimming pool..when they jump into the swimming pool they all said very cold but keep on play water, maybe want make their body not so cold?? we also visited few places and took some photos for memory..it looks like everyone who in the trip for this time very enjoy, it also have some jokes..for example..my cousin sister want to boil water with boiler but she forgot to switch on until her husband notice and said she want use her power to boil the water we all heard that and laugh then my cousin sister faster went to switch on the power,she looks like very shame when we said that..haha..really funny..in this trip i only realize that how much for 7 teenagers can eat..really out of my expected..i never thought 7 of us can eat so much for every meal..actually i very miss some one when i at there even i playing with my cousins..luckily got call me and let me listen your voice, the feel very nice..really..