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Headache few days still haven't recover even worst, haiz.. This morning "boss" just called me after he knew i didn't eat medicine even headache then we chat a lots, he said he curious that why recently i so listened to his word? I answered him that i don't know, i am not happy yet i am trying to make myself hapy back because "daddy" told me that if certain thing you don't know how to do for next, just leave it make your own mood happy back then only find the solution, perhaps this is a good way for me. Sometime i was thinking why can't i mature as "daddy"? Today i got the answer i want, don't know how to explain my feeling. Err, it can be sad,upset, and many feeling mix together. Perhaps i wish something could change, but is that possible? "daddy" said to me,if i got the answer then just do, but don't regret once i do. I did try to don't care so much, don't bother so much but end up you complain to me. I knew i too care about you, but what you make me feel is im not important for you, perhaps im nothing for you. I also wish i fell wrong but... Erm, actually i also want to thanks all the friends who know im sick and concern about me and give me some support and opinion to me while im lost my direction i really appreciate thanks. Today i chat with a friend who came back from Beijing, long time i didn't chat with him. I very enjoy when i chat with him, we chat lots of problems and jokes make me keep on laughing. I very miss the time when the time we both are single and can chat many things, today i feel like we both like back to the past, very enjoy and happy. Since he went to Beijing we seldom contact each other, but i believe we are good friend even we know each other not very long. Later i have to attend class, today is last class for this week after that when i come back i will go out with my parent for dinner, hopefully today will be a good and happy day..

not feeling well

This morning not feeling well, because when i wake up at 6:30am my head was very heavy and pain then i continue sleep until my mum called me. Recently i sleep early before 12am but still can not feeling well, wonder what the problem that cause me feel not well? Whole day my head very heavy and pain, feel like no energy to do anything luckily today i do not have any class if not i don't know how am i pay attention. Yesterday i having class on evening, then i was run from the car park till the class because i seldom late to class and i worry the lecturer was in the class, lucky he wasn't there and not only me late to class. After finish the class i only realized raining and i didn't bring my umbrella so have to run to my car, end up my bag,pant,hair and shirt was wet. Then i have to pack my dinner alone, when i reach home i was very cold and quickly changed my pant and shirt. I feel very tired after finished my dinner but i still bear till 10:30pm only go to my bed and listening song until i sleep. Perhaps after this chinese new year i will become very busy, because i know my quizes,mid term,assignments,replacement classes will come to me after chinese new year, so now is the sweet time for me to relax and keep my energy after that my panda eye will appear hehehe...That day i read one of my friend's blog, even i not very close with her but i realized that she changed. Maybe the changes of her is good, perhaps she can live happily and appreciate whatever she having. I remember got a person told me before, he said he couldn't understand me how come i can change my mood so fast yet he also realized that i changed. He told me that he miss the girl that he know before not the one had changed. That time i was asking myself silently is that worth? my changes is good for me or bad?