life 2

When step out of the frame, many thing changed
ending of course changed too.
wonder was that true answer? or just simply said it?
no one will know it unless the person who make decision,
everything seems same but human changed.
it was just like a dream in life
make people cant differentiate whether in reality or dream.
time have to pass through no matter live in dream or reality,
the different is face the fact or lie yourself.
when doesn't expected anything how come upset feeling will appear?
once choose to give up don't look at behind then,
once choose to continue then just try to continue.
many thing will change after make the decision,
think carefully, don't regret and don't look back
like that will get clearly road to walk.
certain thing don't know better than know,
certain thing don't ask better than ask,
certain thing don't do better than do,
certain thing silence better than keep asking,
certain thing avoid better than face it,
certain thing keep better than share,
certain thing hurt better than lie.
not everyone can understand and listening what you share with,
the only one who treat you best friend and beloved will understand.
don't say you don't know what the person think,
ask yourself have you ever try your best to know what the person need?
a care, concern, respect, smile, hug, kiss, trust will give a support than you keep on asking,
a sincerely word or concern is useful for everyone, have you done all that to your beloved?
appreciate the person that you care.

life..

When it happened and when it ended?
left the adaption and weird feeling,
what was happened and what will happen next?
was that happened without alert or too sudden?
everything happen with one or more than one causes or reasons
believed that it will not be, but it not.
is believe still can belief? will time prove and show the answer?
time pass day by day, the clear road started become blur..
how to describe it? who to describe with? what to describe with?
silence appear, distance appear, adaption appear....
when silence, distance, adaption, dependence appear who should responsible?
when silence, distance, adaption, dependence appear how to victory?
trying to change not to be dependence, trying to ignore
but what and when will be the end?
everything and everyone keep on change, what will stop on it?
will the memory always fresh in mind and pretty?
steps forward the frame or stay in the frame?
step out will search and get the answer,
yet stay in it will not know the answer forever.
since a step is important so should think carefully or just do whatever you want?
is delete or keep? will it be the best ending?
life~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Valentine day of 2009

Yesterday is a Valentine day, i guess many people will very enjoy the day with the lover. I went out with my parent to Midvalley be their "sport light" to have a lunch with them, the lunch really is.....ohh...very huge and i can't finish it all, hehehe... Honestly there are many people in the shopping mall include couple and some are went out with their friends, perhaps there are many way to celebrate Valentine. When i saw them i feel a bit lonely because they seems so sweet, after that we went back to have our second programe that is went to KTV. Its happy for yesterday even i be their "sport light" hehehe...

Valentine i think is a nice an sweet festival, but how to celebrate is depend on people. Some of them will celebrate in house and cook a warm dinner and have it, some will bring partner to a nice restaurant to enjoy it. Those restaurant there is many promotion such as Valentine's chocolate, Valentine's lunch or dinner set for couple and many. I feel the couple if treat each other good everyday is valentine day, not only because of the Valentine then the partner only treat you or partner better. After the Valentine he or she will not treat you good?? I guess everyone also wish their partner treat them good and respect each other like that the relationship will be last long..

My cousin brother told me that valentine for those single is a day to enjoy, because those couple cannot have much freedom like single. He also told me that i should be feel happy because i can enjoy the day also, because he did enjoy the day. Then he asked me back why shold i and his friends that complain to him that the valentine is so bored, i just laugh only and said maybe me and his friends don't know how to enjoy. But when i saw those couple i also feel sweet for them because from their face they seems sweet and happy when they with their partner..anyway, happy valentine to all couple...

11/02/09

This morning went to check up for my braces, don't know why today the parking lots was full luckily i could find it. This time check up takes me around 25 minutes after that i can go back home with pain, whole afternoon i eat bread because nothing else i can eat. As usual every time after check up the lunch and dinner is hard to have it, but honestly i very hungry with it so no choice either bear the pain or bear the hungry. Actually my dinner i also plan to eat bread again but tonight no cook so went out for dinner, parent order some mee so i can have it by slowly while have to bear the pain. They also custom with it because is not first time after check up i feel pain and hard to eat food, very appreciate that they pack some cheese cake for me perhaps that can be my lunch tomorrow. hehehe..^^

Haiz, i also what my lecturer thinking also. Why he keep on cancel without early inform? This is second time he did that to us, do he know that some student is purposely go to college just for attend his class? If he want to cancel could he don't last minute put a paper stick at classroom there and said cancel? Do he know that what the students' feeling when they reached college and oni knew that the class been cancelled? Could he possible replace all the classes that he missed? I really don't know, actually i very angry when i reached the college i only get inform that the class been cancelled last minute. Then i have to stuck in the traffic jam and wasting my time to go college, i did wait at house until 5:30pm only go to college and yet this is second time that last minute inform the students that been cancelled. Could he possible teach all before end of this semester? I also don't know how many clases we have to replace, really couldn't imagine how rush are we for this semester.

Recently the weather is very hot make me cannot bear with it and wish to have a short hair, i told this to my mother after that i said to her if i cut my hair now sure wasting money then she agree with me, but.... but..... is very hot..T_T how how how? Instead of keep long hair but can make me not so hot, got any ways??

wishes

4 days remaining for the valentine's day, for those couple who in relationship it would be a nice and sweet festival for them. Wish they could have a nice and sweet valentine's day, hehehe.... I think now most of the guy will thinking where to spend the sweet day with their beloved to make their partner have an unforgettable memory in their life, while the girls will think what to dress or how to dress to attend their date. That day sure got many couple appear in the street or restaurant, for those who don't have any partner yet i think they will feel lonely for this sweet festival. But for me i also hope can like others couple could enjoy the sweet festival, but...............

Today i absent to college for study because when i wake up that time i feel gastric so i just rest at home, then after i sleep i feel much better but sometime feel more worst luckily i feel much warm after your concern. Even i don'tknow whether you will view this blog or not i also have to say thanks you. Tonight i watch how the people put the kongming latern in fornt of my house, i feel nice and excited when they put the latern. This is the forst time that i saw how the kongming latern fly into the sky, the feeling is undescribe but at the moment i very enjoy. First time have that kind of experience i also feel very happy because nowadays seldom got people can watch the process how the latern can fly into the sky.

Yesterday got a guy ask me what the suitable present should he prepare for the girl he chasing, then i answer him how about buy a muffin but D.I.Y the top himself? I remember i saw a programe is the host D.I.Y the muffin themselves as a valentine's present, i feel very unique so i recommend that to him. He will buy it or not, i not sure hope the idea can make him get the girl he chasing for so long. I also answered him that valentine's present not necessary must buy chocolate, if he want make the girl feel unforgettable so must prepare simething unique to make her touch. Hope he can chase the girl he like succesful...hehee

recently.

Today i click in My Fm official website and view some DJ's blog, when i click in one of the DJ Jason's blog i read several pages of his blog then i saw a comment that make me think many thing. The comment is about love and reality, then i copy it and sent to my friend perhaps she see it. Sometimes i was thinking what is the way that human use when they being lovelorn? What is the thing make you confirm that you are fall in love? How can you sure that the person you love also love you too? I keep on think and think but got no answer, perhaps i got no much experience about it.

Recently i chat with a friend which i know him almost 9 years, almost a year i did not meet him since last time we help a friend celebrate birthday. He told me that when he saw my picture and felt that i changed a lots then i answered him that i still the same still the girl he know since seconary till now, he said he felt i changed become much better then i just said alright. After that he told me many things especially about my ex bf, then the next day i saw my ex bf online so i chat with him luckily he still remember me. He also told me something about he and his girlfriend, actually i told my ex bf that i felt he really love his gf. He answered me long time no see i become clever and asked me how come i can feel it? I said from the moment i saw him in the shopping mall he looked sad i realized that he really love his gf, he said that he saw me too. Actually i really want to say hi to him, but his gf is around and i don't wish my exist will make his gf misunderstand so i choose smile to him then just pass by the place he stand at. From the conversation between me and my ex i can feel that he really love his gf, he is a good guy that hard to find. He can treat his gf very well and care his gf hope his gf can appreciate him as well. After we break i knew he felt guilty and regret, but thats all will become one of the sweet memory in my secondary school. I am very glad that know them as my friend and pass many thing before, THANKS FRIENDS!!!

p/s: Finally my "daddy" reply my message, know "daddy" is safe and good i also feel reassurance. "daddy" no need apologize, as long you are alright.

worry..

You already disappear for few days, do you know that i very worry about you?
Where are you right now? is that everything is alright? What happen to you?
This few questions always appear in my mind, and i really very worry about you...
You did not reply my text message that i sent to you, i remember that last time you send the text message for me when you did not see me in msn, this time you did not appear but you did not reply. I been waiting your message for few days, everytime also make me disappointed.

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You seldom tell me that you are crying, but today you did, that time my first feeling was shock,then become worry and also a bit angry but i didn't show my anger to you because i know you are sensitive person.
Your problem seems to become more complicated, but what i can help you is limited, except worry still worry haiz..
You told me that you like the air after rainy day, i told you i also because for me is fresh and nice
I feel like you lost control in your emotional, then i apologize to you, you ask me why?
Actually i also know you're suffering i also wish you can solve it as soon as possible, but all thing like getting more complicated even you let it be or find the solution yourself, then you ask me what you should do? What can you do? Why people like to force you? Even you stay at the corner there why still ant to force you, can't they leave some space for you?
That time i was speechless, from the beginnng you and i also know this problem create by whom and that is not easy to solve, hopefully you can find the way out.
I know you don't wish get involve and try to escape, but you really need to make a decision and force yourself too much because i will worry. Hope the both "you" will alright...

p/s: at here i wish to wish one of my friend can happy, because when the time i meet him accidently in shopping mall he looks like not happy after chat with him i know what the reason make him not happy perhaps he can get his real love.....

college life

Few days did not see "daddy"online a bit worry, even i send message to "daddy" also no reply hmm,wonder what happen to my "daddy". "daddy" where are you???Last night i was not enough sleep and having headache when i wake up, really don't wish go to study but i have to. Whole day like fishing in the class, the morning class was alright but when reach the afternoon class i started to fishing in the class and my friend keep on disturb me and don't let me fall asleep hahaha, should i thanks him or blame him?? Luckily he still keep on chat with me if not i guess i slept in class, every Tuesday i also feel tired after finish class, but my friend call me as "sho po" because he said i keep on laugh alone like a crazy girl, i wonder am i like a crazy girl??I having a rest when we having half an hour break before started a new class, but after that i feel more worst even feel want to vomid, my friend shock when he saw me suddenly lay down and ask me what happened. After finish the class my friend ask me becareful while driving, i said ok,i will then having a nap when i reach home. Today no more fishing in the class but just keep quiet while lecturer teaching, maybe feel nothing i can say or chat with my friend. I have to prepare for my coming exam, seems like very hard and have to study hard. Mummy today ask me when will i have exam? I answered her coming soon she said better study hard. I have a good time with you last week, i very enjoy the time when i with you even the time we spent together is less but i guess and believe that we are enjoy and thanks for give us a good time to spend together...