Today 28/05/2010 and tomorrow 29/05/2010 is a special day for me
Why shall i say special??because.....
Today is second month that i know you and also a date we start our friendship
and tomorrow........err....i keep it as a secret in my heart XD
Many thing is different comparing the month after we know each other until now..
But for me......today and tomorrow is a hard day for me to pass through it...
If i could pass it, i believe my life will be better than now...
If i couldn't pass it, i still will stay at the corner there continue my sad and emo life..
As a girl, honestly i don't wish to waste my time on a emo and waiting an uncertain answer from someone...
You can say i stupid, silly, or maybe ask me back am i like the person as well?
I can answer that, ya, i like the person but who can tell me how long shall i wait for the answer?
There are few possible answer, which is:
1. After i wait for a long time, then you come back to me and said you are ready to get a gf and start a relationship with me happily.
2. If i give up to wait the answer, i can continue my life alone and other thing just let it be. Fate is a thing which no one can predict and control, when it come, there is no one can stop it.
3. If i wait the answer, but end up the final i get is sorry, we really cannot start even we like each other, i think we better become friend, sorry.
Love can consider as a gambling, no one will know what is the ending.
Love can consider as a pair of shoes, only the right shoe will not make your foot feel pain.
Love can consider as share, no one will know when will it increase or decrease.
What type of shoes suitable my foot??
Seriously, i got no idea for it or change another way to say which is i still waiting my right shoe.
I believe that i could pass through these two days....
Not i don't want to wait, i just no dare to take a risk because i don't know what you want
From the way you treat me hot changed to cold, i really lost, but after few days i know i must continue my life as usual.
But right now, im enjoying my life as i can,try not to think any single thing of you.
When i saw your name, my heart feel pain.
When i saw your photo i miss you.
Sometime i wonder, if that time i don't change my mind will it better than now?
Anyway, this question i will just keep in my heart same as how much i miss you, i will keep it as well XD
Friday, May 28, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
MCQ
finally everything clear with multiple choice......
finally i ask that question, even i wish to ignore it...
but answer............
shall it be better? i got no idea...really....
started to act happy...
started to act nothing....
started to keep repeat i am fine.....
started to keep repeat don't worry.....
started to act smile.......
when the moment i stop everything, your face appear in my mindset again....
when the moment i studying...
when the moment i listening song.......
when the moment i driving.....
when the moment i bathing......
and etc....
really no idea since when i become this..
keep tell myself....concentrate..
keep tell myself....focus...
keep tell myself....don't think so much..
keep tell myself....must happy...
keep tell myself....must trust....
end up everything mess up...the thing i always do, i mess up because of i not in the good condition
no sorry, no guilty, no blame, no angry and etc...
i try to understand your situation when you told me the answer...
sorry that you met me,
sorry that you like me,
sorry that make you so suffer....
sorry.....
i told you that i understand..i understand that not your fault..
i understand that you feel lost...i understand....
i understand that you not yet ready...when the moment you ready........i no dare to think...
the more excuses i find for you to make myself feel better, the more failure am i...
there is nothing i can do right now, unless agree the request you said to me....
the thing i can do is...trust you, trust fate between us, trust you can walk out from somewhere you stuck with, try not to disturb you as i can and let you calm down to have clear mindset to ready for your coming exam....
"could we do this"?
"could we overcome this problem"?
i got no idea for it,
i really no dare to think of it,
but i will do it if in the end the thing is change, i'll accept it because certain is couldn't force. however i don't know how long will it takes, just can wait and trust...no matter worth or not....
finally i ask that question, even i wish to ignore it...
but answer............
shall it be better? i got no idea...really....
started to act happy...
started to act nothing....
started to keep repeat i am fine.....
started to keep repeat don't worry.....
started to act smile.......
when the moment i stop everything, your face appear in my mindset again....
when the moment i studying...
when the moment i listening song.......
when the moment i driving.....
when the moment i bathing......
and etc....
really no idea since when i become this..
keep tell myself....concentrate..
keep tell myself....focus...
keep tell myself....don't think so much..
keep tell myself....must happy...
keep tell myself....must trust....
end up everything mess up...the thing i always do, i mess up because of i not in the good condition
no sorry, no guilty, no blame, no angry and etc...
i try to understand your situation when you told me the answer...
sorry that you met me,
sorry that you like me,
sorry that make you so suffer....
sorry.....
i told you that i understand..i understand that not your fault..
i understand that you feel lost...i understand....
i understand that you not yet ready...when the moment you ready........i no dare to think...
the more excuses i find for you to make myself feel better, the more failure am i...
there is nothing i can do right now, unless agree the request you said to me....
the thing i can do is...trust you, trust fate between us, trust you can walk out from somewhere you stuck with, try not to disturb you as i can and let you calm down to have clear mindset to ready for your coming exam....
"could we do this"?
"could we overcome this problem"?
i got no idea for it,
i really no dare to think of it,
but i will do it if in the end the thing is change, i'll accept it because certain is couldn't force. however i don't know how long will it takes, just can wait and trust...no matter worth or not....
Sunday, May 2, 2010
beautiful misunderstanding
beautiful moment
1st day we know, first time we chat......
everything is beautiful even those memory recall by me right now....
that moment, can be consider as beautiful and relax....
slowly.......things change between us......
at first, i ignore, but too bad....the feeling cannot lie....end up i face wit the feel i have...
lucky that......we have same feeling to each other...that i very glad....and happy......
day by day......the thing we talk about..the thing we know about getting more and deeper.....
shall i categories that is a good thing for us? actually i trust that is good thing...but............
when the thing we know more bout each other.....the more thing we share out with each other.......
i really thought will be fine, will be alright, will be better, will be happier....and etc......
slowly wait the text you sent to me everyday, wait the call from you, wait you chat with me.........
it is a sweet moment actually, i no doubt with it!! really!!
the more sweet word from each other, make me feel that yes, this is the thing i want........
the more we spend time with, the more i get addicted with.....
trying to cheat myself...end up fail......
when the moment i need help, you are the one who stay beside me and support me...
when i down, you be there for me and make me laugh back......
when the more thing you do for me.......the more deeper i stepped.....
when the more thing you concern about me....the more i feel happy and warm...
when the more thing you share with me.....the more i rely on you....
when the moment i share my favorite song with you, you said you like it......
when the moment i listen back the song i share with you, i smile.....
when the moment i see back all the text you sent, i feel warm.....
when the moment i think back the advice you told me, i feel sweet......
when the moment i miss you, i feel sweet because got you!
beautiful starting
from the day by day, time by time.................
both of us got a different feeling toward each other........
finally on a special date........we have a normal but sweet starting.........
everything seems smooth......
everything seems nice.....
everything seems happy.....
everything seems sweet....
everything seems warm........
beautiful moment + beautiful starting = beautiful misunderstanding
things start to change from a night.....
is that i think too much?
is that i too sensitive?
is that the fact?
is that this and that.........
and then..........things prove that what i feel is correct.....
started to be moody..
started to be upset....
started to be unhappy...
started to be hurt...
started to be cry......
started to see, recall,think all the thing i have......end up hide at a corner and cry alone.....
it sound so pity.....maybe change another word....today the thing i get from you....."ya,we are too fast" maybe is just a beautiful misunderstanding.....maybe.......i hate maybe....because "maybe" is the word and excuses that for those people who don't wish to responsible.....
p/s: am i do wrong? i not sure..really....i know we are serious with each other....but...what is the main problem? i really don't know.....after cry out, i feel much better...never expect that i will cry out...after that keep repeating the song i share with you.......actually.....i really miss you....shall i say this to you? i no idea...i just be who am i when i with you....
1st day we know, first time we chat......
everything is beautiful even those memory recall by me right now....
that moment, can be consider as beautiful and relax....
slowly.......things change between us......
at first, i ignore, but too bad....the feeling cannot lie....end up i face wit the feel i have...
lucky that......we have same feeling to each other...that i very glad....and happy......
day by day......the thing we talk about..the thing we know about getting more and deeper.....
shall i categories that is a good thing for us? actually i trust that is good thing...but............
when the thing we know more bout each other.....the more thing we share out with each other.......
i really thought will be fine, will be alright, will be better, will be happier....and etc......
slowly wait the text you sent to me everyday, wait the call from you, wait you chat with me.........
it is a sweet moment actually, i no doubt with it!! really!!
the more sweet word from each other, make me feel that yes, this is the thing i want........
the more we spend time with, the more i get addicted with.....
trying to cheat myself...end up fail......
when the moment i need help, you are the one who stay beside me and support me...
when i down, you be there for me and make me laugh back......
when the more thing you do for me.......the more deeper i stepped.....
when the more thing you concern about me....the more i feel happy and warm...
when the more thing you share with me.....the more i rely on you....
when the moment i share my favorite song with you, you said you like it......
when the moment i listen back the song i share with you, i smile.....
when the moment i see back all the text you sent, i feel warm.....
when the moment i think back the advice you told me, i feel sweet......
when the moment i miss you, i feel sweet because got you!
beautiful starting
from the day by day, time by time.................
both of us got a different feeling toward each other........
finally on a special date........we have a normal but sweet starting.........
everything seems smooth......
everything seems nice.....
everything seems happy.....
everything seems sweet....
everything seems warm........
beautiful moment + beautiful starting = beautiful misunderstanding
things start to change from a night.....
is that i think too much?
is that i too sensitive?
is that the fact?
is that this and that.........
and then..........things prove that what i feel is correct.....
started to be moody..
started to be upset....
started to be unhappy...
started to be hurt...
started to be cry......
started to see, recall,think all the thing i have......end up hide at a corner and cry alone.....
it sound so pity.....maybe change another word....today the thing i get from you....."ya,we are too fast" maybe is just a beautiful misunderstanding.....maybe.......i hate maybe....because "maybe" is the word and excuses that for those people who don't wish to responsible.....
p/s: am i do wrong? i not sure..really....i know we are serious with each other....but...what is the main problem? i really don't know.....after cry out, i feel much better...never expect that i will cry out...after that keep repeating the song i share with you.......actually.....i really miss you....shall i say this to you? i no idea...i just be who am i when i with you....
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