08/10/08

yesterday he online again, and he did find me and chat. this time he still ask me the same thing, which is how are you?then i just answer his question i said so so, and asked him back how are you? he answered that just like that,still same and still alone. after that he tried to explain to me that that day he said break not because of the girl, end up he and the girl also no together. when i heard that i just said past already, no need explain to me. i know he still worry about me, he knew he hurt me quite deep so he want to make sure that i ok maybe he feel guilty to me but all that also past. certain hurt and pain it doesn't recover in short term, even long term also will feel pain and will not recover easily. slowly and slowly i feel much better after few weeks make myself busying with my stuff till very late only rest, i knew if i continue like that i sure will fall sick but i don't wish i still got time to think other things to remind him and those memory that me and him passed through. after that i sent him a message said that i just wish he happy, no matter he couple with who i also will wish him and i also said that i feel much better asked him no need worry about me. maybe got people will feel i stupid why still send message to him, but i also treat him as a friend only, no more others.. i don't wish to hate him i know its tired if i hate someone, maybe its better that i treat him as a normal friend that i having..

p/s: today i went to dentist appoinment again,haiz..very pain..thanks for your forgiveness..i will appreciate with that..will not repeat same thing again..