20/5/09

Oh gosh!! Again i slept over even the alarm rang but i switched it off and continue sleep and have my sweet dream^^ But luckily i still awake from dream and prepare my stuff with rush before go to dentist for check up, recently my braces keep make me feel painful then make me feel headache too. Braces really make people suffering, my teeth is not nice at all, so i only decide to get it even i know that will make me suffering. Oh, late?? This is the first time that i not punctual for my dentist's appointment, too bad. I have been late for almost 10 minutes but after i wait for 20 minutes+ the nurse asked me went in the room for check up, the check up takes me almost half an hour. during the time i was inside the room i felt why was it take me so long time for this check up? I was closing the eye when the dentist started till the end, after that she asked me opened my eye and inform me that she changed the place of the rubber that tight at my braces there, and ask me wear the rubber every day and night, as usual its make me painful and hard to suffer. Should i say i used to it or i have to bear with the painful? Anyway this time just made me hard to open mouth to wide and hard to speak and eat too, my friend told me that it will alright after i went through all the painful time then i will have pretty teeth. I guess she is right and i know i have to, hehe thanks friend!! Hopefully it will alright after few days, because this saturday i havng speech/presentation that have to speak in front of my classmates and lecturer...=.= painful painful.....

11/02/09

This morning went to check up for my braces, don't know why today the parking lots was full luckily i could find it. This time check up takes me around 25 minutes after that i can go back home with pain, whole afternoon i eat bread because nothing else i can eat. As usual every time after check up the lunch and dinner is hard to have it, but honestly i very hungry with it so no choice either bear the pain or bear the hungry. Actually my dinner i also plan to eat bread again but tonight no cook so went out for dinner, parent order some mee so i can have it by slowly while have to bear the pain. They also custom with it because is not first time after check up i feel pain and hard to eat food, very appreciate that they pack some cheese cake for me perhaps that can be my lunch tomorrow. hehehe..^^

Haiz, i also what my lecturer thinking also. Why he keep on cancel without early inform? This is second time he did that to us, do he know that some student is purposely go to college just for attend his class? If he want to cancel could he don't last minute put a paper stick at classroom there and said cancel? Do he know that what the students' feeling when they reached college and oni knew that the class been cancelled? Could he possible replace all the classes that he missed? I really don't know, actually i very angry when i reached the college i only get inform that the class been cancelled last minute. Then i have to stuck in the traffic jam and wasting my time to go college, i did wait at house until 5:30pm only go to college and yet this is second time that last minute inform the students that been cancelled. Could he possible teach all before end of this semester? I also don't know how many clases we have to replace, really couldn't imagine how rush are we for this semester.

Recently the weather is very hot make me cannot bear with it and wish to have a short hair, i told this to my mother after that i said to her if i cut my hair now sure wasting money then she agree with me, but.... but..... is very hot..T_T how how how? Instead of keep long hair but can make me not so hot, got any ways??

08/10/08

yesterday he online again, and he did find me and chat. this time he still ask me the same thing, which is how are you?then i just answer his question i said so so, and asked him back how are you? he answered that just like that,still same and still alone. after that he tried to explain to me that that day he said break not because of the girl, end up he and the girl also no together. when i heard that i just said past already, no need explain to me. i know he still worry about me, he knew he hurt me quite deep so he want to make sure that i ok maybe he feel guilty to me but all that also past. certain hurt and pain it doesn't recover in short term, even long term also will feel pain and will not recover easily. slowly and slowly i feel much better after few weeks make myself busying with my stuff till very late only rest, i knew if i continue like that i sure will fall sick but i don't wish i still got time to think other things to remind him and those memory that me and him passed through. after that i sent him a message said that i just wish he happy, no matter he couple with who i also will wish him and i also said that i feel much better asked him no need worry about me. maybe got people will feel i stupid why still send message to him, but i also treat him as a friend only, no more others.. i don't wish to hate him i know its tired if i hate someone, maybe its better that i treat him as a normal friend that i having..

p/s: today i went to dentist appoinment again,haiz..very pain..thanks for your forgiveness..i will appreciate with that..will not repeat same thing again..

i will bear with it as well..

today..feel very hungry, very very hungry wish can have a nice breakfast when i open my eye from sleeping. last night i very early went to sleep, even you sent me message i also no reply, i thought i can have a nice sleep, but i am not. i always awake from sleeping last night, erm, i think more than 3 times i awake from sleeping. i also not sure what thing make me keep on awake from sleeping, but once i awake i just got 1 feeling that is painful. that is why i keep on want sleeping because sleep can let me temporary forget the painful, nothing i can do with the braces even dentist said if i can't bear the pain then just eat the panadol but i don't want, i know i can bear the painful as well. but this morning when i wake up i feel the painful feeling is worst than yesterday, i tell myself never mind i can do that, i sure can pass through the pain with myself..it is very very hard to do it, even though i know i will get the pain when i decide to put braces..i still have 2 or 3 more years to go for the braces, which mean i wear this braces more than 1 year, in this 1 year i did not eat any painkiller when i bear with the pain because i don't wish to eat that that is why i continue bear with it..but this time is very very pain, until i almost give up and eat painkiller..no matter open or close mouth i feel the pain, even sneeze or eat i also have to be careful. who can understand the feeling well? i understand that beauty need to pay the price, after go through those painful i will get a nice teeth..perhaps i really can go through those painful as well..

p/s: just now your support to me i appreciate,but i sure you will forget again once you busy with your work, even though you apologize to me that you can't accompany because of your work, but you wouldn't understand that when i need your comfort i always get nothing even i understand why you work so hard..i know you tired and work hard but i also wouldn't make you feel that i am your burden for you.

19/8/08

today i went to dentist there for check up, i almost late for the appointment luckily i not late..haha..i run all the way but still late for few minutes..lucky no one scold me..don't know why every time almost need spend 1hour at there, the guy dentist keep on check my teeth and braces then he exchange his opinion with another dentist after that he also do the thing that he suppose to do for me..the guy dentist is the dentist that he will check my braces when i have the appointment..he check my braces quite detail and he no careless for everything while he help every patient checking..wah..he really make my teeth pain and make the braces more tight..while he help me make my braces tight i feel very pain, and also put the elastic on my braces..dentist also teach me the way wear the elastic and he also said that the elastic everyday have to change once after dinner and have to wear it 24 hour..oh my god, that will make me hard to open my mouth to talk because feel like something make my mouth cannot open wide..and my dinner..i also don't know what i have to eat..so i just drink some hot drink and mushroom for my dinner, hope tomorrow will be feel better and i forget the pain of the braces..erm..feel like don't know how many days cannot talk much..hmm..don't know who can understand my feeling right now leh...???