sick

I very scare that the thing i having now will gone at next moment, especially when i din't see your name appear in my list.
I started scare and worry that will the memories,words you said to me was just a joke?
Started changed my mood from happy to moody, after that i found out i not feeling well...
It's so suffering.....stomach really drive me crazy, i hate the pain...!!
I had skipped my class for today, and consult doctor as well and got the MC slip for today..
Doctor advise me avoid oily food,and spicy food due to my stomach not feeling well...sigh..
After few hours i consult doctor, i saw your name appear in my list.

I was soooo happy, but sad that you no find me...
Later on, i saw your name appear again and you find me for chatting..
Surprisingly, from the way we chat you found out that i not happy and ask me why?
After i told you, i noticed that you worry and concern from your word.
I'm glad that you so concern about me, and the way you comfort me really nice, although there is nothing special, but i can feel that you really worry about me.
I told you that your word same with how the doctor talked to me, and you said that you can be my doctor, i told you that if you really wish to be my personal doctor, i will welcome you as well as long you want it.
You told me that you wish to, after that i agree you be my doctor.....sound funny right?
Then you asked me that do i feel better? i answered that ya,feel much better.
You become not that worry, after that i asked you what will you do to me when i not feel well?
You asked me what i need from you? I answered that depend what can you give me.
You laugh and said i'm smart and throw back the question to you, i continued ask what will you give me? You will make sure i sleep well, eat well and live well.
I asked just that? You answered this is what you can think about and asked me back what else i need?
I said since that is the thing you can give me,so i will accept it until we got the extra status i only will request more from you; and i know this is what you think about.
You answered me ya,what i said is same with what you think and you told me that you are happy to chat with me.

I know something cannot be force at this moment, and i also know that we did say will go slowly
I know you worry and concern about me after i told you that i not well
I know i did promise you that i will be your good girl, i will extra careful in my meal
Because i know if i sick, you will feel sad so i don't want you sad
Therefore i will extra careful in my meal and be your good girl as well.
Even i don't know can we together in future, but i really just to be your good girl and make you happy.
Too bad that you need to fly back to England next week, i hope we will keep in touch!!^^