Merry X'mas

Oh no!! My final is on next week!!!
But x'mas is on next week too
It makes me feel no much mood to study
o.O that's terrible right?

X'mas.............sigh
I really wish to have a memorable X'mas with "you"!!
but too bad, i know it might not happen
Anyway, i still will buy "you" a x'mas gift as what i promise "you"
no matter will i have the chance to pass it to you

I know what can i do after the argument happened
i understand your feeling as well,
honestly, i never blame you at all..
i do keep waiting to get your message from other country,
seems like waiting is the thing i can do now.

I always is you good girl as i promise you,
i do always listen your advice,
i very wish you can stay beside me right now,
but i know now i can't too rely on you.

I know im not the perfect one in this world,
i m appreciate that you share your feeling with me,
i guess you also know my feeling as well,
what will it be,no one will know.

Anyway, i really wish "you" can have a nice x'mas,
although i don't know how will you celebrate it,
but i still hope "you" can enjoy it as well,
because i just hope that "you" will happy in your life.xD

Bad Sign

Today i not feel happy with certain thing,certain words.
After my "personal doctor" dissapear for 3 days, finally "personal doctor" appear in my msn.
Thank god that i finally can chat with "personal doctor", but too bad we argued when we chatted.
It was first time that we argued because of misunderstand, and no matter how i explain i know "personal doctor" will not trust me anymore.
Shall i leave or waiting a chance to explain to "personal doctor" that was just misunderstand?
I really don't know what shall i do for this moment, i know why "personal doctor" so sad.
I really hope time can stop at friday night, that was special day for me; that day was the day i can feel the concern and worry from "personal doctor", that was so warm and lovely for me.
After that day, "personal doctor" did not online for few days, in these few days i keep waiting him to online and chat with me before he fly to a country which far from me.
A day,2 days, he no online,i really scare that was just a dream for me and him, because he never like this before,i really scare. Do you understand my feeling??

I really wish time can stop at the moment on friday night,really wish too,but i know time will not stop of anyone. I decided to post "so wish the time can stop at there, too bad it can't", actually it mean i really don't wish you fly to a country that far from me, i really wish the weekend will not come.
I know because of this you think that i patch back with others, i also told you that i won't, i kidding with you that unless you are my bf; it mean i will not patch back with others yet i wish we can go further.
3 days that we never chat, when the day we chat, we argued and you doubt with my words.
It was really hard for me when you suspect my honesty, do you know it?
Never thought that our 1st argue happened on today, but surprisingly i know in certain point, our mindset could connect.
For example, i do wish to say to you that get a special gift or present from england with kidding; but you told me that you planned to give me a wonderful gift for me on xmas; n i do plan to buy a present for you.
I know this will not come true anymore, as the thing you passed in past.
Is it we got no fate to go further? Or am i expect too much? I got no idea with it.

p/s:
Sincerely, i really wish you can happy and we can meet when the day you come back.
But too bad, based on the current situation, i don't think that will come true to you and me.
I know no matter what i said, you will not believe anymore, but i still choose to explain to you as i don't wish there is any single misunderstand occur between us and make us regret in our life.

Bad Day

Never thought that today will be my bad day, even not the worst.
I wait for almost whole day, my dear wiffy do not reply any single message in msn; and then personal doctor also dissapear in my list.
Am i really been fooled? I not sure, perhaps im not.
Really really in a down mood...>.<
I guess "personal doctor" is busy preparing for his stuff for leaving here and go to a country far away from me; although i know when will "personal doctor" come back here, perhaps we can do it.
I really don't know what shall i say, but i really wish to chat with you; too bad tonight i don't think we got the chance to chat at all......
Hope to see you tomorrow and chat with you as well...really wish too...^^

sick

I very scare that the thing i having now will gone at next moment, especially when i din't see your name appear in my list.
I started scare and worry that will the memories,words you said to me was just a joke?
Started changed my mood from happy to moody, after that i found out i not feeling well...
It's so suffering.....stomach really drive me crazy, i hate the pain...!!
I had skipped my class for today, and consult doctor as well and got the MC slip for today..
Doctor advise me avoid oily food,and spicy food due to my stomach not feeling well...sigh..
After few hours i consult doctor, i saw your name appear in my list.

I was soooo happy, but sad that you no find me...
Later on, i saw your name appear again and you find me for chatting..
Surprisingly, from the way we chat you found out that i not happy and ask me why?
After i told you, i noticed that you worry and concern from your word.
I'm glad that you so concern about me, and the way you comfort me really nice, although there is nothing special, but i can feel that you really worry about me.
I told you that your word same with how the doctor talked to me, and you said that you can be my doctor, i told you that if you really wish to be my personal doctor, i will welcome you as well as long you want it.
You told me that you wish to, after that i agree you be my doctor.....sound funny right?
Then you asked me that do i feel better? i answered that ya,feel much better.
You become not that worry, after that i asked you what will you do to me when i not feel well?
You asked me what i need from you? I answered that depend what can you give me.
You laugh and said i'm smart and throw back the question to you, i continued ask what will you give me? You will make sure i sleep well, eat well and live well.
I asked just that? You answered this is what you can think about and asked me back what else i need?
I said since that is the thing you can give me,so i will accept it until we got the extra status i only will request more from you; and i know this is what you think about.
You answered me ya,what i said is same with what you think and you told me that you are happy to chat with me.

I know something cannot be force at this moment, and i also know that we did say will go slowly
I know you worry and concern about me after i told you that i not well
I know i did promise you that i will be your good girl, i will extra careful in my meal
Because i know if i sick, you will feel sad so i don't want you sad
Therefore i will extra careful in my meal and be your good girl as well.
Even i don't know can we together in future, but i really just to be your good girl and make you happy.
Too bad that you need to fly back to England next week, i hope we will keep in touch!!^^

Mixed Feeling

Recently having mixed feeling although i know why..
Yesterday not really sleep well, keep awake for whole night...*sigh*
Luckily i not really tired, still able chatting around with my friend.
Today i feel very happy compare with yesterday...
because of...................*hehe*
After turn on my happy mood, i really feel nice..
Especially after chat with you...
The moment i chat with you really nice....*wakaka*
Too bad, i don't know how long could it be;but i do try my best to maintain it as i can..
I wish to leave good impression...
I hope that we can keep on contact so that we can exchange our life in different country.
Although in different country, i hope everything is goes smooth in our life...
Sincerely wish us have a good memories....*smile*

p/s:
Happy actually is a kind of feeling..
A simple thing or action can make someone become happy.
Mood can influence someone's feeling,
No matter good or bad, we shall smile everyday.
Smile to those who make you feel hurt, and thanks them as well.
Smile to those who make you happy, because you enjoy the happy moment.
Everyone can happy no matter what happen, just depend how you look at it.
Guy, if you found out my blog, i really wish that you could put down your sadness and happy always. Be the happy person, so that your life will become wonderful ^^

往事

16/8/2010

这天我尝试了我认为这辈子不可能做的事情就是捐血。
很多人都会很好奇，以我的身形能捐血吗？
结果显示我能捐血，尽管很多人不相信，这的确是事实。
这天我和我朋友去了她以前就读的学校捐血，当我们抵达那里才知道是晚上九点才开始。
可我们却很早就抵达了，所以就去了附近的商场闲逛。
当时我的心情的确很兴奋和害怕，害怕我白来一场，幸好我能捐血。
当我坐上那椅子的一瞬间，的确很害怕，害怕很痛。
当我看见血从我的手流出来的瞬间，我知道我的血可以帮助有需要的人，
一直到护士把我的血分配好了，也把那插入我手的管拔了出来，就吩咐我休息一会儿。
在捐血的过程，我没有感到头晕，可是在我捐完之后，开始感到头晕，觉得冷和冒冷汗。
或许朋友感觉到我的不妥，在她捐完血的一瞬间，赶紧跑来我身边问我是否不妥？
护士也感觉到我的脸渐渐变成了苍白，赶紧跑来慰问我是否头晕，我点了一下头。
旁边的帅哥，似乎也看到我的不妥，然后护士把我的椅子调了一下，拿了一杯葡萄糖水给我喝
然后在休息一会儿，我问我身旁的朋友，我的脸是否很苍白？
她拿了她的电话帮我拍了一张照片，我看了自己也很吓倒，的确很苍白，难怪她很怕。
在休息了十多分钟，我告诉护士我感觉没头晕了，她再三地问我是否没事，我说是，我确定才让我离开让我们走了出去捐血的地方，那里有男护帮我们贴了胶布在捐血的地方，还拿了杯加了奶的美禄给我们。

过 后时间不早了，赶紧和朋友离开那里，那时还在下雨，所以我和朋友等了一下，却在我在等的同时，看到了我不该看到的人，朋友也看到了，赶紧把我的脸转去另一 端。那人也看到了我们，也走了过来，那时我用右手轻轻的抚摸我的左手那刚刚捐血的地方，那人似乎看见了，就说你们两个来捐血吗？
可是我的脸却没有 任何表情，只是静静的看着前方的雨和车，这时那人站在我身后；和那人在一起的却是那位他新任的女友，我朋友也认识那人的女友，所以又和那位女生聊了一下， 我却全程静静的站住。过后我转身和我朋友说，我很不舒服，想回家。说完，我就淋雨地走去我朋友停车的地方，头也不会走了，我知道我的那句话，那人也有听 到。
过后，朋友跟我道歉说她不懂会遇到他们，我说没关系，避不了，就面对，没什么大不了。
朋友问我，我是真的不舒服吗？我说那是借口，我想再站在那里，她说她明白，我和她笑了一下，我说那女生就是他女友吗？
朋友说是，我说，也不会美到那里去，起码输给我，那女生只能赢在身材罢了。我说并不是我自夸我自己，我的确感觉不到那女生有哪一点好过我，心想或许那人眼睛有问题吧，哈哈。。。

无论如何，我和他已属过去。
他的出现让我知道通常用甜言蜜语追求女生的男生，并非真心。
他们心里想要别的东西，我只能说，他的确有着我想要的条件，可是，他却是个烂情人，一个敢做不敢当的烂人。
他所说的谎言，承诺全部是废话。
当初说不会离开我，因为他会和我面对一切的问题和阻挡；可是在下一秒，却离开我。
这样的男人，只得托付终身吗？我庆幸你能让我看清你的真面目，也让我不会缅怀过去和你一起的时光。我并不会恨你，也不会怪你。不恨是因为我不爱你了，不怪你是因为没必要，你不值得我去怪呢。


"往事只能回味，回忆只能收藏在心底。过去的一切，随风飘走。伤疤却还在心中，谎言让人看清人的本性。所有的一切，却是这么甜美和伤感，这就是爱。"

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爱情是追到手的吗？
不是。真正的感情根本不需要追的。
两个人的默契，在慢慢将两颗心的距离缩短，在无意识中渐

渐靠 近彼此。
从好朋友到情人，真正的感情是用不了多久的。
从你喜欢上他的那一刻起，也许他也在那一刻喜欢上了你。
同节奏的爱情往往能奏出最和谐最动听的乐章。
真正的爱情需要什么？
需要两个人在一起是轻松快乐的，没有压力。

爱一个人就是毫无保留地付出吗？
不是。每一个人都是一个独立的人，我们首先是属于自己的。
我们有思想，我们有个性，而不是把我们的全部都给对方。
我们可以有保留，比如你不愿意说的隐私，有秘密的人才是成熟 的，不是吗？
有时候不说出来反而更好。

外貌和个性哪个更重要？
男人年轻的时候往往喜欢漂亮的女子，
25岁以后，会选择和自己性格合适的女子，能和自己一起过日 子的人。
喜欢一个人，太急切了，反而不好。
一是因为越想得到的越得不到；
二是得到了也很难珍惜，来得快去得也快。
细水长流一些，爱情会更长久。
相爱容易相处难。相处中最重要的是宽容和妥协，在信任和了解 的基础上。
没有宽容和妥协，任何两个人都无法相处。
纯纯的爱也许只有一次，但是真爱未必只有一次。
时间会抚平一切伤痕。
我们其实是可以爱上很多人的。
我们不是喜欢某个人，而是喜欢某种类型的人。
先来的人和我们相遇了，于是我们幸福地走到了一起；
对于后到的人，只能抱以歉意，同时，祝福他早日找到属于他自 己的幸福。
没有谁是我们一生非拥有不可的，爱一个人，很多时候实际上是 习惯了这个人
现实和浪漫哪个更重要？
现实。没有现实为基础，浪漫就是空中楼阁。
大学校园的爱情往往随着毕业而告终，大多是因为不现实，不在 一个城市。
只有相互欣赏相互佩服各有所长的人，才会碰撞出最美丽的火 花，也才会结出最甜美的爱情果实。

分手后我们还可以做朋友吗？
最好不要。剪不断，理还乱。
过去了就过去了，我们不是生活在过去，而是现在。
爱情不等于生活，只是生活的一部分。
不要因为自己长相不如对方而放弃追求的打算，
长相只是一时的印象，真正决定能否结合主要取决于双方的性 格。
帅哥配丑女，丑女配帅哥的太多了。
恋爱的时间能长尽量长。
这最少有两点好处：一，充分、尽可能长的享受恋爱的愉悦，
二，两人相处时间越长，越能检验彼此是否真心，越能看出两人 性格是否合得来。
想知道一个人爱不爱你，就看他和你在一起有没有活力，开不开 心，
有就是爱，没有就是不爱
爱情不是感动，
你不是他心目中的理想伴侣，即使一时接受你，
将来碰上他心仪的那一位，一样会离开你。
有些人情绪容易大起大落，这样的人是很难维持一段长久的关系 的。

浪漫是什么？
是送花？雨中漫步？楼前伫立不去？如果两人彼此倾心相爱，
什么事都不做，静静相对都会感觉是浪漫的。
否则，即使两人坐到月亮上拍拖，也是感觉不到浪漫的。
是否门当户对不要紧，最重要应该是兴当趣对，不然没有共同语 言，
即使在一起，仍然会感觉到孤独。
持久的爱情源于彼此发自内心的真爱，建立在平等的基础之上。
任何只顾疯狂爱人而不顾自己有否被爱，
或是只顾享受被爱而不知真心爱人的人都不会有好的结局。
爱情既是风险投资，难免有去无回，失恋是再正常不过的事情。
爱过，就够了。
既然不能在一起，总有不能在一起的理由。
不能因为别人负了你，就不负责任地游戏、报复或是堕落，自己 演的戏，总要自己收场的。
何况，他不爱你，你做什么他都不会在乎。
如果爱上，就不要轻易放过机会。莽撞，可能使你后悔