Bad Sign

Today i not feel happy with certain thing,certain words.
After my "personal doctor" dissapear for 3 days, finally "personal doctor" appear in my msn.
Thank god that i finally can chat with "personal doctor", but too bad we argued when we chatted.
It was first time that we argued because of misunderstand, and no matter how i explain i know "personal doctor" will not trust me anymore.
Shall i leave or waiting a chance to explain to "personal doctor" that was just misunderstand?
I really don't know what shall i do for this moment, i know why "personal doctor" so sad.
I really hope time can stop at friday night, that was special day for me; that day was the day i can feel the concern and worry from "personal doctor", that was so warm and lovely for me.
After that day, "personal doctor" did not online for few days, in these few days i keep waiting him to online and chat with me before he fly to a country which far from me.
A day,2 days, he no online,i really scare that was just a dream for me and him, because he never like this before,i really scare. Do you understand my feeling??

I really wish time can stop at the moment on friday night,really wish too,but i know time will not stop of anyone. I decided to post "so wish the time can stop at there, too bad it can't", actually it mean i really don't wish you fly to a country that far from me, i really wish the weekend will not come.
I know because of this you think that i patch back with others, i also told you that i won't, i kidding with you that unless you are my bf; it mean i will not patch back with others yet i wish we can go further.
3 days that we never chat, when the day we chat, we argued and you doubt with my words.
It was really hard for me when you suspect my honesty, do you know it?
Never thought that our 1st argue happened on today, but surprisingly i know in certain point, our mindset could connect.
For example, i do wish to say to you that get a special gift or present from england with kidding; but you told me that you planned to give me a wonderful gift for me on xmas; n i do plan to buy a present for you.
I know this will not come true anymore, as the thing you passed in past.
Is it we got no fate to go further? Or am i expect too much? I got no idea with it.

p/s:
Sincerely, i really wish you can happy and we can meet when the day you come back.
But too bad, based on the current situation, i don't think that will come true to you and me.
I know no matter what i said, you will not believe anymore, but i still choose to explain to you as i don't wish there is any single misunderstand occur between us and make us regret in our life.