Sunday, August 22, 2010

往事


16/8/2010

这天我尝试了我认为这辈子不可能做的事情就是捐血。
很多人都会很好奇,以我的身形能捐血吗?
结果显示我能捐血,尽管很多人不相信,这的确是事实。
这天我和我朋友去了她以前就读的学校捐血,当我们抵达那里才知道是晚上九点才开始。
可我们却很早就抵达了,所以就去了附近的商场闲逛。
当时我的心情的确很兴奋和害怕,害怕我白来一场,幸好我能捐血。
当我坐上那椅子的一瞬间,的确很害怕,害怕很痛。
当我看见血从我的手流出来的瞬间,我知道我的血可以帮助有需要的人,
一直到护士把我的血分配好了,也把那插入我手的管拔了出来,就吩咐我休息一会儿。
在捐血的过程,我没有感到头晕,可是在我捐完之后,开始感到头晕,觉得冷和冒冷汗。
或许朋友感觉到我的不妥,在她捐完血的一瞬间,赶紧跑来我身边问我是否不妥?
护士也感觉到我的脸渐渐变成了苍白,赶紧跑来慰问我是否头晕,我点了一下头。
旁边的帅哥,似乎也看到我的不妥,然后护士把我的椅子调了一下,拿了一杯葡萄糖水给我喝
然后在休息一会儿,我问我身旁的朋友,我的脸是否很苍白?
她拿了她的电话帮我拍了一张照片,我看了自己也很吓倒,的确很苍白,难怪她很怕。
在休息了十多分钟,我告诉护士我感觉没头晕了,她再三地问我是否没事,我说是,我确定才让我离开让我们走了出去捐血的地方,那里有男护帮我们贴了胶布在捐血的地方,还拿了杯加了奶的美禄给我们。

过 后时间不早了,赶紧和朋友离开那里,那时还在下雨,所以我和朋友等了一下,却在我在等的同时,看到了我不该看到的人,朋友也看到了,赶紧把我的脸转去另一 端。那人也看到了我们,也走了过来,那时我用右手轻轻的抚摸我的左手那刚刚捐血的地方,那人似乎看见了,就说你们两个来捐血吗?
可是我的脸却没有 任何表情,只是静静的看着前方的雨和车,这时那人站在我身后;和那人在一起的却是那位他新任的女友,我朋友也认识那人的女友,所以又和那位女生聊了一下, 我却全程静静的站住。过后我转身和我朋友说,我很不舒服,想回家。说完,我就淋雨地走去我朋友停车的地方,头也不会走了,我知道我的那句话,那人也有听 到。
过后,朋友跟我道歉说她不懂会遇到他们,我说没关系,避不了,就面对,没什么大不了。
朋友问我,我是真的不舒服吗?我说那是借口,我想再站在那里,她说她明白,我和她笑了一下,我说那女生就是他女友吗?
朋友说是,我说,也不会美到那里去,起码输给我,那女生只能赢在身材罢了。我说并不是我自夸我自己,我的确感觉不到那女生有哪一点好过我,心想或许那人眼睛有问题吧,哈哈。。。

无论如何,我和他已属过去。
他的出现让我知道通常用甜言蜜语追求女生的男生,并非真心。
他们心里想要别的东西,我只能说,他的确有着我想要的条件,可是,他却是个烂情人,一个敢做不敢当的烂人。
他所说的谎言,承诺全部是废话。
当初说不会离开我,因为他会和我面对一切的问题和阻挡;可是在下一秒,却离开我。
这样的男人,只得托付终身吗?我庆幸你能让我看清你的真面目,也让我不会缅怀过去和你一起的时光。我并不会恨你,也不会怪你。不恨是因为我不爱你了,不怪你是因为没必要,你不值得我去怪呢。


"往事只能回味,回忆只能收藏在心底。过去的一切,随风飘走。伤疤却还在心中,谎言让人看清人的本性。所有的一切,却是这么甜美和伤感,这就是爱。"

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Article from Facebook

爱情是追到手的吗?
不是。真正的感情根本不需要追的。
两个人的默契,在慢慢将两颗心的距离缩短,在无意识中渐
渐靠 近彼此。
从好朋友到情人,真正的感情是用不了多久的。
从你喜欢上他的那一刻起,也许他也在那一刻喜欢上了你。
同节奏的爱情往往能奏出最和谐最动听的乐章。
真正的爱情需要什么?
需要两个人在一起是轻松快乐的,没有压力。

爱一个人就是毫无保留地付出吗?
不是。每一个人都是一个独立的人,我们首先是属于自己的。
我们有思想,我们有个性,而不是把我们的全部都给对方。
我们可以有保留,比如你不愿意说的隐私,有秘密的人才是成熟 的,不是吗?
有时候不说出来反而更好。

外貌和个性哪个更重要?
男人年轻的时候往往喜欢漂亮的女子,
25岁以后,会选择和自己性格合适的女子,能和自己一起过日 子的人。
喜欢一个人,太急切了,反而不好。
一是因为越想得到的越得不到;
二是得到了也很难珍惜,来得快去得也快。
细水长流一些,爱情会更长久。
相爱容易相处难。相处中最重要的是宽容和妥协,在信任和了解 的基础上。
没有宽容和妥协,任何两个人都无法相处。
纯纯的爱也许只有一次,但是真爱未必只有一次。
时间会抚平一切伤痕。
我们其实是可以爱上很多人的。
我们不是喜欢某个人,而是喜欢某种类型的人。
先来的人和我们相遇了,于是我们幸福地走到了一起;
对于后到的人,只能抱以歉意,同时,祝福他早日找到属于他自 己的幸福。
没有谁是我们一生非拥有不可的,爱一个人,很多时候实际上是 习惯了这个人
现实和浪漫哪个更重要?
现实。没有现实为基础,浪漫就是空中楼阁。
大学校园的爱情往往随着毕业而告终,大多是因为不现实,不在 一个城市。
只有相互欣赏相互佩服各有所长的人,才会碰撞出最美丽的火 花,也才会结出最甜美的爱情果实。

分手后我们还可以做朋友吗?
最好不要。剪不断,理还乱。
过去了就过去了,我们不是生活在过去,而是现在。
爱情不等于生活,只是生活的一部分。
不要因为自己长相不如对方而放弃追求的打算,
长相只是一时的印象,真正决定能否结合主要取决于双方的性 格。
帅哥配丑女,丑女配帅哥的太多了。
恋爱的时间能长尽量长。
这最少有两点好处:一,充分、尽可能长的享受恋爱的愉悦,
二,两人相处时间越长,越能检验彼此是否真心,越能看出两人 性格是否合得来。
想知道一个人爱不爱你,就看他和你在一起有没有活力,开不开 心,
有就是爱,没有就是不爱
爱情不是感动,
你不是他心目中的理想伴侣,即使一时接受你,
将来碰上他心仪的那一位,一样会离开你。
有些人情绪容易大起大落,这样的人是很难维持一段长久的关系 的。

浪漫是什么?
是送花?雨中漫步?楼前伫立不去?如果两人彼此倾心相爱,
什么事都不做,静静相对都会感觉是浪漫的。
否则,即使两人坐到月亮上拍拖,也是感觉不到浪漫的。
是否门当户对不要紧,最重要应该是兴当趣对,不然没有共同语 言,
即使在一起,仍然会感觉到孤独。
持久的爱情源于彼此发自内心的真爱,建立在平等的基础之上。
任何只顾疯狂爱人而不顾自己有否被爱,
或是只顾享受被爱而不知真心爱人的人都不会有好的结局。
爱情既是风险投资,难免有去无回,失恋是再正常不过的事情。
爱过,就够了。
既然不能在一起,总有不能在一起的理由。
不能因为别人负了你,就不负责任地游戏、报复或是堕落,自己 演的戏,总要自己收场的。
何况,他不爱你,你做什么他都不会在乎。
如果爱上,就不要轻易放过机会。莽撞,可能使你后悔

Friday, May 28, 2010

Special day

Today 28/05/2010 and tomorrow 29/05/2010 is a special day for me
Why shall i say special??because.....

Today is second month that i know you and also a date we start our friendship
and tomorrow........err....i keep it as a secret in my heart XD

Many thing is different comparing the month after we know each other until now..
But for me......today and tomorrow is a hard day for me to pass through it...
If i could pass it, i believe my life will be better than now...
If i couldn't pass it, i still will stay at the corner there continue my sad and emo life..
As a girl, honestly i don't wish to waste my time on a emo and waiting an uncertain answer from someone...
You can say i stupid, silly, or maybe ask me back am i like the person as well?
I can answer that, ya, i like the person but who can tell me how long shall i wait for the answer?
There are few possible answer, which is:

1. After i wait for a long time, then you come back to me and said you are ready to get a gf and start a relationship with me happily.
2. If i give up to wait the answer, i can continue my life alone and other thing just let it be. Fate is a thing which no one can predict and control, when it come, there is no one can stop it.
3. If i wait the answer, but end up the final i get is sorry, we really cannot start even we like each other, i think we better become friend, sorry.

Love can consider as a gambling, no one will know what is the ending.
Love can consider as a pair of shoes, only the right shoe will not make your foot feel pain.
Love can consider as share, no one will know when will it increase or decrease.

What type of shoes suitable my foot??
Seriously, i got no idea for it or change another way to say which is i still waiting my right shoe.
I believe that i could pass through these two days....
Not i don't want to wait, i just no dare to take a risk because i don't know what you want
From the way you treat me hot changed to cold, i really lost, but after few days i know i must continue my life as usual.
But right now, im enjoying my life as i can,try not to think any single thing of you.
When i saw your name, my heart feel pain.
When i saw your photo i miss you.
Sometime i wonder, if that time i don't change my mind will it better than now?
Anyway, this question i will just keep in my heart same as how much i miss you, i will keep it as well XD

Monday, May 3, 2010

MCQ

finally everything clear with multiple choice......
finally i ask that question, even i wish to ignore it...
but answer............
shall it be better? i got no idea...really....
started to act happy...
started to act nothing....
started to keep repeat i am fine.....
started to keep repeat don't worry.....
started to act smile.......

when the moment i stop everything, your face appear in my mindset again....
when the moment i studying...
when the moment i listening song.......
when the moment i driving.....
when the moment i bathing......
and etc....

really no idea since when i become this..
keep tell myself....concentrate..
keep tell myself....focus...
keep tell myself....don't think so much..
keep tell myself....must happy...
keep tell myself....must trust....

end up everything mess up...the thing i always do, i mess up because of i not in the good condition
no sorry, no guilty, no blame, no angry and etc...
i try to understand your situation when you told me the answer...
sorry that you met me,
sorry that you like me,
sorry that make you so suffer....
sorry.....

i told you that i understand..i understand that not your fault..
i understand that you feel lost...i understand....
i understand that you not yet ready...when the moment you ready........i no dare to think...
the more
excuses i find for you to make myself feel better, the more failure am i...
there is nothing i can do right now, unless agree the request you said to me....
the thing i can do is...trust you, trust fate between us, trust you can walk out from somewhere you stuck with, try not to disturb you as i can and let you calm down to have clear mindset to ready for your coming exam....

"could we do this"?
"could we overcome this problem"?
i got no idea for it,
i really no dare to think of it,
but i will do it if in the end the thing is change, i'll accept it because certain is couldn't force. however i don't know how long will it takes, just can wait and trust...no matter worth or not....

Sunday, May 2, 2010

beautiful misunderstanding

beautiful moment

1st day we know, first time we chat......
everything is beautiful even those memory recall by me right now....
that moment, can be consider as beautiful and relax....
slowly.......things change between us......
at first, i ignore, but too bad....the feeling cannot lie....end up i face wit the feel i have...
lucky that......we have same feeling to each other...that i very glad....and happy......


day by day......the thing we talk about..the thing we know about getting more and deeper.....
shall i categories that is a good thing for us? actually i trust that is good thing...but............
when the thing we know more bout each other.....the more thing we share out with each other.......
i really thought will be fine, will be alright, will be better, will be happier....and etc......
slowly wait the text you sent to me everyday, wait the call from you, wait you chat with me.........
it is a sweet moment actually, i no doubt with it!! really!!
the more sweet word from each other, make me feel that yes, this is the thing i want........
the more we spend time with, the more i get addicted with.....
trying to cheat myself...end up fail......
when the moment i need help, you are the one who stay beside me and support me...
when i down, you be there for me and make me laugh back......

when the more thing you do for me.......the more deeper i stepped.....
when the more thing you concern about me....the more i feel happy and warm...
when the more thing you share with me.....the more i rely on you....
when the moment i share my favorite song with you, you said you like it......
when the moment i listen back the song i share with you, i smile.....
when the moment i see back all the text you sent, i feel warm.....
when the moment i think back the advice you told me, i feel sweet......
when the moment i miss you, i feel sweet because got you!

beautiful starting

from the day by day, time by time.................
both of us got a different feeling toward each other........
finally on a special date........we have a normal but sweet starting.........
everything seems smooth......
everything seems nice.....
everything seems happy.....
everything seems sweet....
everything seems warm........

beautiful moment + beautiful starting = beautiful misunderstanding

things start to change from a night.....
is that i think too much?
is that i too sensitive?
is that the fact?
is that this and that.........
and then..........things prove that what i feel is correct.....
started to be moody..
started to be upset....
started to be unhappy...
started to be hurt...
started to be cry......
started to see, recall,think all the thing i have......end up hide at a corner and cry alone.....
it sound so pity.....maybe change another word....today the thing i get from you....."ya,we are too fast" maybe is just a beautiful misunderstanding.....maybe.......i hate maybe....because "maybe" is the word and excuses that for those people who don't wish to responsible.....

p/s: am i do wrong? i not sure..really....i know we are serious with each other....but...what is the main problem? i really don't know.....after cry out, i feel much better...never expect that i will cry out...after that keep repeating the song i share with you.......actually.....i really miss you....shall i say this to you? i no idea...i just be who am i when i with you....

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Baskin Robbin for 31/03/10














Guess what is it??
Hehehe...can you guess it??
hehehe..tips: If you every wednesday wear pink color shirt will get discount..^-^
hehhee...Finally reach 31 of the month..wow...
Answer is : Ice-cream from Baskin Robbin
I bought it after my class..lucky not much people o..XD















Oh yeah!!
That is my favorite flavor for this ice-cream XD
The top want is mint with chocolate chip..
Seems delicious yummy yummy =)
The bottom of the flavor i can't remember >.<" Obviously i bought it for myself..^-^ Too bad..=.= this ice-cream melted..hmm.. :-(













This half gallon got four flavor of ice-cream..
I also don't even remember what flavor i mix for this half gallon...O.o"
Hmm...this is for my parent...because....they ask me to buy it..hehehe.. :-)
Wakaka...parent can have delicious dessert after their dinner..yippie..

















For someone: *my dear gf*
My dear gf-> those photos i taken just to share with you oh..hehhe..i hope those photos can make you feel happy and excited..^-^
If got chance, we go to eat Baskin robbin together ok ma?

p/s: hope these photos can make my dear happy back..XD

Saturday, December 26, 2009

有些话不是随便说说而已

好久没有在此写下我的心情,这几天比较忙于工作,也比较累,可是却依依不舍这些和你们相处过的时间。原本以为不可能会变成朋友,偏偏我们成了好朋友。你们的出现使我在那里觉得不那么闷兼无聊,你们说说笑笑虽然有点冷,可是我却配合你们,也渐渐融入你们的世界,也渐渐让我依依不舍,那种感觉无法形容,可以说是矛盾。我知道我必须放弃一样来换回一样,也知道什么是我该放弃的。我不愿意等待或看见那天的来临,因为对我们来说是离别,不知心中的你们是否有同感,还是你们已习惯。还可以和你们朝夕相对的日子渐渐越来越少,也是我渐渐的不舍得和不习惯。虽然相处的时间不长,可是我却渐渐习惯了你们的存在。当我渐渐适应和习惯,离别的日子却越来越近,该怎么办才好呢?虽然有了人手来代替我所做的一切可是。。。。。。。心情无法形容。。。。俗语说天下无不散筵席,应该可以代替我说要表达的一切。。。该好好珍惜和你们相处的时间,虽然万般不舍得,我明白终究得习惯,终究得舍得。。。希望未来还能保持联络。。认识到你们真好,虽然真的很忙可是却享受那些时光。。。谢谢你们。。。

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吴若权的书“男人心,回纹针”里写道有些话不是随便说说而已里有写到男人随便说说的话,女人不见得要认真介意。却要仔细思考他所说的,在心底有个分析。有些话只是为了增加相处的情趣,有些话却另有目的。其实该如何分辨真假,每个女生的心里都会有所考量。是否每个男生所说的话就可以当真?那么男生的句子里的真实度何在?每当每个女生相信了该男生所说的话,到头来得到的却是伤害时,责任该归功于谁?是女生天真的一厢情愿去相信?还是男生不该说出一些话让女生觉得很可能实现?在现实世界里,很多事情都是残忍的,很多人说唯有强者才能留在这现实兼残忍的世界里。是否每个男女都想在两性之间的关系中扮演着强者的角色才能把身边的人留在他/她的身边?当现实是残忍兼现实是否意味着两性之间也和残忍兼现实化上等号?是否当上强者就能真的开心的生活?或许换句话说是否每一方面都当上强者,那么你的人生就会完美无瑕?