Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Thank You

It had been few days the incident happened,
slowly i can calm down when i think of it.
Actually i know that isn't a big deal,
but after that incident happened,
i try to stand up at the place i fall down.

After few days,
mood getting better,
at least not that emotional,
at least i can calm down,
at least i can know the fact,
at least i can get answer.

Really appreciate the friends who concern about me,
i know they are worry about me when they know im sad.
I know they try to comfort me as well,
i know they want to make sure that im in good condition,
i know they don't wish i think of that thing,
i know they just wish im happy.

I'm touch when my friends so worry about me,
i'm touch when my friends comfort me,
i'm touch when my friends give me a call,
i'm touch when they willing spend their time to listen my problem.
But i feel sorry to them to make them worry about me,
therefore i'll not make myself sad for that incident.

But today one of my friend asked me about "your" thing,
my first reaction was shock, abit speechless,
after that i smile to her and told her my feeling,
will she understand or not,
i no idea, but i do not tell her in detail,
don't know why.
Perhaps it will be better after day by day...=)
Cheer up =P

p/s: thank for all my friends...i appreciate xD

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

The answer part 1

My eye feel so dry, lucky my eye still seems alright.
Without telling,no one will know that i cried few times for today.
Hmm....how many times i had been cry??
Let me count for it....err....
More than 5 times?
I think around that, not really sure of it..

Today i got some answer from "you"
But those answer makes me cried badly,
i'm glad that you never knew i crying while you chatting with me.
It's that a hint for me to give up?
I not really sure with that,seriously....

Never thought it hunting "you" until "you" dare not step out,
never thought it will become a problem between "you" and me,
never thought this will happen on me.
I thought everything will be fine after i walked out from past,
I thought it will have a brand new chapter with "you",
I thought i still have chance?

Today i only know that it cause "you" dare not step further,
it hunting you every time "you" think of it,
it become the main reason blocking "you" and me,
i really really never think of it at all.

This is third time i heard this kind of reason,
different is...different guy talked different reason to me.
I really don't know what respond shall i give you.
The reason "you" told me really out of my expectation,
but what else i can say since "you" told me the reason??

Sunday, February 27, 2011

33 hours

Finally i had break my record!!
What record is it??
The longest time i never sleep!!
My previous record was busy chatting with my guy friend,
until 6something in the morning only go to bed.
I thought that will be my record....
but i never thought i break my record on 25-26/2/2011.
I never sleep for 33 hours,
it sound kinda crazy right?

Maybe there is nothing special for somebody,
but seriously i really break my record.
In that 33 hours,
i really exhausted,sleepy and so on.
What i did in this 33 hours?

I woke up at 8am+
After that reading up the assignment i had received from my member,
and then searching information until 1:30pm;
then rush to college for appointment until 3:50pm only reach home.
after that still need to cinema for purchased ticket,
and go for my class.

After back from my class, feel quite tired.
And then keep on doing my stuff and looking for my members,
too bad its hard to get my member as well, luckily he appear.
After that keep rushing my assignment as well until next day.
Obviously i like group assignment,but depend who is the person i group with.
In this semester, this group work.....
seriously i got no expectation.

I keep playing songs in case i falling asleep half way,
i feel so miss "him" in sudden,
therefore i send a message to him, too bad that no reply from him.
After i done all the things i need to do, i went for breakfast;
and went to college for attending class.
During the class, i really feel sleepy but i keep looking around.
Luckily my group able to send our assignments to lecturer,
but before that we still editing our references with rush.

After class i have to stay at beauty saloon for 2 hours,
i having my lunch with my mum and then go home.
When the moment i reached home,
seriously i couldn't take it anymore.....
After done changed my cloth,i straight away sleep until i been wake.
Having few hours nap, feel much better.

Watched "the mechanic" in cinema after dinner,
when i reach home, i still feel sleepy..
End up enjoy my sleeping until next day.
Maybe its long period that i do not have a nice sleep,
but i guess i still have to rush with my other assignments before final @.@

Monday, February 21, 2011

曾经。友谊


曾经,我们一起读书;
曾经,我们一起分享;
曾经,我们一起流泪;
曾经,我们一起快乐;
曾经,我们一起伤心;
曾经,我们一起疯狂;
曾经,我们一起开怀大笑;
曾经,我们一起打打闹闹;
曾经,我们一起分享秘密;
曾经,我们一起互相扶持;
曾经,我们一起挺身而出;
曾经,我们一起述说心事;
曾经,我们一起抵抗所有流言蜚语。。。。。


种种的曾经塑造今时的我们;
难免会缅怀曾经和你们一起的岁月;
那时天真的我们,会比现在的我们还要快乐;
这些种种,只能留在回忆里缅怀;
在伤心难过的时候,让自己傻傻地笑曾经的我们;
谢谢和我一起经历过曾经的朋友们,没有你们,也就没有那时的回忆。。



Thursday, February 10, 2011

complicated

Recently my mood keep in down path,
but i still acting that im happy.
It had been more than a week that "you" disappear,
but i don't know the reason why "you" disappear.
Who can tell me the reason "you" disappear?

The longer time "you" disappear,
the sad am i.
But who can understand my feeling?
My friends told me that everything just a dream,
just i too care of it and "you"
I wonder is that true?
But i no answer for that.

We are just friend,
although we promised each other that focus on own career or studies,
until "you" back from England and arrange time for meet,
before we develop further.
After that incident happened, "you" never reply my message in fb.
And then, "you" never find me or leave a single message for me.
Sometime i really wonder am i too care about "you"?

In the end, i send "you" a message ask you what happen,
are "you" avoid me? or purposely not to reply?
I really don't know, really don't know.
I started ask myself shall i give up or continue?

I saw an article in facebook, i really praise the girl actually.
The story stated with a girl waiting a guy for 2 months,
because the guy get hurt in past relationship,
so the guy do not accept the confess of the girl.
Therefore the girl keep text the guy everyday for 2 months,
but that guy never reply any single to the girl.

Slowly the girl feel tired of waiting,
in her last text for the guy,she wrote she shall give up and wished him happy.
On the other hand,in this 2 months the guy slowly feel that he love that girl,
and when he want to confess to the girl,
he only switch on his phone and saw all the texts from that girl,
at the moment he only regret did not accept the girl.

From the article, i really praise what the girl did.
Not every girl can wait a guy for 2 months,
or shall say love will not wait for anyone,
so DO appreciate the person who stay beside you.
There are many couple couldn't together because of many reason.

Although i very wish to get in relationship with "you",
but after that incident happened, i no dare to think so.
Maybe "you" and me do not have the faith to have extra status,
anyway, i am glad that i can know you as well.
I'll try my best to make my life happy.

Even though i do not know that will "you" reply my message,
i just can say up to "you".
I feel tired with love, and i lost my way too.
I keep waiting for your message; but too bad i can't get,
even think many excuses for "you";
but.......nothing change?
Shall i give up or continue???
Hope i can get answer whether give up or continue.
No matter how, i DO hopes that "you" can happy,
this is what my wishes.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Uncertain

My feeling for today consider mixing,
At first i thought "you" and me getting closer,but its not
Is that sound funny?Probably it is funny.
I wonder how could i so silly all the time,
Why could i so silly again and again?
Why Why Why?
Who can tell me why??

At first i was so happy because of the word,
but after i asked "you" what the meaning of the word,
i only realized how stupid am i.
Happy and sad because of the same word from "you"
Shall i said that my imagination is TOO GOOD?
Or am i typically of silly girl?
I no idea, really no idea of it....do you know it?

When you send me a message in facebook and ask me
what happened to me and mind to tell you?
I did think many ways to answer your question,
in the end i just said nothing.
What am i for "you" actually?
A normal friend? Stranger? Or what?

Sometime i do asked myself many many times,
even i feel its the best that i can know you.
I feel lucky to know you,do you know it?
Perhaps everything is just what i thought.
Maybe i don't deserve to know you?

I never tell anyone of my feeling right now,
none of my friend know,include "you".
What shall i say and how shall i say??
I do wish to get into relationship,but i afraid.
i know "you" are in the same situation wit me.

Am i think too much?
Am i expect much?
Am i stupid?
Am i good in imagination?
Am i too rely on you?

Can i pretend there is nothing happened?
Can i choose step back instead of step forward?
Can i choose ignore your messages and concern?
Can i choose hide my things from you?
Can I? Can I? Can I?

I do feel touch when i get your concern in message of facebook,
At the moment,i feel sweet,touch,appreciate during i sick.
Maybe there is nothing guarantee in life,
especially love and relationship.
No one can guarantee that human will not change.

We do say step by step and go slowly,
but how many step we have done?
1? 2? 3? 4? or none?
So far where are we?
Are we walk together?
Or separately?
Do "you" know where are we now?
Or do you know where are you and where am i?

How if i choose stop it now?
How if i choose i keep it now?
How if i choose hide in the deepest?
How if i choose ignore it?
How if i choose continue it?
How if???

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

" Great Day "

Today let me introduce a movie that i feel nice screening in Malaysia, and when i watched this movie in the cinema; i can't control my tears drop from my eyes for twice. Maybe some of the people feel this is not the best movie, but at least for me, it is a touching storyline for the movie.



Title: Great Day 天天好天

Actors: My Fm's DJ and many Malaysian actors and actress

Synopsis:
"Great Day" tells the story of two uncles who live in an old folks home. Aggravated by an argument and with the help of Ah Hock and Ultraman, the two men decide to escape from the home and find their children, just to show off whose children are better. The fun catches on with odd circumstances one after another, but in the end of the day it's going to be a big reunion at the old folk's home.





Title of the song: 彩虹的家 ( this is the theme song for the movie of " Great Day "

Sing by : Fyonne 陈慧莹& Stephanie 刘佩芯 ( Both of the singers are the winner of the competition that held in Malaysia's Astro.)

For me, i heard this song in the movie for first time, i like this song so much; especially the lyric of the song.




This picture actually is the ending of the movie, from the beginning of the movie until the end of the movie, i feel this is a nice movie. I'm so proud that some if the actors having their own occupation which is being a DJ in a famous radio station in Malaysia could bring us such good movie. Hope they can keep work on it!!!





The poster of the movie that i saw in the cinema, i never regret that watched this movie with my family on last weekend. Although the duration of the movie is short, but it is a nice movie for me ^^

Hopefully next year will have another new movie screening during Chinese new year.