Monday, February 21, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
complicated
Recently my mood keep in down path,
but i still acting that im happy.
It had been more than a week that "you" disappear,
but i don't know the reason why "you" disappear.
Who can tell me the reason "you" disappear?
The longer time "you" disappear,
the sad am i.
But who can understand my feeling?
My friends told me that everything just a dream,
just i too care of it and "you"
I wonder is that true?
But i no answer for that.
We are just friend,
although we promised each other that focus on own career or studies,
until "you" back from England and arrange time for meet,
before we develop further.
After that incident happened, "you" never reply my message in fb.
And then, "you" never find me or leave a single message for me.
Sometime i really wonder am i too care about "you"?
In the end, i send "you" a message ask you what happen,
are "you" avoid me? or purposely not to reply?
I really don't know, really don't know.
I started ask myself shall i give up or continue?
I saw an article in facebook, i really praise the girl actually.
The story stated with a girl waiting a guy for 2 months,
because the guy get hurt in past relationship,
so the guy do not accept the confess of the girl.
Therefore the girl keep text the guy everyday for 2 months,
but that guy never reply any single to the girl.
Slowly the girl feel tired of waiting,
in her last text for the guy,she wrote she shall give up and wished him happy.
On the other hand,in this 2 months the guy slowly feel that he love that girl,
and when he want to confess to the girl,
he only switch on his phone and saw all the texts from that girl,
at the moment he only regret did not accept the girl.
From the article, i really praise what the girl did.
Not every girl can wait a guy for 2 months,
or shall say love will not wait for anyone,
so DO appreciate the person who stay beside you.
There are many couple couldn't together because of many reason.
Although i very wish to get in relationship with "you",
but after that incident happened, i no dare to think so.
Maybe "you" and me do not have the faith to have extra status,
anyway, i am glad that i can know you as well.
I'll try my best to make my life happy.
Even though i do not know that will "you" reply my message,
i just can say up to "you".
I feel tired with love, and i lost my way too.
I keep waiting for your message; but too bad i can't get,
even think many excuses for "you";
but.......nothing change?
Shall i give up or continue???
Hope i can get answer whether give up or continue.
No matter how, i DO hopes that "you" can happy,
this is what my wishes.
but i still acting that im happy.
It had been more than a week that "you" disappear,
but i don't know the reason why "you" disappear.
Who can tell me the reason "you" disappear?
The longer time "you" disappear,
the sad am i.
But who can understand my feeling?
My friends told me that everything just a dream,
just i too care of it and "you"
I wonder is that true?
But i no answer for that.
We are just friend,
although we promised each other that focus on own career or studies,
until "you" back from England and arrange time for meet,
before we develop further.
After that incident happened, "you" never reply my message in fb.
And then, "you" never find me or leave a single message for me.
Sometime i really wonder am i too care about "you"?
In the end, i send "you" a message ask you what happen,
are "you" avoid me? or purposely not to reply?
I really don't know, really don't know.
I started ask myself shall i give up or continue?
I saw an article in facebook, i really praise the girl actually.
The story stated with a girl waiting a guy for 2 months,
because the guy get hurt in past relationship,
so the guy do not accept the confess of the girl.
Therefore the girl keep text the guy everyday for 2 months,
but that guy never reply any single to the girl.
Slowly the girl feel tired of waiting,
in her last text for the guy,she wrote she shall give up and wished him happy.
On the other hand,in this 2 months the guy slowly feel that he love that girl,
and when he want to confess to the girl,
he only switch on his phone and saw all the texts from that girl,
at the moment he only regret did not accept the girl.
From the article, i really praise what the girl did.
Not every girl can wait a guy for 2 months,
or shall say love will not wait for anyone,
so DO appreciate the person who stay beside you.
There are many couple couldn't together because of many reason.
Although i very wish to get in relationship with "you",
but after that incident happened, i no dare to think so.
Maybe "you" and me do not have the faith to have extra status,
anyway, i am glad that i can know you as well.
I'll try my best to make my life happy.
Even though i do not know that will "you" reply my message,
i just can say up to "you".
I feel tired with love, and i lost my way too.
I keep waiting for your message; but too bad i can't get,
even think many excuses for "you";
but.......nothing change?
Shall i give up or continue???
Hope i can get answer whether give up or continue.
No matter how, i DO hopes that "you" can happy,
this is what my wishes.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Uncertain
My feeling for today consider mixing,
At first i thought "you" and me getting closer,but its not
Is that sound funny?Probably it is funny.
I wonder how could i so silly all the time,
Why could i so silly again and again?
Why Why Why?
Who can tell me why??
At first i was so happy because of the word,
but after i asked "you" what the meaning of the word,
i only realized how stupid am i.
Happy and sad because of the same word from "you"
Shall i said that my imagination is TOO GOOD?
Or am i typically of silly girl?
I no idea, really no idea of it....do you know it?
When you send me a message in facebook and ask me
what happened to me and mind to tell you?
I did think many ways to answer your question,
in the end i just said nothing.
What am i for "you" actually?
A normal friend? Stranger? Or what?
Sometime i do asked myself many many times,
even i feel its the best that i can know you.
I feel lucky to know you,do you know it?
Perhaps everything is just what i thought.
Maybe i don't deserve to know you?
I never tell anyone of my feeling right now,
none of my friend know,include "you".
What shall i say and how shall i say??
I do wish to get into relationship,but i afraid.
i know "you" are in the same situation wit me.
Am i think too much?
Am i expect much?
Am i stupid?
Am i good in imagination?
Am i too rely on you?
Can i pretend there is nothing happened?
Can i choose step back instead of step forward?
Can i choose ignore your messages and concern?
Can i choose hide my things from you?
Can I? Can I? Can I?
I do feel touch when i get your concern in message of facebook,
At the moment,i feel sweet,touch,appreciate during i sick.
Maybe there is nothing guarantee in life,
especially love and relationship.
No one can guarantee that human will not change.
We do say step by step and go slowly,
but how many step we have done?
1? 2? 3? 4? or none?
So far where are we?
Are we walk together?
Or separately?
Do "you" know where are we now?
Or do you know where are you and where am i?
How if i choose stop it now?
How if i choose i keep it now?
How if i choose hide in the deepest?
How if i choose ignore it?
How if i choose continue it?
How if???
At first i thought "you" and me getting closer,but its not
Is that sound funny?Probably it is funny.
I wonder how could i so silly all the time,
Why could i so silly again and again?
Why Why Why?
Who can tell me why??
At first i was so happy because of the word,
but after i asked "you" what the meaning of the word,
i only realized how stupid am i.
Happy and sad because of the same word from "you"
Shall i said that my imagination is TOO GOOD?
Or am i typically of silly girl?
I no idea, really no idea of it....do you know it?
When you send me a message in facebook and ask me
what happened to me and mind to tell you?
I did think many ways to answer your question,
in the end i just said nothing.
What am i for "you" actually?
A normal friend? Stranger? Or what?
Sometime i do asked myself many many times,
even i feel its the best that i can know you.
I feel lucky to know you,do you know it?
Perhaps everything is just what i thought.
Maybe i don't deserve to know you?
I never tell anyone of my feeling right now,
none of my friend know,include "you".
What shall i say and how shall i say??
I do wish to get into relationship,but i afraid.
i know "you" are in the same situation wit me.
Am i think too much?
Am i expect much?
Am i stupid?
Am i good in imagination?
Am i too rely on you?
Can i pretend there is nothing happened?
Can i choose step back instead of step forward?
Can i choose ignore your messages and concern?
Can i choose hide my things from you?
Can I? Can I? Can I?
I do feel touch when i get your concern in message of facebook,
At the moment,i feel sweet,touch,appreciate during i sick.
Maybe there is nothing guarantee in life,
especially love and relationship.
No one can guarantee that human will not change.
We do say step by step and go slowly,
but how many step we have done?
1? 2? 3? 4? or none?
So far where are we?
Are we walk together?
Or separately?
Do "you" know where are we now?
Or do you know where are you and where am i?
How if i choose stop it now?
How if i choose i keep it now?
How if i choose hide in the deepest?
How if i choose ignore it?
How if i choose continue it?
How if???
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
" Great Day "
Today let me introduce a movie that i feel nice screening in Malaysia, and when i watched this movie in the cinema; i can't control my tears drop from my eyes for twice. Maybe some of the people feel this is not the best movie, but at least for me, it is a touching storyline for the movie.
Title: Great Day 天天好天
Actors: My Fm's DJ and many Malaysian actors and actress
Synopsis:
"Great Day" tells the story of two uncles who live in an old folks home. Aggravated by an argument and with the help of Ah Hock and Ultraman, the two men decide to escape from the home and find their children, just to show off whose children are better. The fun catches on with odd circumstances one after another, but in the end of the day it's going to be a big reunion at the old folk's home.
Title of the song: 彩虹的家 ( this is the theme song for the movie of " Great Day "
Sing by : Fyonne 陈慧莹& Stephanie 刘佩芯 ( Both of the singers are the winner of the competition that held in Malaysia's Astro.)
For me, i heard this song in the movie for first time, i like this song so much; especially the lyric of the song.
This picture actually is the ending of the movie, from the beginning of the movie until the end of the movie, i feel this is a nice movie. I'm so proud that some if the actors having their own occupation which is being a DJ in a famous radio station in Malaysia could bring us such good movie. Hope they can keep work on it!!!
The poster of the movie that i saw in the cinema, i never regret that watched this movie with my family on last weekend. Although the duration of the movie is short, but it is a nice movie for me ^^
Hopefully next year will have another new movie screening during Chinese new year.
Title: Great Day 天天好天
Actors: My Fm's DJ and many Malaysian actors and actress
Synopsis:
"Great Day" tells the story of two uncles who live in an old folks home. Aggravated by an argument and with the help of Ah Hock and Ultraman, the two men decide to escape from the home and find their children, just to show off whose children are better. The fun catches on with odd circumstances one after another, but in the end of the day it's going to be a big reunion at the old folk's home.
Title of the song: 彩虹的家 ( this is the theme song for the movie of " Great Day "
Sing by : Fyonne 陈慧莹& Stephanie 刘佩芯 ( Both of the singers are the winner of the competition that held in Malaysia's Astro.)
For me, i heard this song in the movie for first time, i like this song so much; especially the lyric of the song.
This picture actually is the ending of the movie, from the beginning of the movie until the end of the movie, i feel this is a nice movie. I'm so proud that some if the actors having their own occupation which is being a DJ in a famous radio station in Malaysia could bring us such good movie. Hope they can keep work on it!!!
The poster of the movie that i saw in the cinema, i never regret that watched this movie with my family on last weekend. Although the duration of the movie is short, but it is a nice movie for me ^^
Hopefully next year will have another new movie screening during Chinese new year.
Friday, December 31, 2010
End of 2010 (part 2)
Finally reach the last day of 2010.
What kind of feeling you have when reach the last day of 2010?
For me,there is nothing much special feel to 2010;
It's because i hardly have happy moment.
Although i got no much happy memories in 2010,
but i still appreciate the thing i passed through.
Everyone is planing where to count down and many,
although i wish to join my friend for count down;
but end up i choose stay at home bbq with my relatives.=)
For others,maybe will feel bored,
but actually not enjoy with friends,it do bring you another type of feeling.
How long you spend with your family?
Do you spend your time with your friends,lover,career more than parent?
Maybe it will become bit bored if bbq with relatives,
but i think it can be fun to play around with cousins while bbq.=]
I should appreciate the time can enjoy with cousins,
i know that kind of moment will be the best memories.
There are many things i haven't done,
there are many things i had done;
there are many things that i wish to done.
Too bad for the thing i haven't done,
Great that for the things i done no matter how i done it.
What is your wishes in 2011?
For me, i wish everything can goes smooth for everyone,
the thing i haven't done in 2010,i will complete it in 2011.xD
Hopefully after the things i passed through in 2010,
can bring me another experience of life and mind set.
No matter how you gonna spend your last day,
i wish that could have the memorable day for you.
Let's enjoy the moment before 2010 end,
and get ready for 2011 ^^
"Happy New Year "
What kind of feeling you have when reach the last day of 2010?
For me,there is nothing much special feel to 2010;
It's because i hardly have happy moment.
Although i got no much happy memories in 2010,
but i still appreciate the thing i passed through.
Everyone is planing where to count down and many,
although i wish to join my friend for count down;
but end up i choose stay at home bbq with my relatives.=)
For others,maybe will feel bored,
but actually not enjoy with friends,it do bring you another type of feeling.
How long you spend with your family?
Do you spend your time with your friends,lover,career more than parent?
Maybe it will become bit bored if bbq with relatives,
but i think it can be fun to play around with cousins while bbq.=]
I should appreciate the time can enjoy with cousins,
i know that kind of moment will be the best memories.
There are many things i haven't done,
there are many things i had done;
there are many things that i wish to done.
Too bad for the thing i haven't done,
Great that for the things i done no matter how i done it.
What is your wishes in 2011?
For me, i wish everything can goes smooth for everyone,
the thing i haven't done in 2010,i will complete it in 2011.xD
Hopefully after the things i passed through in 2010,
can bring me another experience of life and mind set.
No matter how you gonna spend your last day,
i wish that could have the memorable day for you.
Let's enjoy the moment before 2010 end,
and get ready for 2011 ^^
"Happy New Year "
Thursday, December 30, 2010
End of 2010 (part 1)
I shall say goodbye to 2010,and shall welcome 2011.
Wonder why these few days keep remind some memories.
No matter sweet or sad, all come into my mind.
In this years,there were many things happened on me,
it really makes me exhausted and upset.
Hope in the new year, everything will be fine.
I'm surprise when you got into my memories,
although you never appreciate me and the thing i did to you.
Honestly,i never blame how you treat me.
I know i'm silly for not blaming you with the way you treat me.
Yet you give me the chance to become tough after you hurt me.
But i also clear that was just a part of my memories.
I'll start my new chapter after i leave with happily.
I'm glad that i can know "you",
even "you" told me that we did meet before,
but too bad that "you" and me also can't remember when "we" meet.
"you" do give me lots of support when i need.
"you" do helps me alot when i need.
"you" are the person who make me fall to "you".
Although i don't know what will happen to "you" and me.
I know "you" busy with your work,and stress with it.
But i never say much about that and just keep waiting "you" online.
Sometime i also asking myself,what am i doing?
I clear that which role i playing in front of "you",
and i also appreciate the role i having right now in front of "you".
Hope we can have chance to meet again when "you" back from England.
Other than that, i realized in my memories there include others.
Which is friendship and family and others.
I'm glad that when i need,my friends stay beside me as well.
Although i very envy those people having partner,
but i know i will have a guy who really love me in future.
So i decided spend more time with my friends and family as well.
At the same time,i will spend time to "you".
I hope my exist can bring "you" comfortable,happy.
I'll try to hide my feeling toward "you" until "you" get your answer.
I'll do the thing i promise "you"
I don't wish the way i fall to "you" bring "you"troublesome.
So.....shhh...just keep it...^^
Wonder why these few days keep remind some memories.
No matter sweet or sad, all come into my mind.
In this years,there were many things happened on me,
it really makes me exhausted and upset.
Hope in the new year, everything will be fine.
I'm surprise when you got into my memories,
although you never appreciate me and the thing i did to you.
Honestly,i never blame how you treat me.
I know i'm silly for not blaming you with the way you treat me.
Yet you give me the chance to become tough after you hurt me.
But i also clear that was just a part of my memories.
I'll start my new chapter after i leave with happily.
I'm glad that i can know "you",
even "you" told me that we did meet before,
but too bad that "you" and me also can't remember when "we" meet.
"you" do give me lots of support when i need.
"you" do helps me alot when i need.
"you" are the person who make me fall to "you".
Although i don't know what will happen to "you" and me.
I know "you" busy with your work,and stress with it.
But i never say much about that and just keep waiting "you" online.
Sometime i also asking myself,what am i doing?
I clear that which role i playing in front of "you",
and i also appreciate the role i having right now in front of "you".
Hope we can have chance to meet again when "you" back from England.
Other than that, i realized in my memories there include others.
Which is friendship and family and others.
I'm glad that when i need,my friends stay beside me as well.
Although i very envy those people having partner,
but i know i will have a guy who really love me in future.
So i decided spend more time with my friends and family as well.
At the same time,i will spend time to "you".
I hope my exist can bring "you" comfortable,happy.
I'll try to hide my feeling toward "you" until "you" get your answer.
I'll do the thing i promise "you"
I don't wish the way i fall to "you" bring "you"troublesome.
So.....shhh...just keep it...^^
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
就让一切回到原点.
就让一切回到原点. Let's back to the beginning.
How come i will have such feeling?
It is because i realize something on yesterday,
what is it?how to say...hmm....
Maybe shall say with this way, which is......
I misunderstand someone's feeling towards me.
Is that clear? How can i feel so?
When i feel it, what is the first thing come to my mind?
I feel so that im very silly,how can i misunderstand?
I keep laughing myself how can i so stupid.
I guess many people will say im stupid and naive as well.
I do hope,what i feel is not true just i think much.
But too bad,that is fact.
Although i know the fact,i still remain silent.
I know nothing i can say at the moment.
Remain silent is the best way for me,at least now.
Im so sorry that i misunderstand "you".
At first,i suspect i fall to you,but i keep deny in my mind.
But slowly i realize,im cheat my own if i deny.
Therefore,i admit my feeling toward you.
When the moment "you" know,"you" said let us go slow.
At that moment i was so happy,
because i thought that was hint from "you".
When i fall sick,your concern make me feel warm and lovely,
at that moment i thought you fall to me.
Until the misunderstand happened between you and me,
you told me that you started fall to me,
i am happy,at the same time surprise and worry.
I know im nt the perfect girl you looking for.
After the misunderstand happen,i never happy at all.
And i slowly realized there is some uncertain feeling,
Am i in a dream when the moment you told me you started fall to me?
Because i cannot feel that you fall to me,but i ignore it.
I dont want know the truth of your feeling.
I repeat looking the messages between you and me,
in my opinion,you got bit bit fall to me.
But until yesterday,i knew that was just my dream,
you are rational,know what you want in your life.
And you are good in hiding yourself,do you know it?
Because of that,i not sure are you really started to fall to me?
I choose to not ask you,i no dare to know.
I know i can ask you straight forward,but i don't wish.
Actually i can guess it from your words and attitude,
i know you are just looking for a sincere friendship,
and i don't wish our friendship ruin by my stupid.
I do care the friendship between you and me.
When you ask me who is the guy fulfill my requirement,
i answered you a guy,but not telling you who is he.
I escape the question even i do wish to say it out.
Honestly,you are the only one person who fulfill my requirement,
even i not sure do you know who is the guy.
But since you no ask,and i also no tell you who is he.
Maybe is better if you din't keep ask,make me hard to answer.
I appreciate it.
Even i very wish to be with you,but i guess i will hide it.
Hide in the deepest place for now
I guess is better for us,even i don't even know do we have chance.
Anyway,i just know i'll hide my feeling toward you,
Maybe until you got the right person in your life.
p/s: know that you not feeling well in England,
i do very worry and i did not over concern you as a friend,
because i don't wish my over concern bring you troublesome.
Therefore i choose to concern as a friend,
although i don't know your exactly feeling toward me,
but i guess i will not ask you anymore;
until you tell me your feeling.
How come i will have such feeling?
It is because i realize something on yesterday,
what is it?how to say...hmm....
Maybe shall say with this way, which is......
I misunderstand someone's feeling towards me.
Is that clear? How can i feel so?
When i feel it, what is the first thing come to my mind?
I feel so that im very silly,how can i misunderstand?
I keep laughing myself how can i so stupid.
I guess many people will say im stupid and naive as well.
I do hope,what i feel is not true just i think much.
But too bad,that is fact.
Although i know the fact,i still remain silent.
I know nothing i can say at the moment.
Remain silent is the best way for me,at least now.
Im so sorry that i misunderstand "you".
At first,i suspect i fall to you,but i keep deny in my mind.
But slowly i realize,im cheat my own if i deny.
Therefore,i admit my feeling toward you.
When the moment "you" know,"you" said let us go slow.
At that moment i was so happy,
because i thought that was hint from "you".
When i fall sick,your concern make me feel warm and lovely,
at that moment i thought you fall to me.
Until the misunderstand happened between you and me,
you told me that you started fall to me,
i am happy,at the same time surprise and worry.
I know im nt the perfect girl you looking for.
After the misunderstand happen,i never happy at all.
And i slowly realized there is some uncertain feeling,
Am i in a dream when the moment you told me you started fall to me?
Because i cannot feel that you fall to me,but i ignore it.
I dont want know the truth of your feeling.
I repeat looking the messages between you and me,
in my opinion,you got bit bit fall to me.
But until yesterday,i knew that was just my dream,
you are rational,know what you want in your life.
And you are good in hiding yourself,do you know it?
Because of that,i not sure are you really started to fall to me?
I choose to not ask you,i no dare to know.
I know i can ask you straight forward,but i don't wish.
Actually i can guess it from your words and attitude,
i know you are just looking for a sincere friendship,
and i don't wish our friendship ruin by my stupid.
I do care the friendship between you and me.
When you ask me who is the guy fulfill my requirement,
i answered you a guy,but not telling you who is he.
I escape the question even i do wish to say it out.
Honestly,you are the only one person who fulfill my requirement,
even i not sure do you know who is the guy.
But since you no ask,and i also no tell you who is he.
Maybe is better if you din't keep ask,make me hard to answer.
I appreciate it.
Even i very wish to be with you,but i guess i will hide it.
Hide in the deepest place for now
I guess is better for us,even i don't even know do we have chance.
Anyway,i just know i'll hide my feeling toward you,
Maybe until you got the right person in your life.
p/s: know that you not feeling well in England,
i do very worry and i did not over concern you as a friend,
because i don't wish my over concern bring you troublesome.
Therefore i choose to concern as a friend,
although i don't know your exactly feeling toward me,
but i guess i will not ask you anymore;
until you tell me your feeling.
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