Today 28/05/2010 and tomorrow 29/05/2010 is a special day for me
Why shall i say special??because.....
Today is second month that i know you and also a date we start our friendship
and tomorrow........err....i keep it as a secret in my heart XD
Many thing is different comparing the month after we know each other until now..
But for me......today and tomorrow is a hard day for me to pass through it...
If i could pass it, i believe my life will be better than now...
If i couldn't pass it, i still will stay at the corner there continue my sad and emo life..
As a girl, honestly i don't wish to waste my time on a emo and waiting an uncertain answer from someone...
You can say i stupid, silly, or maybe ask me back am i like the person as well?
I can answer that, ya, i like the person but who can tell me how long shall i wait for the answer?
There are few possible answer, which is:
1. After i wait for a long time, then you come back to me and said you are ready to get a gf and start a relationship with me happily.
2. If i give up to wait the answer, i can continue my life alone and other thing just let it be. Fate is a thing which no one can predict and control, when it come, there is no one can stop it.
3. If i wait the answer, but end up the final i get is sorry, we really cannot start even we like each other, i think we better become friend, sorry.
Love can consider as a gambling, no one will know what is the ending.
Love can consider as a pair of shoes, only the right shoe will not make your foot feel pain.
Love can consider as share, no one will know when will it increase or decrease.
What type of shoes suitable my foot??
Seriously, i got no idea for it or change another way to say which is i still waiting my right shoe.
I believe that i could pass through these two days....
Not i don't want to wait, i just no dare to take a risk because i don't know what you want
From the way you treat me hot changed to cold, i really lost, but after few days i know i must continue my life as usual.
But right now, im enjoying my life as i can,try not to think any single thing of you.
When i saw your name, my heart feel pain.
When i saw your photo i miss you.
Sometime i wonder, if that time i don't change my mind will it better than now?
Anyway, this question i will just keep in my heart same as how much i miss you, i will keep it as well XD
Friday, May 28, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
MCQ
finally everything clear with multiple choice......
finally i ask that question, even i wish to ignore it...
but answer............
shall it be better? i got no idea...really....
started to act happy...
started to act nothing....
started to keep repeat i am fine.....
started to keep repeat don't worry.....
started to act smile.......
when the moment i stop everything, your face appear in my mindset again....
when the moment i studying...
when the moment i listening song.......
when the moment i driving.....
when the moment i bathing......
and etc....
really no idea since when i become this..
keep tell myself....concentrate..
keep tell myself....focus...
keep tell myself....don't think so much..
keep tell myself....must happy...
keep tell myself....must trust....
end up everything mess up...the thing i always do, i mess up because of i not in the good condition
no sorry, no guilty, no blame, no angry and etc...
i try to understand your situation when you told me the answer...
sorry that you met me,
sorry that you like me,
sorry that make you so suffer....
sorry.....
i told you that i understand..i understand that not your fault..
i understand that you feel lost...i understand....
i understand that you not yet ready...when the moment you ready........i no dare to think...
the more excuses i find for you to make myself feel better, the more failure am i...
there is nothing i can do right now, unless agree the request you said to me....
the thing i can do is...trust you, trust fate between us, trust you can walk out from somewhere you stuck with, try not to disturb you as i can and let you calm down to have clear mindset to ready for your coming exam....
"could we do this"?
"could we overcome this problem"?
i got no idea for it,
i really no dare to think of it,
but i will do it if in the end the thing is change, i'll accept it because certain is couldn't force. however i don't know how long will it takes, just can wait and trust...no matter worth or not....
finally i ask that question, even i wish to ignore it...
but answer............
shall it be better? i got no idea...really....
started to act happy...
started to act nothing....
started to keep repeat i am fine.....
started to keep repeat don't worry.....
started to act smile.......
when the moment i stop everything, your face appear in my mindset again....
when the moment i studying...
when the moment i listening song.......
when the moment i driving.....
when the moment i bathing......
and etc....
really no idea since when i become this..
keep tell myself....concentrate..
keep tell myself....focus...
keep tell myself....don't think so much..
keep tell myself....must happy...
keep tell myself....must trust....
end up everything mess up...the thing i always do, i mess up because of i not in the good condition
no sorry, no guilty, no blame, no angry and etc...
i try to understand your situation when you told me the answer...
sorry that you met me,
sorry that you like me,
sorry that make you so suffer....
sorry.....
i told you that i understand..i understand that not your fault..
i understand that you feel lost...i understand....
i understand that you not yet ready...when the moment you ready........i no dare to think...
the more excuses i find for you to make myself feel better, the more failure am i...
there is nothing i can do right now, unless agree the request you said to me....
the thing i can do is...trust you, trust fate between us, trust you can walk out from somewhere you stuck with, try not to disturb you as i can and let you calm down to have clear mindset to ready for your coming exam....
"could we do this"?
"could we overcome this problem"?
i got no idea for it,
i really no dare to think of it,
but i will do it if in the end the thing is change, i'll accept it because certain is couldn't force. however i don't know how long will it takes, just can wait and trust...no matter worth or not....
Sunday, May 2, 2010
beautiful misunderstanding
beautiful moment
1st day we know, first time we chat......
everything is beautiful even those memory recall by me right now....
that moment, can be consider as beautiful and relax....
slowly.......things change between us......
at first, i ignore, but too bad....the feeling cannot lie....end up i face wit the feel i have...
lucky that......we have same feeling to each other...that i very glad....and happy......
day by day......the thing we talk about..the thing we know about getting more and deeper.....
shall i categories that is a good thing for us? actually i trust that is good thing...but............
when the thing we know more bout each other.....the more thing we share out with each other.......
i really thought will be fine, will be alright, will be better, will be happier....and etc......
slowly wait the text you sent to me everyday, wait the call from you, wait you chat with me.........
it is a sweet moment actually, i no doubt with it!! really!!
the more sweet word from each other, make me feel that yes, this is the thing i want........
the more we spend time with, the more i get addicted with.....
trying to cheat myself...end up fail......
when the moment i need help, you are the one who stay beside me and support me...
when i down, you be there for me and make me laugh back......
when the more thing you do for me.......the more deeper i stepped.....
when the more thing you concern about me....the more i feel happy and warm...
when the more thing you share with me.....the more i rely on you....
when the moment i share my favorite song with you, you said you like it......
when the moment i listen back the song i share with you, i smile.....
when the moment i see back all the text you sent, i feel warm.....
when the moment i think back the advice you told me, i feel sweet......
when the moment i miss you, i feel sweet because got you!
beautiful starting
from the day by day, time by time.................
both of us got a different feeling toward each other........
finally on a special date........we have a normal but sweet starting.........
everything seems smooth......
everything seems nice.....
everything seems happy.....
everything seems sweet....
everything seems warm........
beautiful moment + beautiful starting = beautiful misunderstanding
things start to change from a night.....
is that i think too much?
is that i too sensitive?
is that the fact?
is that this and that.........
and then..........things prove that what i feel is correct.....
started to be moody..
started to be upset....
started to be unhappy...
started to be hurt...
started to be cry......
started to see, recall,think all the thing i have......end up hide at a corner and cry alone.....
it sound so pity.....maybe change another word....today the thing i get from you....."ya,we are too fast" maybe is just a beautiful misunderstanding.....maybe.......i hate maybe....because "maybe" is the word and excuses that for those people who don't wish to responsible.....
p/s: am i do wrong? i not sure..really....i know we are serious with each other....but...what is the main problem? i really don't know.....after cry out, i feel much better...never expect that i will cry out...after that keep repeating the song i share with you.......actually.....i really miss you....shall i say this to you? i no idea...i just be who am i when i with you....
1st day we know, first time we chat......
everything is beautiful even those memory recall by me right now....
that moment, can be consider as beautiful and relax....
slowly.......things change between us......
at first, i ignore, but too bad....the feeling cannot lie....end up i face wit the feel i have...
lucky that......we have same feeling to each other...that i very glad....and happy......
day by day......the thing we talk about..the thing we know about getting more and deeper.....
shall i categories that is a good thing for us? actually i trust that is good thing...but............
when the thing we know more bout each other.....the more thing we share out with each other.......
i really thought will be fine, will be alright, will be better, will be happier....and etc......
slowly wait the text you sent to me everyday, wait the call from you, wait you chat with me.........
it is a sweet moment actually, i no doubt with it!! really!!
the more sweet word from each other, make me feel that yes, this is the thing i want........
the more we spend time with, the more i get addicted with.....
trying to cheat myself...end up fail......
when the moment i need help, you are the one who stay beside me and support me...
when i down, you be there for me and make me laugh back......
when the more thing you do for me.......the more deeper i stepped.....
when the more thing you concern about me....the more i feel happy and warm...
when the more thing you share with me.....the more i rely on you....
when the moment i share my favorite song with you, you said you like it......
when the moment i listen back the song i share with you, i smile.....
when the moment i see back all the text you sent, i feel warm.....
when the moment i think back the advice you told me, i feel sweet......
when the moment i miss you, i feel sweet because got you!
beautiful starting
from the day by day, time by time.................
both of us got a different feeling toward each other........
finally on a special date........we have a normal but sweet starting.........
everything seems smooth......
everything seems nice.....
everything seems happy.....
everything seems sweet....
everything seems warm........
beautiful moment + beautiful starting = beautiful misunderstanding
things start to change from a night.....
is that i think too much?
is that i too sensitive?
is that the fact?
is that this and that.........
and then..........things prove that what i feel is correct.....
started to be moody..
started to be upset....
started to be unhappy...
started to be hurt...
started to be cry......
started to see, recall,think all the thing i have......end up hide at a corner and cry alone.....
it sound so pity.....maybe change another word....today the thing i get from you....."ya,we are too fast" maybe is just a beautiful misunderstanding.....maybe.......i hate maybe....because "maybe" is the word and excuses that for those people who don't wish to responsible.....
p/s: am i do wrong? i not sure..really....i know we are serious with each other....but...what is the main problem? i really don't know.....after cry out, i feel much better...never expect that i will cry out...after that keep repeating the song i share with you.......actually.....i really miss you....shall i say this to you? i no idea...i just be who am i when i with you....
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Baskin Robbin for 31/03/10
Guess what is it??
Hehehe...can you guess it??
hehehe..tips: If you every wednesday wear pink color shirt will get discount..^-^
hehhee...Finally reach 31 of the month..wow...
Answer is : Ice-cream from Baskin Robbin
I bought it after my class..lucky not much people o..XD
Oh yeah!!
That is my favorite flavor for this ice-cream XD
The top want is mint with chocolate chip..
Seems delicious yummy yummy =)
The bottom of the flavor i can't remember >.<" Obviously i bought it for myself..^-^ Too bad..=.= this ice-cream melted..hmm.. :-(
This half gallon got four flavor of ice-cream..
I also don't even remember what flavor i mix for this half gallon...O.o"
Hmm...this is for my parent...because....they ask me to buy it..hehehe.. :-)
Wakaka...parent can have delicious dessert after their dinner..yippie..
For someone: *my dear gf*
My dear gf-> those photos i taken just to share with you oh..hehhe..i hope those photos can make you feel happy and excited..^-^
If got chance, we go to eat Baskin robbin together ok ma?
p/s: hope these photos can make my dear happy back..XD
Saturday, December 26, 2009
有些话不是随便说说而已
好久没有在此写下我的心情，这几天比较忙于工作，也比较累，可是却依依不舍这些和你们相处过的时间。原本以为不可能会变成朋友，偏偏我们成了好朋友。你们的出现使我在那里觉得不那么闷兼无聊，你们说说笑笑虽然有点冷，可是我却配合你们，也渐渐融入你们的世界，也渐渐让我依依不舍，那种感觉无法形容，可以说是矛盾。我知道我必须放弃一样来换回一样，也知道什么是我该放弃的。我不愿意等待或看见那天的来临，因为对我们来说是离别，不知心中的你们是否有同感，还是你们已习惯。还可以和你们朝夕相对的日子渐渐越来越少，也是我渐渐的不舍得和不习惯。虽然相处的时间不长，可是我却渐渐习惯了你们的存在。当我渐渐适应和习惯，离别的日子却越来越近，该怎么办才好呢？虽然有了人手来代替我所做的一切可是。。。。。。。心情无法形容。。。。俗语说天下无不散筵席，应该可以代替我说要表达的一切。。。该好好珍惜和你们相处的时间，虽然万般不舍得，我明白终究得习惯，终究得舍得。。。希望未来还能保持联络。。认识到你们真好，虽然真的很忙可是却享受那些时光。。。谢谢你们。。。
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吴若权的书“男人心，回纹针”里写道有些话不是随便说说而已里有写到男人随便说说的话，女人不见得要认真介意。却要仔细思考他所说的，在心底有个分析。有些话只是为了增加相处的情趣，有些话却另有目的。其实该如何分辨真假，每个女生的心里都会有所考量。是否每个男生所说的话就可以当真？那么男生的句子里的真实度何在？每当每个女生相信了该男生所说的话，到头来得到的却是伤害时，责任该归功于谁？是女生天真的一厢情愿去相信？还是男生不该说出一些话让女生觉得很可能实现？在现实世界里，很多事情都是残忍的，很多人说唯有强者才能留在这现实兼残忍的世界里。是否每个男女都想在两性之间的关系中扮演着强者的角色才能把身边的人留在他/她的身边？当现实是残忍兼现实是否意味着两性之间也和残忍兼现实化上等号？是否当上强者就能真的开心的生活？或许换句话说是否每一方面都当上强者，那么你的人生就会完美无瑕？
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吴若权的书“男人心，回纹针”里写道有些话不是随便说说而已里有写到男人随便说说的话，女人不见得要认真介意。却要仔细思考他所说的，在心底有个分析。有些话只是为了增加相处的情趣，有些话却另有目的。其实该如何分辨真假，每个女生的心里都会有所考量。是否每个男生所说的话就可以当真？那么男生的句子里的真实度何在？每当每个女生相信了该男生所说的话，到头来得到的却是伤害时，责任该归功于谁？是女生天真的一厢情愿去相信？还是男生不该说出一些话让女生觉得很可能实现？在现实世界里，很多事情都是残忍的，很多人说唯有强者才能留在这现实兼残忍的世界里。是否每个男女都想在两性之间的关系中扮演着强者的角色才能把身边的人留在他/她的身边？当现实是残忍兼现实是否意味着两性之间也和残忍兼现实化上等号？是否当上强者就能真的开心的生活？或许换句话说是否每一方面都当上强者，那么你的人生就会完美无瑕？
Thursday, November 12, 2009
The day after my bday
It's been more than a week after my birthday..
Hmm...nothing much changes, everything still same and normal~
This year's birthday get few surprise from my family,friends and someone who special..
Really thanks you and appreciate those surprise that they give me..memorable neh~yippie~
Recently feel very tired, shoulder keep pain and sour...what happen exactly??
After spend a nice holiday with someone, it's time for me to start working life~
Although still haven't use to it but i believe i still can do it as well~ (gambateh~)
Everyday have to wake up at 6:45am and start work at 8am,lucky still able to work..
So i need to sleep earlier if not sure fishing in the office, (lucky boss not found out keke ^-^)
The working place...erm...just a small company,but everyday like having war..
See the worker busy and busy, the boss's face very black but i think they are nice too..
Past three days just keep on do the same thing, even is small matter but it can make me busy all the time..
Hmm...wonder when could i learn new thing from them??
After i start work, i can have my normal meal (previously i do not eat meal punctually =.=)
Morning mummy cook for me before she go to work,then lunch time...go eat with my colleague or go home alone to have it, after i finish work, go back home and prepare some ingredient for dinner and wait mummy come back and cook ^-^ (sound nice)
Even just a temporary job, but i feel lucky that i still able to get a job even they need permanent worker than temporary...
Even i know is tired,but i still hope can continue my work until they get a new admin..
I feel happy and sweet that got morning call from someone even my day is tired and tired..(thanks to the person who everyday wake me up ^o^)
Hmm....it's time to bed...tomorrow need to work as today on leave because both of my leg cramp..=.="
Hmm...nothing much changes, everything still same and normal~
This year's birthday get few surprise from my family,friends and someone who special..
Really thanks you and appreciate those surprise that they give me..memorable neh~yippie~
Recently feel very tired, shoulder keep pain and sour...what happen exactly??
After spend a nice holiday with someone, it's time for me to start working life~
Although still haven't use to it but i believe i still can do it as well~ (gambateh~)
Everyday have to wake up at 6:45am and start work at 8am,lucky still able to work..
So i need to sleep earlier if not sure fishing in the office, (lucky boss not found out keke ^-^)
The working place...erm...just a small company,but everyday like having war..
See the worker busy and busy, the boss's face very black but i think they are nice too..
Past three days just keep on do the same thing, even is small matter but it can make me busy all the time..
Hmm...wonder when could i learn new thing from them??
After i start work, i can have my normal meal (previously i do not eat meal punctually =.=)
Morning mummy cook for me before she go to work,then lunch time...go eat with my colleague or go home alone to have it, after i finish work, go back home and prepare some ingredient for dinner and wait mummy come back and cook ^-^ (sound nice)
Even just a temporary job, but i feel lucky that i still able to get a job even they need permanent worker than temporary...
Even i know is tired,but i still hope can continue my work until they get a new admin..
I feel happy and sweet that got morning call from someone even my day is tired and tired..(thanks to the person who everyday wake me up ^o^)
Hmm....it's time to bed...tomorrow need to work as today on leave because both of my leg cramp..=.="
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
my 21st bday celebration on 24/10/09
Hmm..Just now ask me act kiss "spider", now ask me act eat "spider"??
This gang of friends, really got many weird pose..
But i enjoy the celebration that they plan for me..thanks ya^o^
Love you all~~^.^Muax~
Oh no..!!They ask me kiss the "spider"
"spider" actually is a kiwi and those chocolate as legs and head..
Are they asking me act cute??
Will I look like silly girl?? hmm....(wonder...)
Hehe..am i smile sweet??LOL~Show my teeth and wanna cut my beautiful cake..
Haha..1...2....3........smile...snap photo liao~keke..
Hmm...friends ask me make wish o..Got 3 wishes,hope will come true..^^
Wah~ looking the nice and pretty cake
Feel like not really want to eat it..=.=
Comment->Cake from Bizz cafe..hmm...not bad leh..Thanks thanks all my lovely friends..
I love the cake so much ^o^
My first birthday cake for my birthday on 2009
Date: 24/10/09Location: Bizz Cafe
Purpose: celebrate my birthday ^^
Cameraman: 1 of the worker in Bizz Cafe
p/s: I feel this photo nice because all of us smile
and show our beautiful teeth keke^o^
Date: 24/10/09Location: Bizz Cafe (Bukit Tinggi)
Total of People: 5 girls (can form a "gang") LOL~
Purpose: My birthday celebration ^_^
p/s: Hey girls..see the mirror and say "cheese", show your
beautiful and white teeth ^^
Date: 24/10/09
Location: Bizz cafe ( Bukit Tinggi)
Total of people: 4 girls (before 2pm)
Purpose: Celebrate my birthday ^.^
p/s: hey everyone see the mirror there and smile..that's right ^_^
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