IF we never know each other
IF we never meet each other
IF we never chat with each other
IF we never falls to each other
IF we never start the relationship with each other
IF we never know the dark side of each other
IF "those things" never happened
IF..........................
IF..........................
IF...........................
** There is no such thing of " IF "
That is an excuses for human to shirk the responsibility to others
That also a weakness of human which never admit of their error
Actually we should proud with those people who willing to admit their error,
because it need lots and lots of brave to do so.
Do you understand how much of brave i use to admit the error i did when you ask me?
Do you know how afraid when i told you everything?
Do you know how hurt am i when you remain silent when i ask you choose to stay or leave me?
Do you all those always hunting me all the time and keep blaming my own?
Maybe i shall not expect you to forget all the past matters i told you,
IF in the end you couldn't let go those past matter i've told you,
IM the ONE who get HURT again and again.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
希望你振作
这件事情来的太突然，连我也吓倒多么希望你是根全世界的人开玩笑。
可是事实总是残酷，我知道你很难接受这个事实。
当我听到这个消息，我的确很担心你的心情和情绪。
你的性格，我多多少少了解一点点，所以我真的很担心你。
我知道此刻的你，内心在煎熬和难受。
有谁希望这是事实呢？
当我见到你的那一刻，我真的真的很想抱着你让你哭；
可是你姐却阻止我那样做，因为考虑到你的感受，所以我没抱你。
当我看见你姐红了的眼睛，我只能把手搭在他的肩膀以示安慰。
在那刻，我多么希望你哭着哭着也好比你强忍泪水和强颜欢笑。
你一直说你可以笑就代表你没事，可是明眼人都知道你在逞强。
我知道我什么都做不到，只可以默默的关注你的消息。
在我看见你放的照片和感言，我真的真的很心疼你，你知道吗？
我们都知道你对这段感情，付出了很多时间和感情，无奈上帝却夺走了他。
当我听到你姐描述那天出殡火化的画面，我真的难以想象，眼泪在打滚。
我真的想不到，当时的你是如何面对，如何做到。
不过我知道你也想他安心上路，也知道你的不舍。
也曾想过，如果是我遇到这样的问题，我也不懂该怎么去面对和承受。
每次我想起那些照片和你的感言，我真的很担心你。
身旁的人怎么担心你，我知道你是清楚的。
可是现在我们只能做的只有等你，还有给你足够的空间去休息。
但愿你不要想不开而去做傻事，你知道我们担心你吗？
我知道你需要时间愈合，所以你一定要加油坚强的活下去。
虽然他没有在世上，可是起码他再生的时候曾经爱过你。
看见你年纪轻轻就得和爱人经历这样的生离死别，我领悟了些事。
不是每一对恋人都可以一直幸福，因为今天不懂明天事。
不需要太执着于一些小事情，因为你比其他人来的幸福；
比起那些失去自己的爱人而言，你确实比他们幸运;
所以当情侣间发生了小冲突，千万别轻易放手属于自己的爱情；
前提不是破坏别人的家庭或牺牲别人的感情。
虽然我也是在几天前和我的他发生了冲突，庆幸我们和好了。
自从看见在你身上发生的事情，我已经知道我是幸运的。
所以我现在慢慢学会不要太执着，任何事情总有解决的方法。
只要双方愿意聆听对方的感受，然后慢慢沟通问题会解决的。
只要双方学会站在对方的立场着想，分饰朋友，家人，姐妹，等角色
那样的感情很难被破坏，也会坚固前提是双方必须信任彼此。
所以我希望你能代替你的他好好的活下去，去完成他的心愿好让他安息。
可是事实总是残酷，我知道你很难接受这个事实。
当我听到这个消息，我的确很担心你的心情和情绪。
你的性格，我多多少少了解一点点，所以我真的很担心你。
我知道此刻的你，内心在煎熬和难受。
有谁希望这是事实呢？
当我见到你的那一刻，我真的真的很想抱着你让你哭；
可是你姐却阻止我那样做，因为考虑到你的感受，所以我没抱你。
当我看见你姐红了的眼睛，我只能把手搭在他的肩膀以示安慰。
在那刻，我多么希望你哭着哭着也好比你强忍泪水和强颜欢笑。
你一直说你可以笑就代表你没事，可是明眼人都知道你在逞强。
我知道我什么都做不到，只可以默默的关注你的消息。
在我看见你放的照片和感言，我真的真的很心疼你，你知道吗？
我们都知道你对这段感情，付出了很多时间和感情，无奈上帝却夺走了他。
当我听到你姐描述那天出殡火化的画面，我真的难以想象，眼泪在打滚。
我真的想不到，当时的你是如何面对，如何做到。
不过我知道你也想他安心上路，也知道你的不舍。
也曾想过，如果是我遇到这样的问题，我也不懂该怎么去面对和承受。
每次我想起那些照片和你的感言，我真的很担心你。
身旁的人怎么担心你，我知道你是清楚的。
可是现在我们只能做的只有等你，还有给你足够的空间去休息。
但愿你不要想不开而去做傻事，你知道我们担心你吗？
我知道你需要时间愈合，所以你一定要加油坚强的活下去。
虽然他没有在世上，可是起码他再生的时候曾经爱过你。
看见你年纪轻轻就得和爱人经历这样的生离死别，我领悟了些事。
不是每一对恋人都可以一直幸福，因为今天不懂明天事。
不需要太执着于一些小事情，因为你比其他人来的幸福；
比起那些失去自己的爱人而言，你确实比他们幸运;
所以当情侣间发生了小冲突，千万别轻易放手属于自己的爱情；
前提不是破坏别人的家庭或牺牲别人的感情。
虽然我也是在几天前和我的他发生了冲突，庆幸我们和好了。
自从看见在你身上发生的事情，我已经知道我是幸运的。
所以我现在慢慢学会不要太执着，任何事情总有解决的方法。
只要双方愿意聆听对方的感受，然后慢慢沟通问题会解决的。
只要双方学会站在对方的立场着想，分饰朋友，家人，姐妹，等角色
那样的感情很难被破坏，也会坚固前提是双方必须信任彼此。
所以我希望你能代替你的他好好的活下去，去完成他的心愿好让他安息。
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
12.12.12
2012.12.12
今天真的是一个很特别的日子，今天会是最后一个同年月日的日子。
真的好想就和最心爱的人一起渡过，不过没法一起渡过希望今天不会吵架吧。
真的希望那些有情人可以终成眷属，也希望我自己的感情可以开开心心。
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话说昨天我自己的确很不开心，非常不开心。
虽然自己知道因何事而不开心，可是我的确费尽心思努力压下我的不开心；
然而我的脸上却清楚的表现我的表情，加上每次看到你我真的很难控制自己的情绪。
在看见你的前一晚，我真的想了千万种方法表情去面对明日的你。
可是在我看见你的那一刻，我很清楚我自己做不下去，所以我表现冷漠。
而你知道我的冷漠，你也不畏惧或许是因为你自己也清楚你理亏吧。
我一直冷漠，不说话，对你也不闻不问，而你却一直逗我说话。
当你来我家的时候，我知道我的脸是一样冷漠，很臭也不直视你。
我以为我可以继续对你冷漠，可是我办不到，我真的办不到。
我以为我有颗冷酷的心，可是没想到我却被你从后拥抱我而开始融化。
一直到我们吃完早餐，要迈向我们约会目的地的途中；
我却再也忍不下我的眼泪，我不想在你面前哭，我不想你看见我的软弱！
可是我却别开我的脸，然后闭上眼睛，眼泪就划了下来。
是一个无声的流泪，我以为你是不会察觉，因为是无声的眼泪。
然而你好像察觉就伸出你的手来捧我的脸，过后你却意外的碰到眼泪。
之后，你静静的开始加速，而我却继续闭上我的眼睛。
就当我以为你不为所动的同时，你却把车停在油站，拿出纸巾来为我擦泪。
然后一直对我说宝贝，别哭了好不好。宝贝老婆，别哭了啦，我知道我错了。
我依然紧闭我的双眼，然后眼泪一直流，他却一直擦，一直道歉。
一直擦眼泪，一直说对不起，一直拥着我向我撒娇，一直说我是他最爱的人等等。
虽然我很希望他对我说甜言蜜语，也希望他向我证明我是他唯一最爱的女友；
可是有时就是会有一丝丝的矛盾，我希望，同时我也害怕那是谎言。
在他跟我说我是他老婆的时候，我在心里一直提醒自己说我不是，我不是
因为我知道当现在为止，他还不是把我当成是他老婆；
然后我反驳的说我不是，而他也改口说女友。
之后我不懂他拿了几张的纸巾来为我擦眼泪，到后来他就一直说不要哭了宝贝。
原本好不容易平复了一点自己的心情，就因为他的话又哭了。
而他也好像慌了似，一直说不要哭了好不好，宝贝不要哭了好不好？
然后再他擦干了，我叫他开车前往我们要去的地点，一路上好安静。
而我也还是安静的任由他牵着我的手，可是还是有给与一点反应。
一直到看完戏，他也问我是否觉得饿？我点头，然后她很开心的让我选择我的午餐；
后来我选择吃snowflake他也答应，之后我们在那里看见一个好可爱的公仔，
我就跟他说我要，然后要他去找结果找不到，后来我就放他一马只要他请我吃晚餐。
之后慢慢的变得不冷漠，慢慢地跟他说话，慢慢地酸他；
而他也任由我酸他，只要我原谅他即可；而我也说话算话的原谅了他。
虽然我不懂这样的事情，在未来是否还会发生；
不过我希望不会，再也不会。
毕竟我真的不喜欢在别人面前流泪，因为我会克制我自己。
有时无声眼泪的伤害会比有声眼泪的伤害来的更深，更痛。
爱情，有的时候真的会让人觉得无奈，留恋等等；
或许这就是爱情美妙之处，也让人留连忘返，痛得入心入肺，甜的像蜜糖。
今天真的是一个很特别的日子，今天会是最后一个同年月日的日子。
真的好想就和最心爱的人一起渡过，不过没法一起渡过希望今天不会吵架吧。
真的希望那些有情人可以终成眷属，也希望我自己的感情可以开开心心。
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
话说昨天我自己的确很不开心，非常不开心。
虽然自己知道因何事而不开心，可是我的确费尽心思努力压下我的不开心；
然而我的脸上却清楚的表现我的表情，加上每次看到你我真的很难控制自己的情绪。
在看见你的前一晚，我真的想了千万种方法表情去面对明日的你。
可是在我看见你的那一刻，我很清楚我自己做不下去，所以我表现冷漠。
而你知道我的冷漠，你也不畏惧或许是因为你自己也清楚你理亏吧。
我一直冷漠，不说话，对你也不闻不问，而你却一直逗我说话。
当你来我家的时候，我知道我的脸是一样冷漠，很臭也不直视你。
我以为我可以继续对你冷漠，可是我办不到，我真的办不到。
我以为我有颗冷酷的心，可是没想到我却被你从后拥抱我而开始融化。
一直到我们吃完早餐，要迈向我们约会目的地的途中；
我却再也忍不下我的眼泪，我不想在你面前哭，我不想你看见我的软弱！
可是我却别开我的脸，然后闭上眼睛，眼泪就划了下来。
是一个无声的流泪，我以为你是不会察觉，因为是无声的眼泪。
然而你好像察觉就伸出你的手来捧我的脸，过后你却意外的碰到眼泪。
之后，你静静的开始加速，而我却继续闭上我的眼睛。
就当我以为你不为所动的同时，你却把车停在油站，拿出纸巾来为我擦泪。
然后一直对我说宝贝，别哭了好不好。宝贝老婆，别哭了啦，我知道我错了。
我依然紧闭我的双眼，然后眼泪一直流，他却一直擦，一直道歉。
一直擦眼泪，一直说对不起，一直拥着我向我撒娇，一直说我是他最爱的人等等。
虽然我很希望他对我说甜言蜜语，也希望他向我证明我是他唯一最爱的女友；
可是有时就是会有一丝丝的矛盾，我希望，同时我也害怕那是谎言。
在他跟我说我是他老婆的时候，我在心里一直提醒自己说我不是，我不是
因为我知道当现在为止，他还不是把我当成是他老婆；
然后我反驳的说我不是，而他也改口说女友。
之后我不懂他拿了几张的纸巾来为我擦眼泪，到后来他就一直说不要哭了宝贝。
原本好不容易平复了一点自己的心情，就因为他的话又哭了。
而他也好像慌了似，一直说不要哭了好不好，宝贝不要哭了好不好？
然后再他擦干了，我叫他开车前往我们要去的地点，一路上好安静。
而我也还是安静的任由他牵着我的手，可是还是有给与一点反应。
一直到看完戏，他也问我是否觉得饿？我点头，然后她很开心的让我选择我的午餐；
后来我选择吃snowflake他也答应，之后我们在那里看见一个好可爱的公仔，
我就跟他说我要，然后要他去找结果找不到，后来我就放他一马只要他请我吃晚餐。
之后慢慢的变得不冷漠，慢慢地跟他说话，慢慢地酸他；
而他也任由我酸他，只要我原谅他即可；而我也说话算话的原谅了他。
虽然我不懂这样的事情，在未来是否还会发生；
不过我希望不会，再也不会。
毕竟我真的不喜欢在别人面前流泪，因为我会克制我自己。
有时无声眼泪的伤害会比有声眼泪的伤害来的更深，更痛。
爱情，有的时候真的会让人觉得无奈，留恋等等；
或许这就是爱情美妙之处，也让人留连忘返，痛得入心入肺，甜的像蜜糖。
Monday, November 26, 2012
L.O.L !!
"When a person fall in love, IQ of the person will become lower."
I wonder how true is this all the while, but i think i can understand it now.
I partly agree with the statement above, but not fully agree;
i have seen some cases around me and i wonder how could i help them.......
Due to a stupid reason, i choose to wake up earlier to complete my incomplete task;
and keep remind myself have to finish it as soon as possible but......................
When the moment i going to finish my task, i only realize how stupid am i....
It seems like angel and devil of my body fighting with each other for few hours,
angel said : you have to complete current task as you have another task to complete;
devil said: you should sleep for few more hours because you're tired and sleepy.
In the end angel won, but devil keep disturbing and persuading the owner listen to it.
I keep remind myself that i have another incomplete task,
therefore i stay awake and complete current task.
While i doing my task i received a call from my college mate,
i become her listener for an hour while complete my task.
Finally im going to complete my current task, i tell myself just left little bit go ahead....
But....a call ruined my expectation and started to feel how stupid am i.
"Changing always faster than planning, it can ruin your plan just for a second."
When i done all my task, i asked myself
Why am i so stupid wake up so earlier just for a stupid reason and people?
Why am i expect everything goes smooth as what we plan?
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
The reason i wake up so early become an unnecessary thing,
just because i hopes to stay beside you when you need me;
therefore i choose to awake earlier to done all my incomplete task,
in the end i feel i useless because you dont ever need me at all.
Since nobody need me, why am i so stupid and rush like nobody?
It is very very funny, i sacrifice my sleeping time just to complete my task;
this is what i get from you...Hahahahahaha......
Perhaps i should listen to devil, sleep few more hours for my own good.
I wonder how true is this all the while, but i think i can understand it now.
I partly agree with the statement above, but not fully agree;
i have seen some cases around me and i wonder how could i help them.......
Due to a stupid reason, i choose to wake up earlier to complete my incomplete task;
and keep remind myself have to finish it as soon as possible but......................
When the moment i going to finish my task, i only realize how stupid am i....
It seems like angel and devil of my body fighting with each other for few hours,
angel said : you have to complete current task as you have another task to complete;
devil said: you should sleep for few more hours because you're tired and sleepy.
In the end angel won, but devil keep disturbing and persuading the owner listen to it.
I keep remind myself that i have another incomplete task,
therefore i stay awake and complete current task.
While i doing my task i received a call from my college mate,
i become her listener for an hour while complete my task.
Finally im going to complete my current task, i tell myself just left little bit go ahead....
But....a call ruined my expectation and started to feel how stupid am i.
"Changing always faster than planning, it can ruin your plan just for a second."
When i done all my task, i asked myself
Why am i so stupid wake up so earlier just for a stupid reason and people?
Why am i expect everything goes smooth as what we plan?
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
The reason i wake up so early become an unnecessary thing,
just because i hopes to stay beside you when you need me;
therefore i choose to awake earlier to done all my incomplete task,
in the end i feel i useless because you dont ever need me at all.
Since nobody need me, why am i so stupid and rush like nobody?
It is very very funny, i sacrifice my sleeping time just to complete my task;
this is what i get from you...Hahahahahaha......
Perhaps i should listen to devil, sleep few more hours for my own good.
Friday, November 23, 2012
Unknown side vs unknown feeling
This will be the first time ever i scroll down to view his Facebook homepage,
When the moment i scroll down to view his homepage there are few strange feelings.
This is not the first time i view his homepage in Facebook,
But this will be the first time i allow myself scroll down to view his profile.
Can i just assume myself overcome my fear to view his Facebook profile?
I don't ever understand why am i allow myself to scroll down and have a look on that,
It has been more than half years i know him, but i dare not view his profile so detail.
I'm afraid i can't take it, i'm afraid i jealous, i'm afraid i sad and so on........
I'm surprise that i never stop my hand to scrolling down to view his profile,
accidentally i found another side of him i never see before.
What a complicated feeling after view his profile,
until i don't know how to express my feeling as well.
I feel sad when i saw those emo post in his profile,
I feel complicated when i saw those photos i shouldn't see.
I always know what is the reason makes me stop scrolling down to view his page,
after viewing it makes me feel he has the unknown side which i never see before;
I really hopes he can get a right girl whom he loves and care her till the end of his life.
Although his past experience had similar with my past experience,
and i hopes we can learn the right way to threat people through our past experiences.
I hopes we can appreciate all the things we have in our life,
and thank god and fate make us meet in this world,
and let us fall in love to each other, hopes we can be the right person for each other.
Dear, just erase our past experience and appreciate what we have right now.
Through out all the memories, i believe we know how to threat each other.
I can't predict what will happen to our future, but i sincerely hope the promises you made will come true.
When the moment i scroll down to view his homepage there are few strange feelings.
This is not the first time i view his homepage in Facebook,
But this will be the first time i allow myself scroll down to view his profile.
Can i just assume myself overcome my fear to view his Facebook profile?
I don't ever understand why am i allow myself to scroll down and have a look on that,
It has been more than half years i know him, but i dare not view his profile so detail.
I'm afraid i can't take it, i'm afraid i jealous, i'm afraid i sad and so on........
I'm surprise that i never stop my hand to scrolling down to view his profile,
accidentally i found another side of him i never see before.
What a complicated feeling after view his profile,
until i don't know how to express my feeling as well.
I feel sad when i saw those emo post in his profile,
I feel complicated when i saw those photos i shouldn't see.
I always know what is the reason makes me stop scrolling down to view his page,
after viewing it makes me feel he has the unknown side which i never see before;
I really hopes he can get a right girl whom he loves and care her till the end of his life.
Although his past experience had similar with my past experience,
and i hopes we can learn the right way to threat people through our past experiences.
I hopes we can appreciate all the things we have in our life,
and thank god and fate make us meet in this world,
and let us fall in love to each other, hopes we can be the right person for each other.
Dear, just erase our past experience and appreciate what we have right now.
Through out all the memories, i believe we know how to threat each other.
I can't predict what will happen to our future, but i sincerely hope the promises you made will come true.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
感情这回事
有时我的确很难明白感情这回事，
是要爱到难舍难离才是表现爱彼此的方式吗？
还是越爱就越会伤害彼此才是证明对彼此的爱？
我知道感情是没有错和对，就一直要寻找适合彼此的方法来维持。
人只要在甜蜜期，都会看见彼此的优点而忽略缺点；
可是一旦双方吵架了呢，那又该用怎样的方法去化解误会呢？
还是在爱情里每个人都会用言语去伤害对方，
而被伤害的那个该如何应对？
是否越容易得到的，越不会去珍惜？
这里路来我们经历过不少风雨，误会，
原以为我们会慢慢了解彼此，然后慢慢接近彼此。
可是有些时候我的确不懂你是在想什么。
有些话，一旦说了出来你永远不会知道那伤害有多深。
有些话，一旦说出来你会要承受你意想不到的后果。
不是每个对不起都能换来一句没关系。
或许那时你无意的话，可是却伤害了我；
间接地让我想起了些不开心的回忆然后也间接影响了我们的关系。
我怕了我真的怕了 宝贝我真的怕了。
难道就没有别的方法去让你心爱的人知道你是多么的爱她和不舍得他？
非得要用文字来伤害彼此的心灵才可以让他/她知道你的感受吗？
究竟还有什么方法，我真的不懂了。
究竟是哪里出了问题？
是否我们彼此沟通得不够？
还是我们不善于表达自己表情?
我们彼此的手牵了，可不可以就不要轻易的放开彼此的手？
我们开始了我们之间的感情，是否可以不轻易断？
我希望时间可以慢慢证明一切。
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Melacca Day Trip on 22.09.12
Date: 22.09.12
Location: Melacca
~ Our lunch after visiting the zoo in Melacca, this melacca trip were with my classmates, have a great trip although tired but have fun at there ^^
~ These nyonya dishes really taste delicious, if got chance i wish to visit this Nyonya shop again wow wow.. Let's start our lunch as we were starving starving xDD
Date: 22.09.12
Location: Melacca
~ Yummy yummy durian puff..feels like gonna taste it after had it xD, although i not really like to eat durian but i cant reject the taste and the smell it is so attractive...i wish to eat this again yum yum :p
Location: Melacca
~ A famous place in Melacca, a nice view to snap for memory ^^
Date: 22.09.12
Location: Melacca
~ Let's snap photo for our memory before we left Melacca, 1...2....3.... Smile ^^
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