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Taregga Guitar Camp 2011 ( Part 2 )

2012-01-19T13:20:00.004+08:00

Date: 27/12/2011- 29/12/2011 (Day 1 to Day 3)

Location: Gold Coast Morib, Banting

Purpose: Game for group, to train the responsibilities of every member in the group =)

Time: 16:30-18:30

P/S: This is the first time i join for the camp, and this game is quite challenging for my members.

Date: 27/12/2011- 29/12/2011 (Day 1 to Day 3)

Location: Gold Coast Morib, Banting.

Purpose: Indoor Game time as that night was rainning.

Time: 20:30- 2150

P/S: In this game, i saw many of the members were enjoyed the games, and most of them keep playing it again and again, too bad that teacher did not participate in this game =(

Date: 27/12/2011 - 29/12/2011 (Day 1 to Day 3)

Location: Gold Coast Morib, Banting.

Purpose: Seminar Session by Ms. Thu Le ( Guitarist from Vietnam)

Time: 10:30-12:30

P/S: I'm practicing my finger skill taught by Ms. Thu Le, too bad my teacher snap this photo and tag me in facebook with what am i doing? This teacher is bad...^o^

Tarrega Guitar Camp 2011 ( Part 1 )

2012-01-12T12:01:00.007+08:00

Date: 27-12-2011 to 29-12-2011

Location: Gold Coast Morib, Banting

Purpose: Doing exercise in the early morning for every students and teachers as well before having our breakfast ^^

P/S: This is the first time i attend the camp and i feel enjoy when i reach there ^^

Date: 27-12-2011 to 29-12-2011

Location: Gold Coast Morib, Banting

Purpose: - Having the presentation from Thu Le, the guitarist from Vietnam.

- Teaching the skill for fingering to all the students.

P/S: I learned the useful skill from this pretty guitarist from Vietnam, and she is friendly too; too bad the weather for that day quite cold and feel sleepy @@

Date: 27-12-2011 to 29-12-2011

Location: Gold Coast Morib, Banting

Purpose: Having the presentation from Mr. Zhuraini Jihat, he is playing the song of Flamengo ^^

P/S: I enjoyed the Flamengo session from M. Zhuraini Jihat, because the songs he played was nice and i were impressed with his skill to played the Flamengo songs. =)

2012

2012-01-03T00:02:00.003+08:00

In the brand new year of 2012,

what things you wish to do in this whole year??

I believe everyone is greedy, so do i,

i wish i can stay happy, healthy, and many;

and also wish all my friends can stay happy all these while.

Having down mood currently,

why am i thinks of you for these few days;

i really don't ever understand.

Am i did not work hard to forget everything about you?

Am i fall down again?

Am i have't fully walk and move from past?

I hate myself seriously,

why am i not stay strong when i think of you?

I understand and very clear that there is impossible between you and me,

but i don't even know why i cant delete all the memories,

am i din't delete it or i don't wish to delete it?

I feel pain when those memories appear in my mind,

but i can't tell anyone how pain am i, especially you!

Day by day, i thought i can put down everything in past,

and move on to my new life and let it recover as well;

but why am i cant fully recover?

How long am i going to sustain?

Wehn can i let go everything happened in past?

I'm sorry to all my friends if they know i feeling down,

i know they all will worry about me especially my friend in UK.

I promise my friend that i will be fine in short term,

and i know i can't break the promises between me and my friend.

Hopefully this mood only for short while, i should cheer up.

CHEER, I CAN DO IT!!

15/12/11

2011-12-16T00:18:00.005+08:00

If everything goes smooth,

today would be the second month of our annivesary.

Changes always faster than plannning,

never thought this will happen;

but it is happen.

Last month was our first month annivessary,

that time you forgot,

after i hint you said to me happy annivessary.

At that moment i feel so sweet and lovely,

but now everything changed.

Looked back the texts in my mobile,

all those memories that spent with you been recalled.

The first time you said you love me,

the first time you so jealous about me and my guy friend,

the first time you so worry about me when i sick,

the first time you scold me when i think negative,

the first time we argue and so on.

I miss the way you looking at me,

i miss the way you laugh me,

i miss the way you concern me,

i miss the way you love me,

i miss the way you care me,

i miss the way you tease me,

i miss the way you angry me as well.

I miss the way you hug me,

i miss the way you kiss me,

i miss the way you hold me,

i miss the way you for everything.

Today i told you that i miss you,

but what is the respond i get from you?

Between your answer gives me a clear answer,

at that moment i laugh at myself,

why am i think so simple and silly???

Maybe you'll feel frustrating after you saw it,

but yes or no, actually not a big deal for me,

i thinking is that a right choice to tell you i miss you?

I never get an answer for that question,

what i can say is.......

just let it.......

If there is a day or whole month i never find you,

will you miss me all the times?

On and off asking myself those silly question,

between i feel happy when my lecturer told me that

he gradually feel happy with my improvement,

it gaves me motivation to work better in this 2 weeks time,

so.............WORK FOR IT!!!

struggling

2011-12-11T19:12:00.002+08:00

Struglling struggling struggling,

i hate struggling !!

Why am i so struggling at this moment?

I don't want struggling, i don't want!!

What can i do now?

Im forcing myself not to think about you,

but why it seems like so hard for me?

Am i never try it hard or i don't wish to forget?

Although forcing myself not to concern anything about you,

but seriously im fail to do so.

The more i forcing myself, the more i miss you,

it sounds so silly and naive.

I know i had stand up from where i fall,

even forcing myself use to it with the life without your texts and phone call,

but why am i keep looking and waiting?

You are everything in my mind,

therefore i feel sad and hurt when you treat me cold,

i know i shouldn't do so, i understand.

I really need someone to support me,

i very wish the person is you,

but that is impossible for now, and i know it.

Maybe im too soft to handling this kind of emotion,

i shall learn to be a tough girl.

Stand up from where you fall isn't tough,

but you need to keep move it when those memories appear in your mind;

and that is tough for me,

and that is what makes me struggling as well.

I shall find the way out, i must!

December of 2011 part 1

2011-12-04T14:28:00.007+08:00

December of 2011 part 1

What will you do when you facing problem?

Avoid? Face it? Ignore?

I'm struggling yet confusing right now,

what can i do to makes it better?

Recently really got no appetite to have any food,

those food in front of me but i got no mood to have it no matter how delicious it is.

I just only had little bit for whole week,

keep feel dizzy and out of energy and quiet as well.

Even i went to other people's house with my guys friend,

they all keep asking me why i eat so less although the dishes are delicous?

I told them i no appetite to eat and asked them enjoyed.

Luckily im not the only girls, other girls still enjoyed it as well,

after that i found the photo of us for prom night in my collegemate's photo album.

My friend said the photo looks not bad,

and i knows that is the only photo i taken with you on that day.

I download and save it in my laptop as well.

When i joined 2 of my guy friends went for PC fair,

I felt dizzy and not well perhaps not pale face,

but 2 of my guy friends did not realize that at all,lucky.

I thought i can meet the one i miss,

but too bad the person not at there, sad.

After that, had dinner together with my guy friends,

at that moment i only realized both of them quite gentleman.

While they chat about my problems, they just adviced not to think so much,

for the dinner, i only had a bit as well but keep chatting as well.

I sure three of us enjoyed the moment we chatted,

because from this chatting i knew we changed our impression for each other.

1 is my leader, and another is my collegemates;

but i never went out with the collegemate before although we know quite long.

But i know my collegemates really changed his impression about me and my leader,

i think this is the best chance to know each other more deeper.

It is rarely to get a friend in college can chat and share so much with you,

i sure we really appreciated this kind of pure friendship between both gender.

We shared our experience and thinking with each other,

perhaps we can have another chatting like yesterday again.

The whole day, the only thing in my mind is you;

but i know there is nothing i can do at this moment,

i know my friends are worry about me,

but i really need time to remanage it and fnd the way out;

i really appreciate the support from all of you!!

Actual Celebration of My Bday 2011

2011-11-05T23:06:00.004+08:00

31/10/2011

Let's me store it in my memory of my brain,
because today is a meaningful day for you and me.
I never expect i could have such celebration with you,seriously.
What thing so special and makes me so unforgettable?

Midnight Session:

Around 2350, you call me and chat with me as usual,
until 0000 you said happy birthday with a kiss via mobile,
this little thing can makes me so happy,silly right?
After that we keep on chat for 10minutes plus,
only chat in msn as we still need to rush our things.

Morning Session:

Awake around 0430,super sleepy as i only sleep 2 hours,
after awake need to continue revise my notes as having final examination at 9am.
Im late to catch the bus as late finish prepare all my stuff,
end up still able catch the 0730am bus with my friend,continue discuss topic;
while waiting for 0830am morning call someone wake up. =)
Once reach my college,super starving buy a bread for myself,
at the same time prepare exam mood before enter to exam hall,nervous.
So glad that my college mates wish me happy birthday,happy;
some of them ask me why am i dress so to college?
I ask them why ask so? They answered never see i dress so LOL~
Lets go into the exam hall and sit for exam!!

Afternoon Session:

Too bad, i couldn't finish my paper =(
After finish my paper,go to computer lab and tell someone i done my exam.
Ops,he is busying rush his work, nevermind reply those wishes in my facebook,
continue waiting someone to fetch me =)
While waiting,i call my gf for chatting and kill time as well,
finally, the person i wait reach and its time to enjoy ^^

We chatting in the car while facing some traffic jam,
but he gives me first thing while waiting traffic jam,i feel touch and lovely.
I watching the video made by him, i really happy and lovely,
i never expect got a guy willing made a video for me.
Ops,seems like enter wrong parking session for the shopping mall,
he gives up and pay the ticket fees and here is the 2nd thing i got from him.
Before he pay the ticket fees to the auto pay machine,
he ask me listen is his car audio got sound before he leave his car,
then i heard his voice appear and tell me many things and slowly my tears drop down,
after that he sing a song for me,at the moment i really very touch.
Although others will not appreciate what he did,but i will;
because i really appreciate what he do for me all the while.

Evening and Night Session:

We go to a restaurant which sell Taiwanese food in a shopping mall,
after that we go to take our movie ticket and looking the text book i need for my uni.
First time enter gold class cinema for a movie with him,
he really gives me lot of surprise on that day ^^
After movie, we have our coffee in Starbuck and chit chat and snap some ugly photos,
due to lack time to rest, we decide back home after coffee and have some rest.

My feeling:

I dislike to have exam on my birthday, and this is first time to have it;
but i really appreciate what he=Mr.J do for me all the while we know each other until now.

First time got a guy willing spend his time and do all the things just to want me
happy and make the date memorable between me and mr.J, i really appreciate mr.J.

This year, i really got a memorable birthday celebration and i really enjoy it,
although this is the first time celebrate with mr.J,i really happy and feel lovely.

Other than that, i also need to thanks my parent whom allow me go out
more than 12hours and allow i go for my birthday celebration on actual day :D

The Earlier Celebration in 2011

2011-10-30T12:19:00.007+08:00

Date : 29/10/2011

Location: Ferris Cafe ( Bandar Botanic )

Purpose: My earlier celebration of my birthday+ gathering

- The cake that I choose and my friend pay for it ^^

- Snap a photo with the cake =)

- Thanks for the part time pretty singer sing a birthday song to me when the waiter of the cafe take out the cake, and also thanks for the handsome singer play the birthday song with guitar, so nice and enjoyable even got a bit shy ( first time got such good service )

Date : 29/10/2011

Location: Ferris Cafe ( Bandar Botanic )

Purpose: My earlier celebration of my birthday+ gathering

- The black beg with purple ribbon is the present I request from my friends as they don't know what i want. :-)

- The birthday card from all my friends, and the wishes inside is so funny, but i appreciate ^^

Date : 29/10/2011

Location: Ferris Cafe ( Bandar Botanic )

Purpose: My earlier celebration of my birthday+ gathering

- Make a wish~ Make a wish~

- After that blow the candle and the pretty singer sing the last sentences of the birthday song.....nice nice :D

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p/s: This year of my birthday celebration is happier than last year because last year my friend

did not celebrate with me as well. I appreciate that they plan this earlier celebration for me, even

the present, cake, the birthday card are choose by my own and they just pay the money, but I

really happy with it because I can choose the thing I want yet they are not wasting their money

to buy something that I don't really use it in future. First time celebrate in cafe and the singer

sing a birthday song to me, although the environment of the cafe are not high, but I appreciate

that I can have such service in my life for first time =)

Butterfly by Murai

2011-10-02T01:12:00.001+08:00

Olivia Ong, a Singaporean singer who has a good voice.
In the album of " best of Olivia" i found this song very nice, love it so much <3
Although this song have 2 language which is Chinese and English, but she still can sing it so well.
I'll share the lyric out below, hope you all will like it. *Enjoy*

Butterfly- Olivia Ong feat Mirai Girls

是我在你身边我还不懂
What are you thinking I don't know
无法看懂你无情的心态
Baby please learn in my eyes
我懂我的魅力还是不够
What do you want now I don't know
在你心目中我是否还在
Won't you give it one more try
我们是否已经走到爱情的终点
But you keep it to yourself
不必说已经太明显
Any know that you I gonna leave me anyway
I can never make it stay
何必再拖延时间

Flying butterfly, it's gonna be alright
别伤心，just go, I know 我只需要一点时间
Flying butterfly, I need strength to go oh baby
fly fly 飞向你要的空间

已经到了分手的时候
What are you thinking I don't know
也许你开始感到内疚
Too late baby,快放手
也许我看起来潇洒
But what's still I wanna say I love you
也许我们还能做个朋友
all you do is break my heart
我们已经走到了爱情的终点
But you never understand
不必说已经太明显
Any knew that you but gonna leave me anyway
I can never make it stay
何必再拖延时间

Flying butterfly, it's gonna be alright
别哭泣，just go, I know 我只需要一点时间
Flying butterfly, I needed strength to go oh baby
fly fly 飞向你要的空间

oh~~ it's gonna be alright now
oh~~ fly baby

Flying butterfly, it's gonna be alright
别哭泣，just go, I know 我只需要一点时间
Flying butterfly, I needed strength to go oh baby
fly fly 飞向你要的空间
Flying butterfly, it's gonna be alright
别哭泣，just go, I know 我只需要一点时间
Flying butterfly, I needed strength to go oh baby
fly fly 飞向你要的空间

惊喜 vs 伤感

2011-09-25T21:28:00.004+08:00

人生就像在一条空无一人的街道上，没有人能知道在这条道路上会有着什么等待我们去发掘，你得一路走下去才能知道这其中的奥妙。也许在这条道路上有着惊喜和伤感的存在，所谓的惊喜就是指快乐的事情；而所谓的伤感是指不顺心的事情。

假设今天的你捡到了惊喜，无疑那会增加你向前迈步的推动力和发掘另一个惊喜的信念。正所谓天下没有白吃的午餐，人生也不会永远一帆风顺，好运也不会只陪伴在你身边。如果今天的你不小心捡到了伤感，没关系，把那伤感当成是磨练并且牢牢记住这次的伤感也时时提醒自己不要在未来的日子里再犯下同样的错误。

我们的人生就像股票，时而高涨，时而低潮，你永远不能预测何时的你处于高峰状况，何时的你处于低潮的状况。这一路的跌跌撞撞是必然的课程，谁也免不了。只有改变自己的态度才能在这人生中继续地走下去，态度往往是其中决定你人生的要素之一。

若不幸，今天的你处于低潮时期，告诉自己没关系，每个人都有低潮的时期并不是只有你一个人处于低潮时期，在世界的另一端会有比你更不幸运的人，所以时时提醒自己你并不是最不幸运的那个。因为无论发生什么事，你会有朋友和家人陪伴在你的身旁帮你加油打气而且他们不会扔下你独自去面对。

看清一个人的真面目通常是在被人背叛或陷害之后才能看清一个人，相信那是一种伤害而那个伤害却会让你懂事和让你成长，换句话说经一事长一智。伤痛后，你会知道人心的险恶还会知道如何保护自己，虽然这或许是很昂贵的代价可是却能让你迅速成长，也教会你如何辨认真心的朋友和虚伪的人。

人往往会在失去的时候才恍然原来自己曾经是如此的幸福而自己却不曾珍惜曾经属于自己的幸福，然而在失去后懊恼不已，那个时候相信已失去的东西已不可能再回到你手里，相信每个人都曾有过这样的感受。我相信，从那开始我们会比之前来的更加珍惜手里紧握着属于我们自己的幸福。

幸福，从来就没有任何定义，处决与你如何定义。我相信人是贪心的，每个人都想拥有每一件美好的事物，我们都希望自己可以寻找属于自己的幸福，然而什么是我们的幸福，恐怕有待自己去寻找自己的幸福了。

p/s: 希望所有的人都可以找到属于自己的幸福！！ =)

Gospel Concert Banquet

2011-08-16T15:27:00.006+08:00

Date: 10/08/2011

Time: 19:30pm

Place: Swiss Garden Hotel Kuala Lumpur ( KL )

Purpose: Attend Gospel Concert and see how people play their instrument ^^

p/s: My group leader invited me to watch this performance with him and his friends as well, but due to i had class on that day, therefore he came college and fetch me and his friend some more need to dress better to attend...but conclusion...i enjoyed the whole performance even something happened on previous and that day =)

Date: 10/08/2011

Time: 19:30pm

Place: Swiss Garden Hotel Kuala Lumpur ( KL )

Purpose: Attend Gospel Concert and see how people play their instrument ^^

p/s: I had a great moment at the performance, i realize actually i bit sensitive with the instrument. It was a awesome performance, even i watched it for first time, seriously like it so much =). At that moment, i only realized im not the most unlucky people, at least i still got my family and friends who support and worry me when i facing problem and cry like nobody. I'm appreciated my mum text me and asked me enjoy the whole performance and asked me don't think so much of the thing happened on me, although she knew i will be late home and i knew she worried but she still ask me enjoyed it. I never regret to attend the performance although i quite tired after reached home, and also need to thanks my leader who sent me home that night. ^^ Ops, i almost forgot that day my leader makes me laugh while we chatting outside, thanks leader =)

Date: 10/08/2011

Time: 19:30pm

Place: Swiss Garden Hotel Kuala Lumpur ( KL )

Purpose: Attend Gospel Concert and see how people play their instrument ^^

p/s: Although i very tired after back from the performance, and my leg tiring like hell, i only realized i wore 12 hours high heel on that day; but i feel worth =)

The way i dress and attend to the performance, when my leader fetch me, he said wow, you wore so formal today; i answered him not to drop your face, he laughed such a good leader ^^

Even though there is something happened on me that day, it makes me cried like nobody if some one asked me about that; after i attend that performance i feeling better because my leader's concern, my mum's worry, my friend's concern; i felt so sorry to make them so worry because of me. I'm sorry everyone, i will become better, thanks for the concern from you all, i appreciated. =)

Tomato sausage spaghetti and mushroom soup

2011-08-16T14:43:00.005+08:00

Date: 15/08/2011

Time: 8:10pm

Location: My house

Purpose: My delicious dinner and mushroom soup ^^

Food: Tomato sausage spaghetti and chicken mushroom soup xD

I appreciated the delicious dinner you cook in last minute, and the ingredient all prepare in last minute; happy happy and i enjoyed at all =) So thanks for the chef of the day ya..hehehe ^^

Date: 15/08/2011

Time: 8:10pm

Location: My house

Food: 3 plates of Tomato sausage spaghetti and 3 bowls of mushroom soup

Purpose: Just to snap the nice food and store it in my memories =)

Chef: My group leader Mr.K

p/s: First time i tasted the spaghetti cook by my friend, at first it tasteless, but later on i feel it was nice because everything is prepared by last minute. The environment while having dinner also nice and harmony, such a sweet and enjoyable moment ya..i appreciated it =)

那里。明白。如果。只能

2011-07-06T11:58:00.000+08:00

那里，似乎不会为你再閃亮，
那里，似乎不能融入我。
那里，伤痕依旧，
那里，依旧冰冷。
那里，只属回忆，
那里，已成往事。

明白，不必再等待，
明白，寻找自我天地。
明白，人情冷暖，
明白，心已封锁。
明白，它只能细爵，
明白，往事已成定局。

如果，你还在乎，
如果，机会还在。
如果，没有伤痕，
如果，没有冰冷。
如果，不属回忆，
如果，不是往事。

只能, 不再等待，
只能，找寻自我。
只能，看清事实，
只能，继续封锁。
只能，储存冰封，

只能，继续往前。

Miri Trip in 2011 ( Part 4 )

2011-05-16T15:56:00.007+08:00

Date: 22-04-2011 ( Day 3 )

Time: 5pm++

Location: Miri, Sarawak

Place: Miri's biggest park ( I don't know what is the name of the park @.@ )

Photographer: Mr. C

Actually i am scare to walk this bridge, but too bad they all persuade me to walk the bridge and purposely make the bridge shacking, so bad la them, but it was a nice experience for me. In this photo, they were my member of the trip, smile....as memories =) (actually still less 2 guys)

Date: 22-04-2011 ( Day 3 )

Time: 5pm++

Location: Miri, Sarawak

Place: Miri's biggest park ( I don't know what is the name of the park @.@ )

Photographer: Mr. C

This is the kid's swimming pool in the park, many kids playing water in the pol and they seems so happy and enjoy as well, so envy them =)
Date: 22-04-2011 ( Day 3 )

Time: 6pm++

Location: Miri, Sarawak

Place: Explanade Beach

Photographer: Mr. S

Hahaha..i know this photo was ugly, but too bad my member took his camera and waiting to snap my ugly photo, therefore i take that chicken wing and let him snap the photo as well. Hmm...laugh till my eyes seem so small ya..=(

07/05/2011

2011-05-08T16:16:00.002+08:00

I just wish to remember this date carefully, this is meaningful date for me. xD

Thanks "you" , i really appreciate it, i hope you'll enjoy the days after the date. ^.^

Very surprisingly that my aunts congratulate me and asked me when will i introduce to them? o.O"

At that moment, i really feel that everything was real, i know i were silly girl. *shy*

You were getting famous after posted out, i really hope that not brings you trouble. *pai seh*

Anyway, i'll try to enjoy the days after this date, i hope its same to "you". *hope*

Sweet sweet and lovely feeling i had after posted it out. =)

Miri Trip in 2011 ( Part 3 )

2011-05-08T15:33:00.008+08:00

Date: 21-04-2011 ( Day 2 )

Time: Almost 6pm

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Marina Beach

This sea horse is the logo of the beach, this day were our outdoor activities. From afternoon we went to Niah Cave, after that we went to this beach for relaxing and try to shoot some sun set photos as there were a nice place. Many couples and families like to went there during weekend, seriously i love this place as well =)

Date: 21-04-2011 ( Day 2 )

Time: Almost 6pm

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Marina Beach

Photographer: My mum's colleague

Actually this sea horse keep some distance with me, the photographer zoom in near and i just stand at a place that for public to sit down or shooting. Some more that day the wind blow when i just sitting at there while waiting to shoot nice sun set photo, quite nice. ^^

Date: 21-04-2011 ( Day 2 )

Time: Almost 6pm

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Marina Beach

Finally he got to shoot the sun set photo!! Hahaha...even i know this photo not perfect yet, i just want to share out my experience of the trip; it can be my memories with this trip. I really really enjoy the trip as well, opps!!! The guard starting to ask visitors to leave as the time to visit the place was end, hmm....lets go for our dinner, feel hungry ^.^

Miri Trip in 2011 ( Part 2 )

2011-04-29T16:16:00.006+08:00

Date: 21-04-2011 ( Day 2 )

Time: 12pm++

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Before we step in our "journey"

We take the boat from the opposite small "jetty" to another side to start our walking "journey", the journey to walk in our destination need 3.0km++, so let's start !!!

Date: 21-04-2011 ( Day 2 )

Time: 12pm++

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: On the way to Niah Cave

Photographer: 1 of the member who go with us ^^

This is not the photo taken by me, is 1 of the member taken it and send the photos to me, i upload in my blog then. We are walking to our destination "Niah Cave", we reached there around 12pm =)

Time: 1pm- 2pm++

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Our destination "Niah Cave"

Photographer: 1 of the member who go with us ^^

We reached our destination finally!! Yeah, even my leg was tired but its worth, oh ya before i reached Miri, i had flu, sore throat, headache as well; after this outdoor activities, my flu become better ^^ In this photo, we walked through the stairs and quite dark and smelly, you can see how's the cave look like.

Time: 1pm- 2pm++

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Our destination "Niah Cave"

Photographer: 1 of the member who go with us ^^

This is shinning grass, maybe some of you will wonder, what is the special for the grass? The special thing is when you go near and look the grass, the color will not same as this photo; but when you look at the grass from far, it will become the color in the photo above. is that nice?? =)

Miri Trip in 2011 ( Part 1 )

2011-04-28T11:24:00.004+08:00

Date: 20-04-2011 ( Day 1 )

Time: 12pm

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Explanade Beach

This is the first photo taken for our trip, after we reached Miri and had our breakfast as well, we went to this beach. The air at there is cleaner than other place, really enjoy when i reached there for my trip. In this photo, you can see there is a house, maybe the richest house in Malaysia =)

Date: 20-04-2011 ( Day 1 )

Time: 12pm++

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Unknown

In this photo, we can see much clearly about the house, even just a part of the house but we can feel the house is huge =) The house is facing sea view, such a nice location for this house; too bad we can't enter the house as there has some guard standing in front of the door =(

Date: 20-04-2011 ( Day 1 )

Time: 12pm++

Place: Miri, Sarawak

Location: Unknown

The guard saw us taking photo nearby the house, therefore he closed up the door, too bad. After he closed up the gate, the photo above is the gate of the house, is gold and silver color. I guess the gate must be very heavy, is the photo nice?? Hopefully it is, thats my first day in Miri =)

Photos of Beryl's

2011-04-19T13:55:00.006+08:00

Subject: Beryl's Chocolate =)

Color Tone: Black and white

Purpose: Just For Fun ( As I'm Bored =P )

Is that nice for the photo i captured??

Subject: Beryl's Chocolate =)

Color Tone: Sepia

Purpose: Just For Fun xD

Enjoying the chocolates while i'm nervous for preparing the exam..^^

Thinking about "you"

2011-04-11T16:56:00.003+08:00

Maybe i don't know many things about "you",

Maybe i don't ever have the chance to know more about "you",

Maybe i don't ever have the chance to start relationship with "you",

Maybe i don't ever have the chance to chat with "you" anymore,

Maybe i got no chance to meet "you",

Maybe Maybe Maybe and Maybe..

I do try my best to slowly know more about "you",

but it seems the more i want to know, the far "you" walk away,

The more i want to know "your" feeling, but i fail....

I do try many ways to know and understand what "you" think of, but i fail..

I don't know where can know about "you", therefore i refer from horoscope..

I know it sound silly and stupid, but is the way i can do without let "you" know.

According the horoscope, i feel quite accurate for "your" character..

Is it so hard to let me walk in to "your" heart?

Is it so hard to let me know "your" feeling?

Is it i expect too much on "you" or too care about "you"?

There was an month plus after that incident,

I did force myself to forget about "you", did use busy as excuse not to think about "you",

but end up, i fail...wonder why will i fail?? No matter how i also will think of "you"

p/s: Last friday i get a message from a number, when i click and read, it was 'i miss you'
That time i wonder, who was the person who sent me that text to my mobile phone?
But after i think, i think it was my ex bf if i no mistaken; anyway, i did not reply as well....=)

"Wood chopstick"

2011-04-10T23:29:00.005+08:00

Today i tried a new thing, something kinda like massage, but slightly different with that.

Last week my parent tried that, they feel not bad after they tried,

therefore they tried again for today...wow.....

She was an aunt around 60years old, but she doesn't look like that,

she using a thing kinda like wood chopstick when she started helped my dad.

At first, she use that "wood chopstick" to beat my dad's leg for several minutes.

Later on, i can saw the blue black appear and swelling on my dad's leg,

then she use her hand beat his shoulder, i can saw the difference of my dad's shoulder.

For my dad's case, he feel his leg very tired, therefore the aunt more focus on his leg.

Through that she can know internal health problem, and try to help as well;

after my dad done, my dad feel relax then she called me and helped me for f.o.c @.@

Obviously i bit scared, but still take a try on that *clap clap*

She hold my hand and slowly massage, she said that im so thin opps...!!

She continued said i have a good body shape, so that if i keep maintain like now would be better.

I was wonder, huh?? good body shape?? do i have?? i don't think so...>.<"

Slowly she mentioned my internal health problem, =.=

Ouch!! so pain when she used her thumb to press my hand until i unable say thing *ouch*

Oh no!! both hand also pain, but the feeling of pain was different. =.=

Then, she press my shoulder with her hand and slowly beat it as well, ouch!! so pain.....!!!@.@

But after she helped me beat my shoulder, i feel much relax especially my shoulder ^^

Even though when she beat my shoulder, i unable to say anything because it was painful;

but i can see the result after i tried my own, seems tonight i'll have a nice sleep ^^

She still keep remind me that drink more water as my internal body not very good =(

So...no choice...have to bring my bottle wherever i go (even i do so @.@)

Anyway, this was my new experience hopefully i can try it again by next week =)

Special sitting

2011-04-09T19:48:00.002+08:00

I received email from my coordinator past few days,

the content of the email was about the special sitting for coming exam....@.@

o.O i got "special sitting" for coming exam???

Because of the clashes of the subject, therefore they managed such for the students??

Hmm....i feel not very fair to student....>.<"

According to the email, i need to reach college before 9:30am for 13/4/2011,

then i'll sit for exam of a subject, after that will be quarantine from 12:10pm-2:10pm.

In this period i need to bring my food and study material along, i guess they will keep my mobile

phone as well, to avoid i contact with other people.

After 2:10pm i will sit for another subject with all the classmates in exam hall...

I can go home after i done the exam...sound tired...isn't it???

M's gathering

2011-04-05T13:19:00.005+08:00

Date : 02.04.2011

Time: 18:30-20:30

Location: Bukit Tinggi Domino Pizza

Purpose: Celebrate 3 girls get well result in their exam!!

From left: 5....4....3...2....1.... (smile ^^)

Date: 03.04.2011

Time: 10:00-1300

Location: Bukit Tinggi Greenbox

Purpose: Sing k together as too long no sing k.

From left: 1.....5......2......3..... cheese ^^

回忆里的梦

2011-03-24T13:56:00.006+08:00

你，在那里好吗？
好久没有你的消息了，但愿你一切安好。
虽然我认为我们之间的友谊破碎了，
但我还是默默地期望你安好。

人生如戏，戏如人生，
每一套戏都会有结局的一天，
每一个宴席也会有散席的一天，
哪怕是人生的每一样事务，也会有离开或结束的一天。

我们之间的友谊，
从开始到现在。。。。。。应该渐渐迈入结束（自己的想法），
虽然有点意外，但也算预料之中的事吧。

从你开始知道我对你的感觉，
我曾担心你会因此而逃避，但终究你没有。
一次一次的幻想我们之间会发生的事情，
甚至看到其他情侣之间的甜蜜，也会幻想如果是我们会怎样？
慢慢的开始越想越多，慢慢的越来越在乎。

而你的态度却是依然不变，
却让我一直猜测你对我的态度，
或许是我太高估我自己了吧，，以为你会对我有一丝丝的情感；
而你却从来没有真真地对我反映你的想法，
只是说慢慢来，慢慢了解彼此。

是敷衍我吗？是你婉转的拒绝吗？是藉口吗？
我不懂，真真得不懂，也无法理解。
或许真的是我一厢情愿吧，
等待的同时，我也问了自己，你是否值得我等待？
可是迟迟没有答案，直到。。。。。

那天我们再一次聊起我们的问题，
才让我发现原来是你无法接受那段过去，所以拖到现在，
甚至当我问你是否对我有好感，你却说你不想说。
我再也按奈不住，
决定写了一封蛮长的信给你知道我的想法。
其实那是为了给我自己一个交待，
只想让自己别留下遗憾，却让你误会我在逼你做决定。

到现在，我还很清楚地记得你那时对我说的狠话；
也因为你的狠话，让我知道其实我的出现只是拖累你，
或许那就是你的真心话，所以才对我说那些狠话。
但是我并没有责怪你，不是因为我傻，
而是这件事情，我处理不当。

我也不想去追究是你还是我没有清楚游戏规则，
还是谁没有站在对方的立场想想。
这一切仿佛不再重要，
尤其在你对我说了那些狠话之后，
那个痛，我还清晰的记着，清晰地感觉到。

而那个痛，就时时提醒我不能在睡。
或许你不清楚，那时的狠话，对我的伤害是多大，
不过对你而言，应该不重要吧。
我很累，你懂吗？
可是我却没有后悔过，
我不想让我的人生里有后悔，所以我会坦然面对我的感情，
即使失败，也不会怨，因为我曾尝试，曾面对。

虽然那件事后，我们并没有任何交谈，
就像陌生人似，我也不会后悔。
但，觉得有些可惜毁了我们之间的友谊。
事情从发生到现在，虽然不是很久，
但我已学会慢慢放下，不再那么情绪化。

那，就像是美丽的梦，
梦，也会有清醒的一天。
答案，会随着时间慢慢出现，
伤痕，会随着时间慢慢愈合。

你会怎么看待我这个人，我并不在乎，
你认为那时是在强迫你给我答案也罢，
我也不想去解释，因为没必要。
我只需忠于自己的情感，自己的原则，
其他的，不想理会。
如果你真的相信我，你就会知道那封信并不是逼你，
而是告诉你我的心情，
同时也想给我自己一个交待，是否该放弃还是等待。

事到如今，我已经知道我该怎么做，
偶尔，还会想起我们之间的回忆，
可是只是怀念，别无其他念头。
也会尽能力，放下那些不切实际的幻想和感觉。

事情也算是结束了，
未来会是如何，没有力气去想，
我也不是死缠烂打的人，你的意思我明白。
现在的你，应该是很开心吧。
最后很想对你说声对不起，我的出现让你这么不开心。

Past Memory

2011-03-22T22:43:00.006+08:00

It has been a long period i never open my photo album that keep in my room,
i opened it and have a look before i went to bed yesterday.
The content of the photo album include friendship, family relation and my past love relationship.

I'm happy when i saw those photos taken with my primary school...xD
But when i saw those photos taken in secondary schoolmate, i feel complicated >.< Later on i saw the photos taken with my first ex boyfriend in my secondary school, i feel sweet although that was past ^^ I saw those neo print photos taken with my another ex boyfriend, i stunned for few second @.@ Primary friendship lets me know what is friendship about, Secondary friendship lets me know how cruel friendship is. First puppy love let me know the feeling of relationship, Although i did have few relationship, but the puppy love always memorable. xD Although i deleted all the photos taken with ex in my mobile phone, but surprisingly i found those neo print photos with you in the album. Im clear that things unable return when it past, therefore i dare not to regret every decision i made in my life, those are just my memories, memories..... I found that in those few stages in my life, the way to smile is slightly different, i wonder which is the natural and happy smile for me? Happy smiling when i take photos with my close friend, Shy smiling when i takes photo with my puppy love, Complicated smiling when i takes neo print photo with another ex. Among 4 neo print photos, i only found 1 photo quite nice, too bad =.= People says memories is the best thing for human, but certain people not agree with that. Can human live without memories? I guess cannot. For my opinion, memories is the part of past i've gone through, it not necessary must be sweet memory, it also can be sour, bitter and sad. Past just is a part of my memory, and also remind me not to repeat what i did in past
Having happy life and create more and more happy memories in my life ^^

Doubt

2011-03-21T00:13:00.006+08:00

Hmm....
How come recently so much things happened on me??
Seems like i not really can take it, o.O
Anyway, instead of bother troublesome problem,
i would rather spend time on my health..
Headache, please go away from me ok??

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I've been asking myself,
am i choose a wrong way to go on??
But do i have a way back after i choose current way?
It seems no, i think i just can stick to my decision even it will occur more misunderstand.
I know that isn't a best way,
at least better than i choose another way.

I just can say sorry,
i really try my best to work it,really really try my best.
Those misunderstand, i just can choose to ignore it...
My feeling, do you ever understand?

When i face those misunderstand from you guys,
what answer or explanation that you guys expect me to give?
I know you guys concern about me,
but i got my reason for remaining silence.
It doesn't mean i do not care those misunderstand,
i do care, but what else i can do except remain silence?

I just can say...
Thing is not what you guy think of...
When the day come, you guys will understand my reason.
Even i doubt with my decision, but i got no more choice can choose.

Thank You

2011-03-16T23:21:00.003+08:00

It had been few days the incident happened,
slowly i can calm down when i think of it.
Actually i know that isn't a big deal,
but after that incident happened,
i try to stand up at the place i fall down.

After few days,
mood getting better,
at least not that emotional,
at least i can calm down,
at least i can know the fact,
at least i can get answer.

Really appreciate the friends who concern about me,
i know they are worry about me when they know im sad.
I know they try to comfort me as well,
i know they want to make sure that im in good condition,
i know they don't wish i think of that thing,
i know they just wish im happy.

I'm touch when my friends so worry about me,
i'm touch when my friends comfort me,
i'm touch when my friends give me a call,
i'm touch when they willing spend their time to listen my problem.
But i feel sorry to them to make them worry about me,
therefore i'll not make myself sad for that incident.

But today one of my friend asked me about "your" thing,
my first reaction was shock, abit speechless,
after that i smile to her and told her my feeling,
will she understand or not,
i no idea, but i do not tell her in detail,
don't know why.
Perhaps it will be better after day by day...=)
Cheer up =P

p/s: thank for all my friends...i appreciate xD

The answer part 1

2011-03-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

My eye feel so dry, lucky my eye still seems alright.
Without telling,no one will know that i cried few times for today.
Hmm....how many times i had been cry??
Let me count for it....err....
More than 5 times?
I think around that, not really sure of it..

Today i got some answer from "you"
But those answer makes me cried badly,
i'm glad that you never knew i crying while you chatting with me.
It's that a hint for me to give up?
I not really sure with that,seriously....

Never thought it hunting "you" until "you" dare not step out,
never thought it will become a problem between "you" and me,
never thought this will happen on me.
I thought everything will be fine after i walked out from past,
I thought it will have a brand new chapter with "you",
I thought i still have chance?

Today i only know that it cause "you" dare not step further,
it hunting you every time "you" think of it,
it become the main reason blocking "you" and me,
i really really never think of it at all.

This is third time i heard this kind of reason,
different is...different guy talked different reason to me.
I really don't know what respond shall i give you.
The reason "you" told me really out of my expectation,
but what else i can say since "you" told me the reason??

33 hours

2011-02-27T18:07:00.004+08:00

Finally i had break my record!!
What record is it??
The longest time i never sleep!!
My previous record was busy chatting with my guy friend,
until 6something in the morning only go to bed.
I thought that will be my record....
but i never thought i break my record on 25-26/2/2011.
I never sleep for 33 hours,
it sound kinda crazy right?

Maybe there is nothing special for somebody,
but seriously i really break my record.
In that 33 hours,
i really exhausted,sleepy and so on.
What i did in this 33 hours?

I woke up at 8am+
After that reading up the assignment i had received from my member,
and then searching information until 1:30pm;
then rush to college for appointment until 3:50pm only reach home.
after that still need to cinema for purchased ticket,
and go for my class.

After back from my class, feel quite tired.
And then keep on doing my stuff and looking for my members,
too bad its hard to get my member as well, luckily he appear.
After that keep rushing my assignment as well until next day.
Obviously i like group assignment,but depend who is the person i group with.
In this semester, this group work.....
seriously i got no expectation.

I keep playing songs in case i falling asleep half way,
i feel so miss "him" in sudden,
therefore i send a message to him, too bad that no reply from him.
After i done all the things i need to do, i went for breakfast;
and went to college for attending class.
During the class, i really feel sleepy but i keep looking around.
Luckily my group able to send our assignments to lecturer,
but before that we still editing our references with rush.

After class i have to stay at beauty saloon for 2 hours,
i having my lunch with my mum and then go home.
When the moment i reached home,
seriously i couldn't take it anymore.....
After done changed my cloth,i straight away sleep until i been wake.
Having few hours nap, feel much better.

Watched "the mechanic" in cinema after dinner,
when i reach home, i still feel sleepy..
End up enjoy my sleeping until next day.
Maybe its long period that i do not have a nice sleep,
but i guess i still have to rush with my other assignments before final @.@

曾经。友谊

2011-02-21T23:18:00.006+08:00

曾经，我们一起读书；
曾经，我们一起分享；
曾经，我们一起流泪；
曾经，我们一起快乐；
曾经，我们一起伤心；
曾经，我们一起疯狂；
曾经，我们一起开怀大笑；
曾经，我们一起打打闹闹；
曾经，我们一起分享秘密；
曾经，我们一起互相扶持；
曾经，我们一起挺身而出；
曾经，我们一起述说心事；
曾经，我们一起抵抗所有流言蜚语。。。。。

种种的曾经塑造今时的我们；
难免会缅怀曾经和你们一起的岁月；
那时天真的我们，会比现在的我们还要快乐；
这些种种，只能留在回忆里缅怀；
在伤心难过的时候，让自己傻傻地笑曾经的我们；
谢谢和我一起经历过曾经的朋友们，没有你们，也就没有那时的回忆。。

complicated

2011-02-10T17:09:00.002+08:00

Recently my mood keep in down path,
but i still acting that im happy.
It had been more than a week that "you" disappear,
but i don't know the reason why "you" disappear.
Who can tell me the reason "you" disappear?

The longer time "you" disappear,
the sad am i.
But who can understand my feeling?
My friends told me that everything just a dream,
just i too care of it and "you"
I wonder is that true?
But i no answer for that.

We are just friend,
although we promised each other that focus on own career or studies,
until "you" back from England and arrange time for meet,
before we develop further.
After that incident happened, "you" never reply my message in fb.
And then, "you" never find me or leave a single message for me.
Sometime i really wonder am i too care about "you"?

In the end, i send "you" a message ask you what happen,
are "you" avoid me? or purposely not to reply?
I really don't know, really don't know.
I started ask myself shall i give up or continue?

I saw an article in facebook, i really praise the girl actually.
The story stated with a girl waiting a guy for 2 months,
because the guy get hurt in past relationship,
so the guy do not accept the confess of the girl.
Therefore the girl keep text the guy everyday for 2 months,
but that guy never reply any single to the girl.

Slowly the girl feel tired of waiting,
in her last text for the guy,she wrote she shall give up and wished him happy.
On the other hand,in this 2 months the guy slowly feel that he love that girl,
and when he want to confess to the girl,
he only switch on his phone and saw all the texts from that girl,
at the moment he only regret did not accept the girl.

From the article, i really praise what the girl did.
Not every girl can wait a guy for 2 months,
or shall say love will not wait for anyone,
so DO appreciate the person who stay beside you.
There are many couple couldn't together because of many reason.

Although i very wish to get in relationship with "you",
but after that incident happened, i no dare to think so.
Maybe "you" and me do not have the faith to have extra status,
anyway, i am glad that i can know you as well.
I'll try my best to make my life happy.

Even though i do not know that will "you" reply my message,
i just can say up to "you".
I feel tired with love, and i lost my way too.
I keep waiting for your message; but too bad i can't get,
even think many excuses for "you";
but.......nothing change?
Shall i give up or continue???
Hope i can get answer whether give up or continue.
No matter how, i DO hopes that "you" can happy,
this is what my wishes.

Uncertain

2011-02-01T23:49:00.005+08:00

My feeling for today consider mixing,
At first i thought "you" and me getting closer,but its not
Is that sound funny?Probably it is funny.
I wonder how could i so silly all the time,
Why could i so silly again and again?
Why Why Why?
Who can tell me why??

At first i was so happy because of the word,
but after i asked "you" what the meaning of the word,
i only realized how stupid am i.
Happy and sad because of the same word from "you"
Shall i said that my imagination is TOO GOOD?
Or am i typically of silly girl?
I no idea, really no idea of it....do you know it?

When you send me a message in facebook and ask me
what happened to me and mind to tell you?
I did think many ways to answer your question,
in the end i just said nothing.
What am i for "you" actually?
A normal friend? Stranger? Or what?

Sometime i do asked myself many many times,
even i feel its the best that i can know you.
I feel lucky to know you,do you know it?
Perhaps everything is just what i thought.
Maybe i don't deserve to know you?

I never tell anyone of my feeling right now,
none of my friend know,include "you".
What shall i say and how shall i say??
I do wish to get into relationship,but i afraid.
i know "you" are in the same situation wit me.

Am i think too much?
Am i expect much?
Am i stupid?
Am i good in imagination?
Am i too rely on you?

Can i pretend there is nothing happened?
Can i choose step back instead of step forward?
Can i choose ignore your messages and concern?
Can i choose hide my things from you?
Can I? Can I? Can I?

I do feel touch when i get your concern in message of facebook,
At the moment,i feel sweet,touch,appreciate during i sick.
Maybe there is nothing guarantee in life,
especially love and relationship.
No one can guarantee that human will not change.

We do say step by step and go slowly,
but how many step we have done?
1? 2? 3? 4? or none?
So far where are we?
Are we walk together?
Or separately?
Do "you" know where are we now?
Or do you know where are you and where am i?

How if i choose stop it now?
How if i choose i keep it now?
How if i choose hide in the deepest?
How if i choose ignore it?
How if i choose continue it?
How if???

" Great Day "

2011-01-25T22:54:00.007+08:00

Today let me introduce a movie that i feel nice screening in Malaysia, and when i watched this movie in the cinema; i can't control my tears drop from my eyes for twice. Maybe some of the people feel this is not the best movie, but at least for me, it is a touching storyline for the movie.

Title: Great Day 天天好天

Actors: My Fm's DJ and many Malaysian actors and actress

Synopsis:
"Great Day" tells the story of two uncles who live in an old folks home. Aggravated by an argument and with the help of Ah Hock and Ultraman, the two men decide to escape from the home and find their children, just to show off whose children are better. The fun catches on with odd circumstances one after another, but in the end of the day it's going to be a big reunion at the old folk's home.

Title of the song: 彩虹的家 ( this is the theme song for the movie of " Great Day "

Sing by : Fyonne 陈慧莹& Stephanie 刘佩芯 ( Both of the singers are the winner of the competition that held in Malaysia's Astro.)

For me, i heard this song in the movie for first time, i like this song so much; especially the lyric of the song.

This picture actually is the ending of the movie, from the beginning of the movie until the end of the movie, i feel this is a nice movie. I'm so proud that some if the actors having their own occupation which is being a DJ in a famous radio station in Malaysia could bring us such good movie. Hope they can keep work on it!!!

The poster of the movie that i saw in the cinema, i never regret that watched this movie with my family on last weekend. Although the duration of the movie is short, but it is a nice movie for me ^^

Hopefully next year will have another new movie screening during Chinese new year.

End of 2010 (part 2)

2010-12-31T18:46:00.004+08:00

Finally reach the last day of 2010.
What kind of feeling you have when reach the last day of 2010?
For me,there is nothing much special feel to 2010;
It's because i hardly have happy moment.
Although i got no much happy memories in 2010,
but i still appreciate the thing i passed through.

Everyone is planing where to count down and many,
although i wish to join my friend for count down;
but end up i choose stay at home bbq with my relatives.=)
For others,maybe will feel bored,
but actually not enjoy with friends,it do bring you another type of feeling.
How long you spend with your family?
Do you spend your time with your friends,lover,career more than parent?

Maybe it will become bit bored if bbq with relatives,
but i think it can be fun to play around with cousins while bbq.=]
I should appreciate the time can enjoy with cousins,
i know that kind of moment will be the best memories.

There are many things i haven't done,
there are many things i had done;
there are many things that i wish to done.
Too bad for the thing i haven't done,
Great that for the things i done no matter how i done it.

What is your wishes in 2011?
For me, i wish everything can goes smooth for everyone,
the thing i haven't done in 2010,i will complete it in 2011.xD
Hopefully after the things i passed through in 2010,
can bring me another experience of life and mind set.

No matter how you gonna spend your last day,
i wish that could have the memorable day for you.
Let's enjoy the moment before 2010 end,
and get ready for 2011 ^^
"Happy New Year "

End of 2010 (part 1)

2010-12-30T17:38:00.004+08:00

I shall say goodbye to 2010,and shall welcome 2011.
Wonder why these few days keep remind some memories.
No matter sweet or sad, all come into my mind.
In this years,there were many things happened on me,
it really makes me exhausted and upset.
Hope in the new year, everything will be fine.

I'm surprise when you got into my memories,
although you never appreciate me and the thing i did to you.
Honestly,i never blame how you treat me.
I know i'm silly for not blaming you with the way you treat me.
Yet you give me the chance to become tough after you hurt me.
But i also clear that was just a part of my memories.
I'll start my new chapter after i leave with happily.

I'm glad that i can know "you",
even "you" told me that we did meet before,
but too bad that "you" and me also can't remember when "we" meet.
"you" do give me lots of support when i need.
"you" do helps me alot when i need.
"you" are the person who make me fall to "you".

Although i don't know what will happen to "you" and me.
I know "you" busy with your work,and stress with it.
But i never say much about that and just keep waiting "you" online.
Sometime i also asking myself,what am i doing?
I clear that which role i playing in front of "you",
and i also appreciate the role i having right now in front of "you".
Hope we can have chance to meet again when "you" back from England.

Other than that, i realized in my memories there include others.
Which is friendship and family and others.
I'm glad that when i need,my friends stay beside me as well.
Although i very envy those people having partner,
but i know i will have a guy who really love me in future.
So i decided spend more time with my friends and family as well.
At the same time,i will spend time to "you".

I hope my exist can bring "you" comfortable,happy.
I'll try to hide my feeling toward "you" until "you" get your answer.
I'll do the thing i promise "you"
I don't wish the way i fall to "you" bring "you"troublesome.
So.....shhh...just keep it...^^

就让一切回到原点.

2010-12-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

就让一切回到原点. Let's back to the beginning.
How come i will have such feeling?
It is because i realize something on yesterday,
what is it?how to say...hmm....
Maybe shall say with this way, which is......
I misunderstand someone's feeling towards me.
Is that clear? How can i feel so?
When i feel it, what is the first thing come to my mind?
I feel so that im very silly,how can i misunderstand?
I keep laughing myself how can i so stupid.
I guess many people will say im stupid and naive as well.

I do hope,what i feel is not true just i think much.
But too bad,that is fact.
Although i know the fact,i still remain silent.
I know nothing i can say at the moment.
Remain silent is the best way for me,at least now.
Im so sorry that i misunderstand "you".

At first,i suspect i fall to you,but i keep deny in my mind.
But slowly i realize,im cheat my own if i deny.
Therefore,i admit my feeling toward you.
When the moment "you" know,"you" said let us go slow.
At that moment i was so happy,
because i thought that was hint from "you".

When i fall sick,your concern make me feel warm and lovely,
at that moment i thought you fall to me.
Until the misunderstand happened between you and me,
you told me that you started fall to me,
i am happy,at the same time surprise and worry.
I know im nt the perfect girl you looking for.

After the misunderstand happen,i never happy at all.
And i slowly realized there is some uncertain feeling,
Am i in a dream when the moment you told me you started fall to me?
Because i cannot feel that you fall to me,but i ignore it.
I dont want know the truth of your feeling.

I repeat looking the messages between you and me,
in my opinion,you got bit bit fall to me.
But until yesterday,i knew that was just my dream,
you are rational,know what you want in your life.
And you are good in hiding yourself,do you know it?
Because of that,i not sure are you really started to fall to me?
I choose to not ask you,i no dare to know.

I know i can ask you straight forward,but i don't wish.
Actually i can guess it from your words and attitude,
i know you are just looking for a sincere friendship,
and i don't wish our friendship ruin by my stupid.
I do care the friendship between you and me.

When you ask me who is the guy fulfill my requirement,
i answered you a guy,but not telling you who is he.
I escape the question even i do wish to say it out.
Honestly,you are the only one person who fulfill my requirement,
even i not sure do you know who is the guy.
But since you no ask,and i also no tell you who is he.

Maybe is better if you din't keep ask,make me hard to answer.
I appreciate it.
Even i very wish to be with you,but i guess i will hide it.
Hide in the deepest place for now
I guess is better for us,even i don't even know do we have chance.
Anyway,i just know i'll hide my feeling toward you,
Maybe until you got the right person in your life.

p/s: know that you not feeling well in England,
i do very worry and i did not over concern you as a friend,
because i don't wish my over concern bring you troublesome.
Therefore i choose to concern as a friend,
although i don't know your exactly feeling toward me,
but i guess i will not ask you anymore;
until you tell me your feeling.

Merry X'mas

2010-12-18T14:00:00.003+08:00

Oh no!! My final is on next week!!!
But x'mas is on next week too
It makes me feel no much mood to study
o.O that's terrible right?

X'mas.............sigh
I really wish to have a memorable X'mas with "you"!!
but too bad, i know it might not happen
Anyway, i still will buy "you" a x'mas gift as what i promise "you"
no matter will i have the chance to pass it to you

I know what can i do after the argument happened
i understand your feeling as well,
honestly, i never blame you at all..
i do keep waiting to get your message from other country,
seems like waiting is the thing i can do now.

I always is you good girl as i promise you,
i do always listen your advice,
i very wish you can stay beside me right now,
but i know now i can't too rely on you.

I know im not the perfect one in this world,
i m appreciate that you share your feeling with me,
i guess you also know my feeling as well,
what will it be,no one will know.

Anyway, i really wish "you" can have a nice x'mas,
although i don't know how will you celebrate it,
but i still hope "you" can enjoy it as well,
because i just hope that "you" will happy in your life.xD

Bad Sign

2010-12-14T22:16:00.003+08:00

Today i not feel happy with certain thing,certain words.
After my "personal doctor" dissapear for 3 days, finally "personal doctor" appear in my msn.
Thank god that i finally can chat with "personal doctor", but too bad we argued when we chatted.
It was first time that we argued because of misunderstand, and no matter how i explain i know "personal doctor" will not trust me anymore.
Shall i leave or waiting a chance to explain to "personal doctor" that was just misunderstand?
I really don't know what shall i do for this moment, i know why "personal doctor" so sad.
I really hope time can stop at friday night, that was special day for me; that day was the day i can feel the concern and worry from "personal doctor", that was so warm and lovely for me.
After that day, "personal doctor" did not online for few days, in these few days i keep waiting him to online and chat with me before he fly to a country which far from me.
A day,2 days, he no online,i really scare that was just a dream for me and him, because he never like this before,i really scare. Do you understand my feeling??

I really wish time can stop at the moment on friday night,really wish too,but i know time will not stop of anyone. I decided to post "so wish the time can stop at there, too bad it can't", actually it mean i really don't wish you fly to a country that far from me, i really wish the weekend will not come.
I know because of this you think that i patch back with others, i also told you that i won't, i kidding with you that unless you are my bf; it mean i will not patch back with others yet i wish we can go further.
3 days that we never chat, when the day we chat, we argued and you doubt with my words.
It was really hard for me when you suspect my honesty, do you know it?
Never thought that our 1st argue happened on today, but surprisingly i know in certain point, our mindset could connect.
For example, i do wish to say to you that get a special gift or present from england with kidding; but you told me that you planned to give me a wonderful gift for me on xmas; n i do plan to buy a present for you.
I know this will not come true anymore, as the thing you passed in past.
Is it we got no fate to go further? Or am i expect too much? I got no idea with it.

p/s:
Sincerely, i really wish you can happy and we can meet when the day you come back.
But too bad, based on the current situation, i don't think that will come true to you and me.
I know no matter what i said, you will not believe anymore, but i still choose to explain to you as i don't wish there is any single misunderstand occur between us and make us regret in our life.

Bad Day

2010-12-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

Never thought that today will be my bad day, even not the worst.
I wait for almost whole day, my dear wiffy do not reply any single message in msn; and then personal doctor also dissapear in my list.
Am i really been fooled? I not sure, perhaps im not.
Really really in a down mood...>.<
I guess "personal doctor" is busy preparing for his stuff for leaving here and go to a country far away from me; although i know when will "personal doctor" come back here, perhaps we can do it.
I really don't know what shall i say, but i really wish to chat with you; too bad tonight i don't think we got the chance to chat at all......
Hope to see you tomorrow and chat with you as well...really wish too...^^

sick

2010-12-10T23:35:00.002+08:00

I very scare that the thing i having now will gone at next moment, especially when i din't see your name appear in my list.
I started scare and worry that will the memories,words you said to me was just a joke?
Started changed my mood from happy to moody, after that i found out i not feeling well...
It's so suffering.....stomach really drive me crazy, i hate the pain...!!
I had skipped my class for today, and consult doctor as well and got the MC slip for today..
Doctor advise me avoid oily food,and spicy food due to my stomach not feeling well...sigh..
After few hours i consult doctor, i saw your name appear in my list.

I was soooo happy, but sad that you no find me...
Later on, i saw your name appear again and you find me for chatting..
Surprisingly, from the way we chat you found out that i not happy and ask me why?
After i told you, i noticed that you worry and concern from your word.
I'm glad that you so concern about me, and the way you comfort me really nice, although there is nothing special, but i can feel that you really worry about me.
I told you that your word same with how the doctor talked to me, and you said that you can be my doctor, i told you that if you really wish to be my personal doctor, i will welcome you as well as long you want it.
You told me that you wish to, after that i agree you be my doctor.....sound funny right?
Then you asked me that do i feel better? i answered that ya,feel much better.
You become not that worry, after that i asked you what will you do to me when i not feel well?
You asked me what i need from you? I answered that depend what can you give me.
You laugh and said i'm smart and throw back the question to you, i continued ask what will you give me? You will make sure i sleep well, eat well and live well.
I asked just that? You answered this is what you can think about and asked me back what else i need?
I said since that is the thing you can give me,so i will accept it until we got the extra status i only will request more from you; and i know this is what you think about.
You answered me ya,what i said is same with what you think and you told me that you are happy to chat with me.

I know something cannot be force at this moment, and i also know that we did say will go slowly
I know you worry and concern about me after i told you that i not well
I know i did promise you that i will be your good girl, i will extra careful in my meal
Because i know if i sick, you will feel sad so i don't want you sad
Therefore i will extra careful in my meal and be your good girl as well.
Even i don't know can we together in future, but i really just to be your good girl and make you happy.
Too bad that you need to fly back to England next week, i hope we will keep in touch!!^^

Mixed Feeling

2010-12-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

Recently having mixed feeling although i know why..
Yesterday not really sleep well, keep awake for whole night...*sigh*
Luckily i not really tired, still able chatting around with my friend.
Today i feel very happy compare with yesterday...
because of...................*hehe*
After turn on my happy mood, i really feel nice..
Especially after chat with you...
The moment i chat with you really nice....*wakaka*
Too bad, i don't know how long could it be;but i do try my best to maintain it as i can..
I wish to leave good impression...
I hope that we can keep on contact so that we can exchange our life in different country.
Although in different country, i hope everything is goes smooth in our life...
Sincerely wish us have a good memories....*smile*

p/s:
Happy actually is a kind of feeling..
A simple thing or action can make someone become happy.
Mood can influence someone's feeling,
No matter good or bad, we shall smile everyday.
Smile to those who make you feel hurt, and thanks them as well.
Smile to those who make you happy, because you enjoy the happy moment.
Everyone can happy no matter what happen, just depend how you look at it.
Guy, if you found out my blog, i really wish that you could put down your sadness and happy always. Be the happy person, so that your life will become wonderful ^^

往事

2010-08-22T15:53:00.006+08:00

16/8/2010

这天我尝试了我认为这辈子不可能做的事情就是捐血。
很多人都会很好奇，以我的身形能捐血吗？
结果显示我能捐血，尽管很多人不相信，这的确是事实。
这天我和我朋友去了她以前就读的学校捐血，当我们抵达那里才知道是晚上九点才开始。
可我们却很早就抵达了，所以就去了附近的商场闲逛。
当时我的心情的确很兴奋和害怕，害怕我白来一场，幸好我能捐血。
当我坐上那椅子的一瞬间，的确很害怕，害怕很痛。
当我看见血从我的手流出来的瞬间，我知道我的血可以帮助有需要的人，
一直到护士把我的血分配好了，也把那插入我手的管拔了出来，就吩咐我休息一会儿。
在捐血的过程，我没有感到头晕，可是在我捐完之后，开始感到头晕，觉得冷和冒冷汗。
或许朋友感觉到我的不妥，在她捐完血的一瞬间，赶紧跑来我身边问我是否不妥？
护士也感觉到我的脸渐渐变成了苍白，赶紧跑来慰问我是否头晕，我点了一下头。
旁边的帅哥，似乎也看到我的不妥，然后护士把我的椅子调了一下，拿了一杯葡萄糖水给我喝
然后在休息一会儿，我问我身旁的朋友，我的脸是否很苍白？
她拿了她的电话帮我拍了一张照片，我看了自己也很吓倒，的确很苍白，难怪她很怕。
在休息了十多分钟，我告诉护士我感觉没头晕了，她再三地问我是否没事，我说是，我确定才让我离开让我们走了出去捐血的地方，那里有男护帮我们贴了胶布在捐血的地方，还拿了杯加了奶的美禄给我们。

过后时间不早了，赶紧和朋友离开那里，那时还在下雨，所以我和朋友等了一下，却在我在等的同时，看到了我不该看到的人，朋友也看到了，赶紧把我的脸转去另一端。那人也看到了我们，也走了过来，那时我用右手轻轻的抚摸我的左手那刚刚捐血的地方，那人似乎看见了，就说你们两个来捐血吗？
可是我的脸却没有任何表情，只是静静的看着前方的雨和车，这时那人站在我身后；和那人在一起的却是那位他新任的女友，我朋友也认识那人的女友，所以又和那位女生聊了一下，我却全程静静的站住。过后我转身和我朋友说，我很不舒服，想回家。说完，我就淋雨地走去我朋友停车的地方，头也不会走了，我知道我的那句话，那人也有听到。
过后，朋友跟我道歉说她不懂会遇到他们，我说没关系，避不了，就面对，没什么大不了。
朋友问我，我是真的不舒服吗？我说那是借口，我想再站在那里，她说她明白，我和她笑了一下，我说那女生就是他女友吗？
朋友说是，我说，也不会美到那里去，起码输给我，那女生只能赢在身材罢了。我说并不是我自夸我自己，我的确感觉不到那女生有哪一点好过我，心想或许那人眼睛有问题吧，哈哈。。。

无论如何，我和他已属过去。
他的出现让我知道通常用甜言蜜语追求女生的男生，并非真心。
他们心里想要别的东西，我只能说，他的确有着我想要的条件，可是，他却是个烂情人，一个敢做不敢当的烂人。
他所说的谎言，承诺全部是废话。
当初说不会离开我，因为他会和我面对一切的问题和阻挡；可是在下一秒，却离开我。
这样的男人，只得托付终身吗？我庆幸你能让我看清你的真面目，也让我不会缅怀过去和你一起的时光。我并不会恨你，也不会怪你。不恨是因为我不爱你了，不怪你是因为没必要，你不值得我去怪呢。

"往事只能回味，回忆只能收藏在心底。过去的一切，随风飘走。伤疤却还在心中，谎言让人看清人的本性。所有的一切，却是这么甜美和伤感，这就是爱。"

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2010-06-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

爱情是追到手的吗？
不是。真正的感情根本不需要追的。
两个人的默契，在慢慢将两颗心的距离缩短，在无意识中渐

渐靠近彼此。
从好朋友到情人，真正的感情是用不了多久的。
从你喜欢上他的那一刻起，也许他也在那一刻喜欢上了你。
同节奏的爱情往往能奏出最和谐最动听的乐章。
真正的爱情需要什么？
需要两个人在一起是轻松快乐的，没有压力。

爱一个人就是毫无保留地付出吗？
不是。每一个人都是一个独立的人，我们首先是属于自己的。
我们有思想，我们有个性，而不是把我们的全部都给对方。
我们可以有保留，比如你不愿意说的隐私，有秘密的人才是成熟的，不是吗？
有时候不说出来反而更好。

外貌和个性哪个更重要？
男人年轻的时候往往喜欢漂亮的女子，
25岁以后，会选择和自己性格合适的女子，能和自己一起过日子的人。
喜欢一个人，太急切了，反而不好。
一是因为越想得到的越得不到；
二是得到了也很难珍惜，来得快去得也快。
细水长流一些，爱情会更长久。
相爱容易相处难。相处中最重要的是宽容和妥协，在信任和了解的基础上。
没有宽容和妥协，任何两个人都无法相处。
纯纯的爱也许只有一次，但是真爱未必只有一次。
时间会抚平一切伤痕。
我们其实是可以爱上很多人的。
我们不是喜欢某个人，而是喜欢某种类型的人。
先来的人和我们相遇了，于是我们幸福地走到了一起；
对于后到的人，只能抱以歉意，同时，祝福他早日找到属于他自己的幸福。
没有谁是我们一生非拥有不可的，爱一个人，很多时候实际上是习惯了这个人
现实和浪漫哪个更重要？
现实。没有现实为基础，浪漫就是空中楼阁。
大学校园的爱情往往随着毕业而告终，大多是因为不现实，不在一个城市。
只有相互欣赏相互佩服各有所长的人，才会碰撞出最美丽的火花，也才会结出最甜美的爱情果实。

分手后我们还可以做朋友吗？
最好不要。剪不断，理还乱。
过去了就过去了，我们不是生活在过去，而是现在。
爱情不等于生活，只是生活的一部分。
不要因为自己长相不如对方而放弃追求的打算，
长相只是一时的印象，真正决定能否结合主要取决于双方的性格。
帅哥配丑女，丑女配帅哥的太多了。
恋爱的时间能长尽量长。
这最少有两点好处：一，充分、尽可能长的享受恋爱的愉悦，
二，两人相处时间越长，越能检验彼此是否真心，越能看出两人性格是否合得来。
想知道一个人爱不爱你，就看他和你在一起有没有活力，开不开心，
有就是爱，没有就是不爱
爱情不是感动，
你不是他心目中的理想伴侣，即使一时接受你，
将来碰上他心仪的那一位，一样会离开你。
有些人情绪容易大起大落，这样的人是很难维持一段长久的关系的。

浪漫是什么？
是送花？雨中漫步？楼前伫立不去？如果两人彼此倾心相爱，
什么事都不做，静静相对都会感觉是浪漫的。
否则，即使两人坐到月亮上拍拖，也是感觉不到浪漫的。
是否门当户对不要紧，最重要应该是兴当趣对，不然没有共同语言，
即使在一起，仍然会感觉到孤独。
持久的爱情源于彼此发自内心的真爱，建立在平等的基础之上。
任何只顾疯狂爱人而不顾自己有否被爱，
或是只顾享受被爱而不知真心爱人的人都不会有好的结局。
爱情既是风险投资，难免有去无回，失恋是再正常不过的事情。
爱过，就够了。
既然不能在一起，总有不能在一起的理由。
不能因为别人负了你，就不负责任地游戏、报复或是堕落，自己演的戏，总要自己收场的。
何况，他不爱你，你做什么他都不会在乎。
如果爱上，就不要轻易放过机会。莽撞，可能使你后悔

Special day

2010-05-28T14:08:00.002+08:00

Today 28/05/2010 and tomorrow 29/05/2010 is a special day for me
Why shall i say special??because.....

Today is second month that i know you and also a date we start our friendship
and tomorrow........err....i keep it as a secret in my heart XD

Many thing is different comparing the month after we know each other until now..
But for me......today and tomorrow is a hard day for me to pass through it...
If i could pass it, i believe my life will be better than now...
If i couldn't pass it, i still will stay at the corner there continue my sad and emo life..
As a girl, honestly i don't wish to waste my time on a emo and waiting an uncertain answer from someone...
You can say i stupid, silly, or maybe ask me back am i like the person as well?
I can answer that, ya, i like the person but who can tell me how long shall i wait for the answer?
There are few possible answer, which is:

1. After i wait for a long time, then you come back to me and said you are ready to get a gf and start a relationship with me happily.
2. If i give up to wait the answer, i can continue my life alone and other thing just let it be. Fate is a thing which no one can predict and control, when it come, there is no one can stop it.
3. If i wait the answer, but end up the final i get is sorry, we really cannot start even we like each other, i think we better become friend, sorry.

Love can consider as a gambling, no one will know what is the ending.
Love can consider as a pair of shoes, only the right shoe will not make your foot feel pain.
Love can consider as share, no one will know when will it increase or decrease.

What type of shoes suitable my foot??
Seriously, i got no idea for it or change another way to say which is i still waiting my right shoe.
I believe that i could pass through these two days....
Not i don't want to wait, i just no dare to take a risk because i don't know what you want
From the way you treat me hot changed to cold, i really lost, but after few days i know i must continue my life as usual.
But right now, im enjoying my life as i can,try not to think any single thing of you.
When i saw your name, my heart feel pain.
When i saw your photo i miss you.
Sometime i wonder, if that time i don't change my mind will it better than now?
Anyway, this question i will just keep in my heart same as how much i miss you, i will keep it as well XD

MCQ

2010-05-03T21:25:00.003+08:00

finally everything clear with multiple choice......
finally i ask that question, even i wish to ignore it...
but answer............
shall it be better? i got no idea...really....
started to act happy...
started to act nothing....
started to keep repeat i am fine.....
started to keep repeat don't worry.....
started to act smile.......

when the moment i stop everything, your face appear in my mindset again....
when the moment i studying...
when the moment i listening song.......
when the moment i driving.....
when the moment i bathing......
and etc....

really no idea since when i become this..
keep tell myself....concentrate..
keep tell myself....focus...
keep tell myself....don't think so much..
keep tell myself....must happy...
keep tell myself....must trust....

end up everything mess up...the thing i always do, i mess up because of i not in the good condition
no sorry, no guilty, no blame, no angry and etc...
i try to understand your situation when you told me the answer...
sorry that you met me,
sorry that you like me,
sorry that make you so suffer....
sorry.....

i told you that i understand..i understand that not your fault..
i understand that you feel lost...i understand....
i understand that you not yet ready...when the moment you ready........i no dare to think...
the more excuses i find for you to make myself feel better, the more failure am i...
there is nothing i can do right now, unless agree the request you said to me....
the thing i can do is...trust you, trust fate between us, trust you can walk out from somewhere you stuck with, try not to disturb you as i can and let you calm down to have clear mindset to ready for your coming exam....

"could we do this"?
"could we overcome this problem"?
i got no idea for it,
i really no dare to think of it,
but i will do it if in the end the thing is change, i'll accept it because certain is couldn't force. however i don't know how long will it takes, just can wait and trust...no matter worth or not....

beautiful misunderstanding

2010-05-02T21:36:00.003+08:00

beautiful moment

1st day we know, first time we chat......
everything is beautiful even those memory recall by me right now....
that moment, can be consider as beautiful and relax....
slowly.......things change between us......
at first, i ignore, but too bad....the feeling cannot lie....end up i face wit the feel i have...
lucky that......we have same feeling to each other...that i very glad....and happy......

day by day......the thing we talk about..the thing we know about getting more and deeper.....
shall i categories that is a good thing for us? actually i trust that is good thing...but............
when the thing we know more bout each other.....the more thing we share out with each other.......
i really thought will be fine, will be alright, will be better, will be happier....and etc......
slowly wait the text you sent to me everyday, wait the call from you, wait you chat with me.........
it is a sweet moment actually, i no doubt with it!! really!!
the more sweet word from each other, make me feel that yes, this is the thing i want........
the more we spend time with, the more i get addicted with.....
trying to cheat myself...end up fail......
when the moment i need help, you are the one who stay beside me and support me...
when i down, you be there for me and make me laugh back......

when the more thing you do for me.......the more deeper i stepped.....
when the more thing you concern about me....the more i feel happy and warm...
when the more thing you share with me.....the more i rely on you....
when the moment i share my favorite song with you, you said you like it......
when the moment i listen back the song i share with you, i smile.....
when the moment i see back all the text you sent, i feel warm.....
when the moment i think back the advice you told me, i feel sweet......
when the moment i miss you, i feel sweet because got you!

beautiful starting

from the day by day, time by time.................
both of us got a different feeling toward each other........
finally on a special date........we have a normal but sweet starting.........
everything seems smooth......
everything seems nice.....
everything seems happy.....
everything seems sweet....
everything seems warm........

beautiful moment + beautiful starting = beautiful misunderstanding

things start to change from a night.....
is that i think too much?
is that i too sensitive?
is that the fact?
is that this and that.........
and then..........things prove that what i feel is correct.....
started to be moody..
started to be upset....
started to be unhappy...
started to be hurt...
started to be cry......
started to see, recall,think all the thing i have......end up hide at a corner and cry alone.....
it sound so pity.....maybe change another word....today the thing i get from you....."ya,we are too fast" maybe is just a beautiful misunderstanding.....maybe.......i hate maybe....because "maybe" is the word and excuses that for those people who don't wish to responsible.....

p/s: am i do wrong? i not sure..really....i know we are serious with each other....but...what is the main problem? i really don't know.....after cry out, i feel much better...never expect that i will cry out...after that keep repeating the song i share with you.......actually.....i really miss you....shall i say this to you? i no idea...i just be who am i when i with you....

Baskin Robbin for 31/03/10

2010-03-31T16:47:00.006+08:00

Guess what is it??
Hehehe...can you guess it??
hehehe..tips: If you every wednesday wear pink color shirt will get discount..^-^
hehhee...Finally reach 31 of the month..wow...
Answer is : Ice-cream from Baskin Robbin
I bought it after my class..lucky not much people o..XD

Oh yeah!!
That is my favorite flavor for this ice-cream XD
The top want is mint with chocolate chip..
Seems delicious yummy yummy =)
The bottom of the flavor i can't remember >.<" Obviously i bought it for myself..^-^ Too bad..=.= this ice-cream melted..hmm.. :-(

This half gallon got four flavor of ice-cream..
I also don't even remember what flavor i mix for this half gallon...O.o"
Hmm...this is for my parent...because....they ask me to buy it..hehehe.. :-)
Wakaka...parent can have delicious dessert after their dinner..yippie..

For someone: *my dear gf*
My dear gf-> those photos i taken just to share with you oh..hehhe..i hope those photos can make you feel happy and excited..^-^
If got chance, we go to eat Baskin robbin together ok ma?

p/s: hope these photos can make my dear happy back..XD

有些话不是随便说说而已

2009-12-26T22:24:00.007+08:00

好久没有在此写下我的心情，这几天比较忙于工作，也比较累，可是却依依不舍这些和你们相处过的时间。原本以为不可能会变成朋友，偏偏我们成了好朋友。你们的出现使我在那里觉得不那么闷兼无聊，你们说说笑笑虽然有点冷，可是我却配合你们，也渐渐融入你们的世界，也渐渐让我依依不舍，那种感觉无法形容，可以说是矛盾。我知道我必须放弃一样来换回一样，也知道什么是我该放弃的。我不愿意等待或看见那天的来临，因为对我们来说是离别，不知心中的你们是否有同感，还是你们已习惯。还可以和你们朝夕相对的日子渐渐越来越少，也是我渐渐的不舍得和不习惯。虽然相处的时间不长，可是我却渐渐习惯了你们的存在。当我渐渐适应和习惯，离别的日子却越来越近，该怎么办才好呢？虽然有了人手来代替我所做的一切可是。。。。。。。心情无法形容。。。。俗语说天下无不散筵席，应该可以代替我说要表达的一切。。。该好好珍惜和你们相处的时间，虽然万般不舍得，我明白终究得习惯，终究得舍得。。。希望未来还能保持联络。。认识到你们真好，虽然真的很忙可是却享受那些时光。。。谢谢你们。。。

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吴若权的书“男人心，回纹针”里写道有些话不是随便说说而已里有写到男人随便说说的话，女人不见得要认真介意。却要仔细思考他所说的，在心底有个分析。有些话只是为了增加相处的情趣，有些话却另有目的。其实该如何分辨真假，每个女生的心里都会有所考量。是否每个男生所说的话就可以当真？那么男生的句子里的真实度何在？每当每个女生相信了该男生所说的话，到头来得到的却是伤害时，责任该归功于谁？是女生天真的一厢情愿去相信？还是男生不该说出一些话让女生觉得很可能实现？在现实世界里，很多事情都是残忍的，很多人说唯有强者才能留在这现实兼残忍的世界里。是否每个男女都想在两性之间的关系中扮演着强者的角色才能把身边的人留在他/她的身边？当现实是残忍兼现实是否意味着两性之间也和残忍兼现实化上等号？是否当上强者就能真的开心的生活？或许换句话说是否每一方面都当上强者，那么你的人生就会完美无瑕？

The day after my bday

2009-11-12T21:45:00.003+08:00

It's been more than a week after my birthday..
Hmm...nothing much changes, everything still same and normal~
This year's birthday get few surprise from my family,friends and someone who special..
Really thanks you and appreciate those surprise that they give me..memorable neh~yippie~
Recently feel very tired, shoulder keep pain and sour...what happen exactly??
After spend a nice holiday with someone, it's time for me to start working life~
Although still haven't use to it but i believe i still can do it as well~ (gambateh~)
Everyday have to wake up at 6:45am and start work at 8am,lucky still able to work..
So i need to sleep earlier if not sure fishing in the office, (lucky boss not found out keke ^-^)
The working place...erm...just a small company,but everyday like having war..
See the worker busy and busy, the boss's face very black but i think they are nice too..
Past three days just keep on do the same thing, even is small matter but it can make me busy all the time..
Hmm...wonder when could i learn new thing from them??
After i start work, i can have my normal meal (previously i do not eat meal punctually =.=)
Morning mummy cook for me before she go to work,then lunch time...go eat with my colleague or go home alone to have it, after i finish work, go back home and prepare some ingredient for dinner and wait mummy come back and cook ^-^ (sound nice)
Even just a temporary job, but i feel lucky that i still able to get a job even they need permanent worker than temporary...
Even i know is tired,but i still hope can continue my work until they get a new admin..
I feel happy and sweet that got morning call from someone even my day is tired and tired..(thanks to the person who everyday wake me up ^o^)
Hmm....it's time to bed...tomorrow need to work as today on leave because both of my leg cramp..=.="

[ ♥ love.u.memory ♥ ]

Taregga Guitar Camp 2011 ( Part 2 )

Tarrega Guitar Camp 2011 ( Part 1 )

2012

15/12/11

*struggling*

December of 2011 part 1

Actual Celebration of My Bday 2011

The Earlier Celebration in 2011

Butterfly by Murai

惊喜 vs 伤感

Gospel Concert Banquet

Tomato sausage spaghetti and mushroom soup

那里。明白。如果。只能

Miri Trip in 2011 ( Part 4 )

07/05/2011

Miri Trip in 2011 ( Part 3 )

Miri Trip in 2011 ( Part 2 )

Miri Trip in 2011 ( Part 1 )

Photos of Beryl's

Thinking about "you"

"Wood chopstick"

Special sitting

M's gathering

回忆里的梦

Past Memory

Doubt

Thank You

The answer part 1

33 hours

曾经。友谊

complicated

Uncertain

" Great Day "

End of 2010 (part 2)

End of 2010 (part 1)

就让一切回到原点.

Merry X'mas

Bad Sign

Bad Day

sick

Mixed Feeling

往事

Article from Facebook

Special day

MCQ

beautiful misunderstanding

Baskin Robbin for 31/03/10

有些话不是随便说说而已

The day after my bday

struggling